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pairing: Shanks x Marine!Reader, Garp’s Daughter!Reader, Familial!Luffy x Reader,
tags: Bittersweet, Angst, Requited Unrequited Love, Angst, Non-Sexual Tension, No Use of Y/N,
Manga spoiler warnings
word count: 8.200
summary: She was an anchor, foolishly reaching for the tide, but Shanks was the sea—vast, restless, and never meant to be caught.
or: She realized that Shanks and Luffy were the same - both too wild and free-spirited to be held back, they were always going to chase their dreams, while she just had to accept being left behind.
“So your dad is Garp?!” Shanks gawked, eyes wide at the aftermath from the chaos erupted before them, specifically, a brawl between Vice Admiral Garp and their captain, Gol D. Roger.
It wasn’t much of a fight. Fists flew, grunts echoed, and it ended rather abruptly when a small, furious voice rang louder than either of the two legends.
“ I don’t wanna go back yet !!”
There she stood, barely reaching anyone’s shoulder, arms crossed, cheeks puffed with defiance. Garp turned to his daughter, visibly flustered. He was caught off guard by his only daughter’s request.
The Roger Pirates watched, utterly entertained, as the Marine Hero, the same man feared across the seas, crumbled at the hands of one little girl. His face twisted with frustration, muttering half-baked scoldings, while his eyes shimmered suspiciously.
And when Roger let out a booming laugh, the rest of the crew followed suit.
“ Oi, Garp! Looks like you’ve met your match !” Roger cackled.
“Yeah,” she muttered, propping her chin on her palm, elbow balanced on the edge of the ship’s rail. Her voice was calm, too calm, given what had just come out of her mouth.
Across from her, Buggy let out a shriek so loud it startled nearby seagulls into flight.
“SO IT’S TRUE?!” he howled, his body exploding apart in every direction like fireworks in a panic. His head spun midair, hovering with wild eyes and twitching lips. “No wonder you’re scary, Garp? The Garp that’s always on Captain’s tail?”
She blinked at him, unimpressed. “I guess so,” she said, brushing a stray hair behind her ear with a casual flick.
Buggy’s floating head nearly dropped from the sky.
“C-Crazy, you’re crazy!” he stammered, “That man’s a monster! A living legend! You’re saying that guy is your dad?! So what are you doing on this ship?!”
She leaned back against the rail, gazing out toward the endless stretch of sea. “Hm… Out of all the ships I saw, the red sails looked the most exciting!”
Her gaze lifted to the sails above, bright red and billowing against the wind, a shimmering glint of admiration.
“It looked way cooler than the other ships.” A small smile tugged at her lips. “I didn’t even realize it belonged to the infamous Gol D. Roger. I just thought it looked like it could take me somewhere I hadn’t been before, super flashy!”
Buggy’s head bobbed midair, the wonder in her voice catching him off guard.
“R-Right, right!” he said, recovering fast and puffing out his chest, well, where his chest would’ve been. “Our captain’s the flashiest of them all! You’ve got good taste!”
“So, why aren’t you going back?” Shanks asked, inching a little closer to her on the deck, curiosity tugging at his features. Up close, he was reminded again just how tall she was, Garp’s blood ran strong, apparently.
She sighed, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear and keeping her eyes fixed on the horizon. “It’s fun being pirates.” Her lips curled into a small, teasing smirk. “Why? Want me gone that badly?”
“Yes!”
“No!”
The two answers clashed in the air instantly.
She didn’t even need to look up, she already knew who said what. Her sharp glare zeroed in on Buggy, whose face had already contorted into an exaggerated grimace.
“But you’re basically a Marine! ” Buggy protests, flailing dramatically as he frantically turns to Shanks. “What if she rats us out?!”
“Oh, shut up, you’re just scared” she snapped, eyes narrowing.
Rayleigh’s voice cut through the tension, calm but pointed. “Did you know your father made it his life’s mission to capture our captain?”
He stepped into the conversation like he’d been listening the whole time, because he probably had. Rayleigh looked at her with just a small amount of curiosity, after he had checked in with his careless Captain who had just fought her father.
“How do we know you’re not feeding him information behind our backs?” he added, expression unreadable.
“Come on , Rayleigh,” another crew member, Taro, she recalled, interjected with a huff. “If that were true, Garp would’ve been breathing down our necks a long time ago.” He ruffled the girl’s hair.
“Exactly!” she threw up her hands. “As if I’d let him get information that easily. No way in hell I’d give him the satisfaction.”
