I've been trying to figure out how to articulate my interesting relationship with "Church" (the place) lately and this morning it finally hit me. I was listening to a song that reminded me of a time in my life when I was in DEEP pain and I was so desperate for Jesus to come and save me and he "didnt" and I was upset about that. So I use to go to church every week just desperate for whatever it was that I needed to do or say to get Jesus to finally come see about me in my pain. I thought I could fast and pray trouble away. I thought I could special offering my way to breakthrough. I thought I could run one more lap to a miracle. And I was so desperate - always so desperate for a #supernatural #miracle that I missed out on the miracle in discipline. The miracle in obedience. The miracle in #wisdom. The miracle in learning the lesson. The miracle in consistency. The miracle in #mindfulness. The miracle in knowing that joy and worthiness is now... not one more buck shout away. I still believe in fasting and praying - because "these kind" will only come out by fasting and praying but I do believe that some of my intention earlier in life was trying to manipulate God into loving me enough to do it my way when clearly my way would have me (redacted entire Shari was that I originally typed here 😬) You know what that is? 🤲🏿 Growth! 😹 I still believe in special offerings but not that the offering changed the thing, God had already done it and I didn't need to give away my light bill money to make it happen. And as the author of #FiveMilesToJesus I CERTAINLY believe in one more lap but not to make me more worthy... just to tone these thighs up on the way to the glory that God has already secured for me. I realized that church used to make me feel insufficient. And I REALLY miss, in a deep and passionate way, the corporate worship experience of my youth... but I don't miss feeling like I'm one more act of contrition away from worthiness when God called me worthy before I was formed in my mothers womb. #TheFreePeopleProject <- Holiness is still right because Wholeness is absolutely right! (at East Harlem) https://www.instagram.com/p/B86-QA0pS_y/?igshid=2qplnbqf8toy

I lost 80 pounds in 2011 on accident. I was going through a deep depression and the only thing that helped was walking. This is where the book #FiveMilesToJesus came from. I was out of shape and when I first started walking the best I could do was make it to the corner. Out of breath, I'd return to the house with a little piece of relief and a moment of peace. I knew I just needed to walk until I saw Jesus. So I started walking to that corner every day, several times a day, until I began to see my endurance and capacity stretched. I could walk a little further each day. And then a slight jog. And then a run. And then running for longer distances. Until one day I saw that I could run for MILES without dying. ---- The key was my breathing. I had to condition myself to be able to walk, then jog, then run. I learned this through trial and error but I also started studying to show myself approved (a workman RIGHTLY dividing the word of truth). I had a coach. A counsel of wise elders. I was in therapy. And I was reading something daily about perseverance, endurance, strength training, growth, and personal (spiritual) development. ---- My original intention when I started on that journey was that I wanted the thing back that I "lost." My reasons changed QUICKLY though as I began to passionately pursue my purpose. "You can have it ALL... it's all about your reasons." - #NipseyHussle ---- I am still learning that the spirit of the most high God will withhold some things that I have BEGGED for because (1) it's no good for me and (2) sometimes I just need to get my reasons to align with my purpose. Come to find out, "Stunting on heaux" is not reason enough for God to bless you sometimes. Who would have thought? ---- Are you pacing yourself? Do you think you gonna start today and be stunting tomorrow? Do you lack discipline? Do you refuse to seek guidance? Are you consistent? "Gotta pace yourself it's all about your breathing.” ---- If you are someone that needs intentional support establishing themselves in their industry and want to do the work of pacing & identifying your authentic reasons please visit bit.ly/bgmaccelerator || #TheFreePeopleProject (at New York, New York) https://www.instagram.com/p/ByAYrLTlVF0/?igshid=4filwhngr28u

This is my regularly scheduled post about why #therapy should be accessible to all people and building a wellness plan that includes a healthy community, mentors that pour into you with deep grace, a therapist that will help you to name and maneuver through your past hurts, and a coach that will give you strategies and tools to clear and build! PeriodT. . . . Again, I recognize that my current access to all that is a privilege but also I want to add today that I am resourceful than a mug! Before I cld afford the kind of holistic wellness team I had: 1. I was side eyeing all my closest relationships like 👀 “Are we growing? Or nah?” 2. I was harassing @myvicariouslyfe via her texts, phone, DMs, pulling up to Roswell at her job. Whatever. 3. I was taking advantage of counseling at my church (although I want to caution to not stay at just counseling get to a licensed therapist in addition to your religious professional counselor if they aren’t licensed or have some type of clinical training) <- preferably a therapist of color that has some decolonized practices to incorporate into your treatment plan). 4. I was deeply invested in my physical wellness in Relation to my mental & spiritual wellness. #FiveMilesToJesus <- Click That! 5. I was frequently in discussion with my elders because Godly counsel!!! . . . So... who is your support? And how much are they committed to your #surthrival? (word to @lyvonnep) I talk often abt my Authority Clarity Calls as Intro coaching for strategies abt how to maneuver the current blockages keeping you from launching out into the deep but there are many ways to work with me in an ongoing way. A clarity call is just a great way yo see if we are. A great fit. You get massive coaching and strategies on call one so schedule yours today or email to learn more abt ways to work with me onward. Www.thefreepeopleproject.com/clarity-call #TheFreePeopleProject https://www.instagram.com/p/BxSKGWQlpb5/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=p0hsqshgsz5b

#FiveMilesToJesus || I have been talking a lot about strategies lately with my clients and friends. I get it. We get to the end of a year and (1) winter tends to make us moodier (2) holidays often make us sad or melancholy (3) #newyears creeping up making us evaluate our lives. || So I’m all about creating #rituals of #selfcare and sharing those rituals as strategies for others. “This worked for me... give it a try, it may work for you!” || Having said that... my book Five Miles to Jesus has been coming up in discussions a lot because this is the “How To Not Die” manual fo yo LIFE! It’s 10 chapters of “this is what I did when i thought i was gonna die that kept me alive.” <- Also, how i legit worshiped 80 pounds off and was radically propelled into my #destiny. || Get your cool today from EbonyJanice.com || Pull up! #TheFreePeopleProject (at Berkeley, California)

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🔹At Work. 🔹Doing the final edits for me and @nikkiblak's book that literally comes out in 27 minutes. 🔹Sleepy. 🔹Listening to #SlowlySurely on repeat. 🔹Vowing to never betray my heart again. 🔹Making strategic plans to get back on track with my #FiveMilesToJesus 🔹#Grateful for a dream. 🔹And for #hope. 🔹And for status changing. 🔹This picture is a fake #smile. 🔹But you gotta see it before you see it or you never will see it. 🔹I want some #capncrunch. 🔹That has nothing to do with anything but #nameste anyways! #TheFreePeopleProject #EbonyJanice (at Starr King School for the Ministry)

Because many of you are new to this church you likely don't know that #FiveMilesToJesus is my 4th published book. || In my coaching I talk often about the #miracle of a #memory. The #testimony of "I thought I was going to die" that turned into "I DIDNT DIE" is one that I'm certain I'll be sharing forever. || Five Miles to #Jesus; The #Radical #Worship that saved my life is my response to the scripture, "You will reap a #harvest in due season if you faint not." 👀 Oh... Ok. Well... What does it look like until due season comes? What am I supposed to be doing with my brokenness and this grief until then? <- I deal with the strategy ok this book. || If you have it... I have heard from you about how much it moved you and empowered you. || if you haven't gotten yours yet... www.thefreepeopleproject.com || #TheFreePeopleProject