Fitz anon here and I walked straight into the imaginary friend thing. Though I will admit that I understand the cloning, the paradoxes, but we get to the imaginary friend bit and I just go ??? Though I thought starting with Blue Angel was a good idea sooooo
I also started with Blue Angel! (It was the first one to arrive on my doorstep from Amazon and I wasnāt going to wait...the second was Year of Intelligent Tigers, which in retrospect was probably a good thing). Almost nothing will psych you out after that, I figure, except maybe Trevor Baxandale, for completely different reasons.
Iām forever somewhat amused and somewhat heartbroken that Fitz and the Earth-Arc-and-After Doctor operate on opposite theories about the significance of memory to identity, incidentally.
And now that I think about it, thereās yet another moment of --sort of?--imaginary friending inĀ āTime Zero,ā or at least a point where someoneās existential status is decided via the power of love and belief. Maybe more of a Tinkerbell Fitz moment. I loved it.Ā
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The ship is my: most OTP of OTPs, the juggernaut, theĀ āi wanna marry it and settle down with itā ship
I consider this shipās feelings: Mutual | Mixed | Strange | Awkward | Platonic | Sibling-like | One-sided | They donāt really like each other |
Iād consider the relationship: Healthy | Awkward | Abusive | Doesnāt work properly | Theyād never get together |
Children: No | Yes | Theyād think about it
General Opinion: can I just like...start crying and then you can interpret that?
No? okay so theyāre these two people who started off with low opinions of each other and then slowly grew into this pair that I canāt even fathom being separated. They care deeply about each other. I really wish that the books had given us more scenes of them communicating with each other about their feelings, but the times when they DO are usually very caring and concerned interactions
Theyāre both good at comforting. They notice when something is wrong and they talk about it, or just silently do what needs to be done. Warm socks, comfort food, a bath, playing music together- all easy things to make the other person feel better.
The most difficult thing about this pair is that The Doctor sometimes forgets Fitzās limits because heās so easy going and devoted. Sometimes he forgets to take others into account entirely, and that can be tough for Fitz to point out or deal with. They both can get jealous when the other dates/hangs out with someone else a lot, which is a bit silly.
Fitz is never not going to be awkward in some situations, but he finally gets to be comfortable when heās with the Doctor, and the Doctor trusts Fitz with his life, his memory, and his heart(s).
So yesterday this was going to be a drabble for Amnesia day of Eight/Fitz week...but then I wrote about sixteen hundred more words. Whoops.
(set sometime after Earthworld, some vague spoilers within for Interference and Ancestor Cell.)
It's the middle of the night when Fitz pulls on a pair of well-worn socks, shuffles down the hallway and pulls open an intricately carved wooden doorway. The library is huge and beautiful like a lot of spaces in the TARDIS are beautiful- grandiose, but in a way that somehow doesn't make him feel small.Ā
He feels included in among the thousands of stories, and when he feels alone, sitting among all of those voices here is something of a comfort. He's a story himself, just one that's not yet finished being told. He feels closest to the TARDIS here, too. Closer more than ever now, since she helped to recreate him. She is, is small ways, part of him.
As he walks by a shelf, he notices that it's filled with children's books, Doctor Seuss to the Velveteen Rabbit laid out in colorful rows of paper and cloth. He pats the shelf companionably as he walks by. It's kind of her to place things she knows he likes in his path, but that's not what he's looking for right now.
Two left turns, one right, and he's in front of a usually-out-of-the-way bookcase where he stores his own writing. With a groan, he kneels down onto the floor and pulls out a small stack of wire bound notebooks from the bottom shelf. With aĀ huff, he pulls his legs around to a cross-legged position, then opens the first of the notebooks.Ā
Here it is, the life of Fitz Kreiner, laid out in small spiky writing and dressed up in a dozen different costumes. Fitz Kreiner, legendary playboy, Fitz Fortune, interstellar rockstar. Fitzwilliam Fort, brilliant paranormal detective. James Bond in space. Hereās his life, minus everything that he thought might be embarrassing or unsuited to a story about the journey of a hero.
He goes through each one, reading through, and trying to remember. The other Fitz, the original, heās the one that wrote every word of this. He may remember the events, can pick out where the accounts are more fiction than reality, but thatās not what heād wanted to find here.