Once things settled, the conversation drifted naturally back to the trio, to their familiar corner on the deck of the Oro Jackson. The wind had calmed, but the curiosity between them hadn’t. It wasn’t quite an interrogation, but she could feel the way their eyes lingered on her, wanting to ask more questions.
Especially now, knowing who her father was, someone even Captain Roger spoke of with an odd mix of exasperation and respect.
“Why don't you wanna be a Marine?” Buggy asked, tilting his head with a finger pressed to his chin. “You’d probably get a high rank right off the bat! You’d be rich!”
She gave him a flat look, the kind only someone used to his antics could muster. “Buggy, that’s called nepotism.”
He shrugged unapologetically. “So?”
“I don’t know…” she sighed, toying with the loose threads on the hem of her shirt. Her voice softened. “I… got onto this ship just for fun, I thought one day I’d just leave and continue my way through my dad.”
“But?” Buggy tilted his head, intrigued by her answer, her dad is a scary man with scary potential, he needs to know these things.
“Sailing with you guys is so fun,” She mumbled, her voice had a slight tremble to it as she still didn’t want to look straight in the eyes at the other apprentices.
“My older brother’s a Marine.” Her thoughts briefly flicked to Dragon, once a loving brother figure to her, now an increasingly distant one. She recalls her childhood where Dragon and her would scavenge through the forests in Dawn Island, waiting for Garp to finally show and do some training.
“Rarely saw him after, and when I do, he looked like shit!”
“You mean that Dragon guy?” Shanks asked, blinking as if trying to remember something, “I think you mentioned him before.”
“Mhm,” she nodded. “Never home. Even Dad visits more.”
“You sound like a brat throwing a tantrum,” Buggy chimed in again, grinning. “So you do act like a girl sometimes, I thought you’re just a brute.”
She gasped, scandalized. “Excuse you?! ”
“Now, now,” Shanks stepped in quickly, arms between them like a referee. “Let’s not start a war on deck, alright?”
“She started it,” Buggy mumbled under his breath.
“You provoked me!” she shot back, leaning forward with a glare.
“Alright, alright,” Shanks laughed, placing a hand on her head and ruffling her hair. “Let’s take it easy, marine spawn.”
“Hey!” She shot up, clearly offended, a frown scrunching up her face. “I’m a pirate through and through now, okay? I hate Marines.” Her arms crossed over her chest with the full drama of someone thoroughly committed to the bit.
Buggy blinked at her, unimpressed. “So you hate your family?”
“That’s different!” she huffed, turning her nose up. “They don’t count.”
-----
“How ya feeling?” Hongo asked, standing beside the bed with his arms loosely crossed, his expression gentle but observant. He had just finished checking her vitals, carefully, given how frantic Shanks had been when he all but shoved her into his care. It had taken a lot to calm the captain down.
The girl blinked at the unfamiliar ceiling before letting her gaze drift around the room. Clean. Nautical. Slightly chaotic. She didn’t recognize a single thing, except for the man watching her with quiet patience.
“Hongo,” she finally said, her voice dry but teasing, “I see you got your teeth back.”
“Hey,” he replied with a short laugh, clearly not offended. “We can trade barbs when you’re not halfway to the grave. Let’s not make my captain worry more than he already is.”
A pause, then a soft murmur: “I’m on the Red Force, huh?”
“Yeah.” Hongo nodded, but then narrowed his eyes slightly. “If you’re not gonna answer my questions, I’ll go get Shanks.”
“No!” she blurted, sitting up too fast before wincing at the effort. “No, I’ll answer. Just… please. I need to be away from Shanks for a bit. If that’s okay?”
Hongo eyed her, reading more between the lines than she realized. Then, with a small smile, he said, “Can’t reject a lady’s request.”
He pulled a chair closer to her bedside, his tone gentle but firm. “So… what happened?”
She stared down and then she told him. Everything. (or at least stuff that are relevant)
-----
“Hey, Capt.” Hongo greeted as he stepped out of the room, only for Shanks to immediately crowd him, hand still half on the doorframe.
“How is she? Is she okay?” Shanks asked, trying his best to sound nonchalant, he failed miserably. Everyone on the crew knew just how much the girl meant to him. He might’ve tried to act cool about it, but the fact he’d been standing outside the door the entire time, down to the second, said everything.
Hongo sighed, his hands on his waist. “She needs rest. Her health isn’t great. She told me a few things, but… I don’t think it’s the full story. I’m not sure I’m equipped to handle all of it.”
“She’s awake?” Shanks asked, eyes lighting up, completely ignoring the rest of Hongo’s words.
