first quarter as a freshman bsa student.
hello.
i have been using tumblr for 4-5 years but i haven't really figured out how tumblr environment works.
thus i'm here posting for the first time, for myself!
actually, i had already written this last week but my phone hanged, lost the urge to type again, and took at as a sign to post after midterms week!
long post ahead !
class starts at sept 2021━
before setting my foot at my current school, i have decided not to pursue studying at my dream school due to personal (literally intrapersonal) factors. but i am gradually moving on, sincerely grateful for my friend who made me feel that i am not alone c:
i attended my school exactly 3 days after enrolling (may palugit pang 3 days to mentally prepare eme.) which is unfamiliar to me. i was internally panicking. again, grateful for my fellow classmates haha.
my professors were okay, i guess. compare to what i have expected, they are a little bit better. i guess it is just that i have not adjusted, thus making some profs okay, some were less okay. the school accommodated me warmly and the fear of triggering my vulnerability did not show up c:
my first prelims went okay. some of my subjects gave us prelims and i guess it went okay knowing i have not adjusted yet. costacc activities got my whole world spinning, but it is bearable at this point!
class at oct 2021━
everything went okay━much harder than shs, which i have expected. however, i got a failing grade on my 2nd basic finacc quiz (shit.) i was on the verge of breaking down that afternoon, but no tears fell. i have mistakes and i acknowledged it. the "review process" i went through before that day wasn't my effective study habit (and i am still experimenting more ways to effective study habits), the place where i took my quiz was the source of my distraction (mother went to my location non-stop back n forth) , time-pressue is my weakness, and i literally just cannot focus comprehend that day. sucks. i was traumatized. lol.
that was my wake-up call.
consequently, i started organizing myself and my surroundings. in that way, my thoughts would be in order and i can prioritize, control, and manage everything at least. aside from weekly planner, i made my own daily planner, made a studyblr (yes, this.), discovered the pomodoro technique, and read a lot of study tips. it was discouraging, but i prayed too (i don't feel of giving up, heck, i am just starting ?!). prayer helped a loooot!
another quiz came by from a core subject. i got the highest grade. i applied a preferred study habit, and it was indeed effective. i hate how my study habit is tiring and time consuming tbh :( i'm looking for more ways how to revise it and seek its effectivity in a short time.
i just finished my six-day midterms week! i feel like dying! studying! literally! sleep costs a fortune to me and i sacrificed it for this week. accounting subjects are indeed tough though i already had the basics (shs), it was still not enough. i am worried for my major midterm exam grades. i am certainly not satisfied with everything. still, i am not efficient, but i'd like to think that i am slowly improving. little progress :( hopefully after academic break, i will be better than the last quarter. btw these days, reading bible verses and prayer empower me. it gives me energy and just... power. i do not socialize a lot, but i am glad i have scriptures to guide me along the way (bago pa ako masiraan ng ulo). it is my companion before i strive the day c:
p.s. excuse for the photos. pasensya, walang study table. pati salamin ko pagod na sa'kin HAHAH
goals after academic break:
make studying a daily habit
practice ! practice ! practice !
prioritize academics !
time management
write notes as early as possible
make time for advance reading
listen to every discussion (please 'wag na lutang)
enjoy and value every moment
hopefully, i can make it.
1 Peter 5:7━lilang liham.