He wants he rushed across the room grinning like I was the best thing heād seen all day, grabbed my shoulders and pulled me down. He kissed me. He kissed me and I felt-
He wants I love her, but I canāt leave the Doctor. This is more important, will always be more important, because-
He wants there to be a mention anywhere that might confirm how he feels about the Doctor now. Even if it were a note scribbled in the margins, he would take it. As long as it said I think I love him.
When he gets to the last page of the last notebook, he holds it tightly in his hands. Thereās nothing. Not how heād felt so much confusion about the Doctor when they first met, or how heād slowly noticed his smile, his presence, how comfortable he felt with him. Not one mention of the blind terror of thinking the Doctor might be dead. Not a single line in the entire span that describes this hot ache in his chest.
What if he only remembers it that way because thatās what he wants now? What if the TARDIS wanted him to love the Doctor, and made it so?
With disgust, he flings the notebook down the short aisle. It lands a few feet away with an unsatisfying whup on the carpeted floor, shortly followed by the dull thud of him letting his head fall back against the bookcase. He wonders idly what the animals from the Velveteen Rabbit would think about him. Would the Rabbit still have become Real if it were a copy of the one that had been loved into becoming? What if neither the child nor the Rabbit were sure of the love that had created it?
He hears a few muffled footsteps and when Fitz looks up, Anji is picking up his notebook and flipping through it. Even as he feels tenuous embarrassment clench in his stomach, she smiles down at him. āThis is funny, has the Doctor read these?ā He pushes a leg under himself and awkwardly gets up from his seated position. Heād been sitting there for too long. Should have got a chair.
He reaches out for the notebook. "He doesn't want to know any of this. But...he could read it. Itās not really what happened. I never wrote down anything important.ā
She gives him an odd look. He hasnāt really learned to interpret her yet, and heās not sure whatās going through her head behind this whole furrowed eyebrow thing thatās happening, but after a moment she hands the notebook back to him. āMaybe you should start.ā
āWhat?ā He pulls back a step, tucking the notebook under his arm, safe.
āMaybe you should start writing about the important things.ā
Heās not used to this level of sincerity from her, but the sharp bob and the button-up go a long way to giving her an air of authority that he feels almost obligated to respect. Heās struck by the idea that the notebooks arenāt finished. That, if he is Fitz, loved or unloved, heās the only one that can change them. Heās the only one that can write more. Maybe in the long run that wonāt be enough, but it is something to think about.
Sheās giving him that funny look again, so he smirks back down at her. āYou mean like you falling madly in love with me?ā
āNot even a little bit.ā Anji rolls her eyes and reaches out to ruffle his hair, but reconsiders when she sees how greasy it is. She settles her hand at his shoulder instead and gives it a friendly pat before drawing her hand back. āI was looking for you- The Doctor is making breakfast.Ā Breakfasts,ā she intones, as if this is the intro to a new horror flick about fried ham.Ā āHe said he couldnāt remember his favorite or your favorite and he never knew mine, so heās making everything. You have to distract him from trying to make me eat twenty different breakfasts. Plus tea.ā
Fitzās smirk shifts into a smile as he imagines the doctor surrounded by twelve types of eggs and twice as many varieties of tea. Sounds like he might need to interfere before things get serious. āSounds delicious. Iāll be there.ā
She considers him a moment longer before wrinkling her nose up at him. āMaybe take a shower first. But donāt take too long.ā Anji huffs out a dry laugh and turns to walk away, muttering, āHe didnāt even make coffee.ā
Fitz watches her go, then pulls the notebook out from under his arm and flips itās cover closed. Next, he kneels, gathers the rest of them up and slots them back onto their place on the shelf.
Once heās back in his room, he grabs an empty notebook, writes a single line, then heads off to take a shower.
The Doctorās making us breakfast. I think I love him.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Doctor Who: Eighth Doctor Adventures - Various Authors
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Eighth Doctor & Fitz Kreiner, and/or Eighth Doctor/Fitz Kreiner
Additional Tags: Time War, Fix-It, continuity porn, continuity gorn, Hurt/Comfort, gen but open to slashy readings
Summary:
In which I try to fit all my headcanons about Fitz Kreinerās fate into a single (semi-)coherent story. Thereās no required reading, although some knowledge of Year of Intelligent Tigers wouldnāt hurt.
Warnings: angst (and a fix-it that may or may not be satisfying), playing with timey-wimey metaphysics, distinct lack of Britpicking
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In light of the doctor playin guitar in the last ep...
