--Warning: Major Character Death--

Losing Grey is the worst thing to happen to Jax since his own father died when he was born.

It feels worse because he knew Dr. Stein, had a relationship with the man even though a lot of the time he drove Jax absolutely nuts.

Stein’s funeral was over but Jax couldn’t find it in himself to move from the man’s grave.

It was too soon for Grey to be gone.

All of their friends from Team Arrow and Team Flash were there along with their own family, the one they found while traveling along with his mom, Clarissa and Lily.

Jax’s hands clench as he tries to breath, suddenly overcome with emotion once more.

How is he supposed to gone when his other half is six feet under?

He didn’t want any part of Firestorm when Team Flash first approached him but now, he can’t imagine his life without fusing and having Grey in his head.

The man became more than just his partner, he was a mentor and father figure rolled up into one.

Looking up at the sky, Jax notices the clouds turning a dark grey and he can’t help smiling at the irony.

He wants to be angry, wants to take Mick’s gun and burn something.

But he can’t.

All he feels like is drowning and unable to breath.

Nothing is the same anymore–it feels empty and alone.

Dropping to his knees, he can’t hold back the scream that is filled with so many things he can’t put a name to.

Jax suddenly feels a hand on his shoulder and looks up to see Sara.

Without saying a word, she drops down next to him and pulls him close.

He leans into the comfort she offers.

The trembling of his shoulders becomes noticeable.

Jax buries his face in Sara’s shoulder, knowing she won’t judge him for being emotional.

Later, when he rages and gives into his anger…she is there to pull him back from the edge because she understands.

For now, though, he just cries on the shoulder of one of his closest friends for the life taken too soon even though he knows Grey went out a hero by sacrificing his life for Jax and the team but mostly for Jax.

As they start to leave, he turns to look at the grave one more time.

I miss you already, Grey.