#firsttshot

First T shot done! #T #testosterone #hrt #hormonereplacementtherapy #ftm #trans #transgender #transman #transmale #firstTshot

I gave alex his first t shot yesterday and it was an amazing moment. the smile on his face was priceless. I am so glad he allowed me to share that moment with him. IT was kind of bitter sweet though. He is an amazing man and i am so glad to be his friend but i want so much more. he has a million reasons why we cant be together and has no problem throwing them in my face, even on one of the most exciting days of his life. I realize that he needs to focus on him and thats fine i just wish he werent so mean to me sometimes. last night was the worst i have ever seen him. He was screaming at me and lecturing me. We knew that there was a potential for mood swings after injecting but i didnt think it would happen this quickly. I am afraid that i will say or do something and he will just fly off the handle.. I just want to be a support system for him and i want to make him happy... seeing him super upset last night absolutely killed me.. it breaks my heart that on the most amazing day of his life he felt like evryone was against him. I love him so much i just want things to me easy for him, and i want everyone to see him the way i do.. his main complaint last night was th eway i always try to correct people for using the wrong pronouns and how i always try to fight his battles for him.. thats just what i do for people i care about.. i want to make things easier for them.. i just hope that he can be happy...