Who wants to hear my weird headcanon in which fitz kreiner is actually the doctor?
OK SO. (disregarding everything to do with the War Doctor because I SAY SO) -
Fitz is still on the TARDIS. They argue about him staying on Earth but ultimately he stays with the Doctor and continues to travel with him. Thatās the way itās always been and as much as Fitz sometimes longs for Earth, the TARDIS is his home now. He tried living on Earth and after a while he got homesick. When Gallifrey is found again, he goes with him. They still travel, but they keep going back to Gallifrey because the Doctor gets tied up in some political bullshit that he hates, but though it heās making some improvements too. Things slowly get better.Ā
Itās still difficult on Gallifrey for a human. Everyone assumes heās no more than a pet, but thereās precedent for the Doctorās companions on Gallifrey and Fitz gets to meet Ace who is in training to be a Time Lady.Ā
Ace convinces Fitz to follow the same path, and it takes him a very long time, but with a little bit of maneuvering from the Doctor heās finally given a regeneration cycle. The actual title of Time Lord isnāt granted because he fails all of the exams. Heās 65 years old. He makes the Doctor bake him a cake. It tastes amazing.
War comes. The Doctor is fighting on the front lines for the planet he already lost once before. Heās worked to improve the system, it was getting better, and now this will ruin everything. Even if the planet is saved, he knows that an event like this will draw the timelords back into their isolation and xenophobia. The Doctor is sad and frustrated and Fitz is less able than ever to help him.Ā
The Doctor rushes into a battle that thereās no way of winning. Daleks are everywhere and more are coming. Heās unprotected and his backup is getting picked off one by one. Clever ideas are a thing of the past. Fitz knows that he has to get down there and save the Doctor.Ā
He makes it to the Doctor and he yells out for him to come back, to get back on the TARDIS, to save who they can and just GO. The Doctorās eyes widen and he runs forward. Amidst the charge of battle, Fitz smiles to see The Doctor actually doing as heās asked for once.Ā
Only, the Doctor wasnt running to Fitz. He was running to save Fitz. The Dalek blast hits the Doctor in the back and heās gone before he hits the ground. In the next moment, a glancing blow hits Fitz and he falls down. There, against all reason and against his own will, he regenerates for the first time.Ā
Maybe itās that the Time Lords never expected Fitz to survive and the Doctor to die. Maybe itās that something of the Doctor merged with him when he regenerated there in the dust. Either way, when he makes it back to the citadel they call him The Doctor. They ask him to make a choice. He does.
Alone, and with Gallifrey crumbling behind him, he climbs into the TARDIS and leaves. He lands on Earth, slips on his leather jacket, and walks out the door. He thinks to himself that the universe could do without a Fitz Kreiner, but it could never do without the Doctor. He might be second rate, but he can do this. Heās saved the world before. Maybe, with a little help, he can do it again.
Which 8th doctor books are these, with the bi characters and lesbians? Are any of them out on audio?
They were produced while Doctor Who was off air completely, so in some cases theyāre not even in print anymore. You can buy them second-hand, and they are available for Kindle (even if you donāt have one you can still read kindle books on you computer). This site has excellent summaries of the books and links to each amazon page:Ā http://www.drwhoguide.com/books.htm#BBC8
I personally uploaded a bunch of PDF versions of the books. Theyāre hit-or-miss on formatting, but theyāre there! (https://www.mediafire.com/?cfhh4zme57c7h)Ā
Fitz, the bi character, is introduced in The Taint and goes through to the end of the series. I personally love The Taint for a lot of reasons, but a lot of people seem to get more interested in the series if they start at Revolution Man, which has a lot of action going on. If you want to skip right to the bit where the Doctor kisses Fitz, start at Dominion (but you might miss a bit of context that way).
The comics ARE in print and feature Izzy and Fey in a nice big compilation book:(http://www.amazon.com/Doctor-Who-Endgame-Complete-Eighth/dp/1905239092)
I realize this is a LOT of info, so leme know if you need anymore help :3
They and Eight would make the best shiny bisexual TARDIS team ever.Ā
Especially because Fitzās arc is all about evolving into a hero and Cass already starts off heroic. It would be interesting to play them off each other.
(Especially in a Time War-adjacent timeline, where cosmic horror is occasionally seeping in...)