“Yes, she’s awake, but—”
Before Hongo could finish, Shanks had already turned to push the door open, only to be yanked back by Benn Beckman with one hand. It looked comical, like someone dragging back an overexcited cat.
“Whoa there. Listen to the doctor, she needs rest,” Beckman said, calm but firm.
“Ugh, fine,” Shanks groaned, deflating like a sulking kid.
“Never thought I’d live to see Pouting Shanks,” Yassop muttered to Lucky Roux with a smirk.
“We’re gonna be seeing a lot of that,” Roux whispered back, both of them shaking their heads with amusement.
“Hm, I think Limejuice is calling for me,” Shanks blurted out, already half-turning to flee down the front of the deck, clearly hoping no one would question why Limejuice, of all people, would ever need him urgently.
Behind him, several senior officers exchanged knowing smirks, low chuckles echoing through the corridor. Watching their proud captain all but retreat because of a woman? Now that was a sight.
“So,” Benn Beckman called out casually, arms crossed, “What did she actually say, Hongo?”
Yassop and Lucky Roux blinked, then leaned in like kids overhearing gossip for the first time.
Hongo, ever calm, adjusted the strap of his med kit and sighed. “She asked me to keep Shanks out of her room for a while.”
That made the air shift slightly.
“Not sure what happened between them back on that island,” he added, voice just low enough to make it sound important, “but whatever it was… it definitely something .”
The silence that followed was punctuated only by Shanks’ very unsubtle footsteps retreating down the Red Force, faster than any pirate captain should ever be walking.
----
“Now,” a voice called from the doorway, smooth, teasing, yet unmistakably firm. “Why did I hear from my doctor that Ms. Patient in here doesn’t want my presence?”
The air shifted.
She flinched before she could catch herself. That voice, low and careless, threaded with an old warmth that unsettled her more than she'd admit, dug into her chest like a dull blade. She didn’t turn toward him. She didn’t want to.
“Because Ms. Patient ,” she said tightly, her eyes fixed on the wooden planks, “ explicitly does not want your presence. Is that too hard to understand, Red-Hair ?”
Shanks stepped inside anyway, she had been cooped in the room for awhile, but guessing from the silence on deck and the night sky, it was around dawn, she finally saw that familiar smirk was already tugging at his lips, boyish and far too charming for someone so infuriating.
“Yeah,” he said with a mock sigh, “I guess it is. Y’see, I’ve never really had women reject me before.” His voice dipped with amusement, eyes scanning the room before locking onto her still form. “Kind of a new experience.”
She rolled her eyes, slowly turning her head to glance at him, just a little. “Glad I could be your first,” she muttered.
“I’d love for you to be my firsts,” He had jokingly said, but was met up with a glare from the bedridden patient so Shanks immediately deflected, “So,” he said, gaze drifting around before settling back on her. “How’ve you been?”
The silence between them stretched.
“Peachy,” she answered curtly, her voice clipped, eyes already drifting back toward the ceiling as if it could shield her.
Shanks inhaled, rubbing a hand along the back of his neck. “Right. Should’ve expected that.”
There was a flicker in her gaze then. Still, her voice was softer this time. “Luffy missed you.”
Shanks’ face shifted, just slightly. His grin widened at the name being dropped, he thinks of the little guy who had dreams like his former captain, who’s now wearing his hat like a legacy.
“Missed that little anchor too,” Shanks said with a smile.
She didn’t respond. She didn’t need to. The name alone was enough to carve silence between them.
But Shanks pushed forward anyway, taking a cautious step closer, his eyes scanning her face like he was searching for something left unsaid.
“But I asked about you , sweetheart,” he said gently, his voice lower now. No grin. Just rawness.
“Never better,” she bit out, her voice thick with sarcasm as she shifted slightly on the bed, wincing at the sting that laced through her ribcage. “Is that what you want to hear?”
Shanks didn’t flinch, but something tightened in his eyes. His arms were still crossed, his stance relaxed—but only on the surface. “I want to hear the truth, at least,” he replied, tone softer now, stripped of that usual teasing lilt.
She stared at him, and then, without warning, glared, sharp, unfiltered, exhausted.
“Well,” she said, dragging the word like a blade, “I feel like shit. My head’s pounding, I can’t feel half my fingers, and I think I might hurl in about two minutes. So if you’re done playing pirate therapist, could you please get me a bucket?”
Shanks blinked once. “Why a bucket,” he said, already walking over to the gaped door with a nonchalant tilt of his head, “when you’ve got a perfectly good sea right outside this room?”
Despite herself, a breathy laugh escaped her lips.
“Yeah, right,” she muttered, rolling her eyes, “As if I’d dare tarnish your beloved sea.”
