#first joy

but i also have emotional issues that i have worked on and so far, well, they are going slowly but i have noticed progress.

i am now able to feel joy. i used to inhale or chuckle or whatever at posts, now i laugh like a child. i hear my own laugh and cry with joy for my own joy.

i am of course feeling negative emotions. i was afraid they would be stronger, but so far, they haven't. either i have found a way to deal with my frustrations, or my life has been more chill than usual.

Sister, sit with me while I have my first coffee of the day

And watch the first hours leak their minutes like a drift of feathers from the clock:

For we can’t retrieve first dawn when it’s passed

And your face is the last thing I see in the fading light.

  I’ve been dragging my feet through all my rooms

Retracing my steps to find the feeling I felt when I first saw you

And the melody of your voice first moved me.

I’ve worn the soles off my shoes ranging continents