#firstpoemever

A firefly in pitch darkness

That's who you are

A temporary solace from the void

While waiting for the star

Fret not, you've fascinated me

Even while making me yearn

For the hope of that pristine white light

I thought I could never earn.

Then you made me feel whole

When I'm still half my way

In my journey towards the light

Towards an even brighter day

I then came to fancy the firefly more

I no longer seek the gleam of tomorrow

Now I forgo that blurring, dulling reality

While getting to know more of this cave of sorrow

The hopeful prospects of the bright light

Slowly gloomed as the days had gone by

I stick instead to what is seen and heard;

To what is here and to what will stand by

Hurry morning; shed your light upon me

Deign me even a glimpse of your shadow

So I can now bid goodbye to the firefly

How must I forget my reason to live?

You are the sun that brings light to my life,

Ask to bury my sun, I won’t forgive.

Without my light, I’ll live dark nights in strife.

Living in the dark, how’s it possible?

My memories of you are permanent.

Forgetting you will be impossible,

Like recalling someone I’ve never met,

But I will do as you desire my love.

I’ll attempt the impossible for you.

Sweet words you’ve said to me, I’ll get rid of.

Erase all of you, make my mind brand new.

I’ll do as you say, but don’t do the same.

The very first thing I wrote.

It helped me figure out a lot of things I didn’t even know i felt.

A world of sadness, a three words to pain

Wanting to say, I love you again and again

How is it that this world came to be

All because of a hope set free

 A world of indifference, blissful apathy

Living your life, unwary of the pain you’ve cause me

Oh how much you don’t know lovely lady

A few words that you said broke me

 Because of our differences together would never stay

The barrier that keeps us two worlds away

But I keep insisting on hurting myself

Over something long dusty in your shelf

 Stubborness, stupidity all these would say

I still would like to dance the macabre

The waltz where hope did start

And ended on Christmas Eve when you broke my heart

 Divergent spheres, convergent lives

This realization stabs me with knives

This life can’t seem to find direction

But why when I see you it’s no misconception

  Odin bound the Nine Realms but our worlds are an exception

If we were to be joined this would cause Ragnarok’s inception

No pathway will show in the branches of Yggdrasil

But I’d be happy to stare and think of you out a windowsill

 I wouldn’t know what to do anymore

To walk away or to love you more

I see myself as an enigma unsolved

But my problem with you remains unresolved

 The heart dictates what the mind rebuts

I know that I will never make your cuts

But still the heart demands

And this desire rebounds and remands

 I can’t seem to stop making it gain

After all that I’ve gone through still fighting through the pain

Angels only hurt it with their golden bows

Whilst I still see you the pearl among sows

 The story of my life and what I say everyday

I see you and fears grow then melt away

I have no words to describe my feelings