He turned back, just in time to catch the faint smile tugging at the corners of her lips. It wasn’t forced. It wasn’t bitter. Just a flicker of something long buried between them, genuine, if fleeting.
Her words held no venom now, only the dry edge of someone too tired to pretend and too familiar with the person standing before her. It was the kind of banter only shared between people who had once known each other too well and maybe still did.
Shanks leaned against the wooden walls of the room, watching her with a quiet fondness. “My sea’s been through worse,” he said, “It can handle a little heartbreak.”
“How ‘bout you?” she asked suddenly, voice casual but eyes carefully trained on him, like she was daring him to be honest. It caught Shanks off guard, but he recovered with a tilt of his head and a grin that didn’t quite reach his eyes.
“How’s the big scary Yonko faring in his beloved sea?”
A laugh erupted from him, loud, familiar, and echoing with that signature Red-Haired charm. It rumbled from his chest, deep and full, and for a fleeting moment, she saw not the infamous Emperor of the Sea, but the boy who once dangled his legs off the Oro Jackson beside her, carefree and bright-eyed.
“This big and scary Yonko,” he said, wiping a fake tear from the corner of his eye, “was absolutely terrified for a certain patient’s life. Scariest I’ve ever felt, I fear.” His voice dipped with quiet sincerity toward the end, a tremble of truth hidden in the humor.
She held his gaze, her smile softening just slightly before her tone leveled into something more grounded.
“I’m fine, Shanks,” she said, but it was too clean, too rehearsed. Her posture had stiffened, the slight tremor in her fingers betraying the calm she tried to maintain.
He watched her closely, unconvinced. The image of her back on that bloodstained island, crumpled beneath the weight of everything she carried, played on repeat in his mind.
“You don’t have to pretend,” he said, his voice low and earnest, no longer laced with his usual levity.
“I’m not pretending,” she lied.
“Here’s some tangerine, your favorite,” Shanks suddenly said, setting down a small woven basket on the bedside table with a casual air that didn’t quite mask the thoughtfulness behind the gesture. “A bit sour since it’s not in season, but still sweet enough to eat. Don’t worry.”
She blinked at the offering, then at him, eyes narrowing slightly, not in annoyance, but in curiosity. Her fingers reached toward the fruit instinctively, brushing against the coarse skin of one of them. The scent was immediate, bright, citrusy, familiar.
“You have a tangerine tree on your ship now?” she asked, tilting her head slightly, as if trying to place the absurdity of it. Her voice was light, teasing, but her gaze stayed fixed on his face.
Shanks just hummed in response, a noncommittal sound paired with a shrug.
But you don’t like tangerines.
She didn’t say it out loud. It stayed trapped in the back of her throat like so many other things she didn’t allow herself to speak. Shanks never liked tangerines. Too acidic, he used to say. Always gave her some every time the three pirate apprentices scavange through a new island they just docked in.
“Thanks…” She quietly said as she watched Shanks leave the room.
----
“Look who’s up!” Lucky Roux bellowed from the edge of the deck, waving one thick arm toward the figure emerging from the cabin. A broad grin stretched across his face, and several heads turned in her direction.
“I’m not that sick,” she called back with a small smile, the breeze catching strands of her hair as she stepped fully into view. Sunlight kissed her skin, and for the first time in a while, she didn’t feel like she was suffocating.
“For the lady,” Roux said, presenting her with a skewer of freshly grilled meat, steam still rising from it.
As a Monkey D., she knows better than to reject a peace offering. Especially if it’s meat. She takes the meat with little to know grace, munching on it immediately.
The crew chuckled, a few raising their mugs in a lazy salute.
“Not pairing my meat with beer? That’s preposterous,” she added with a mock frown, biting into the meat again. It was warm, juicy, something she missed.
“We’re gonna dock soon,” Lucky Roux said, shifting beside her. “Might take a couple of days.”
She arched her brow. “One of those usual remote islands you lot crash on for rest and reckless drinking? Or something different?”
“Nah, captain said we needed to restock,” Yassop chimed in, puffing lazily on a cigarette. “Supplies, medicine, the works.”
She didn’t respond right away. Instead, she inhaled deeply. The scent of the sea filled her lungs, salt and wind and wood and freedom. The breeze danced over her skin, she closed her eyes briefly, letting it wrap around her.
Being on a pirate ship felt different. It was different.
Even as a Vice Admiral, she never got to experience this, the quiet laughter, the sun-warmed deck beneath her feet, the unspoken bond between people who’ve risked their lives together not for duty, but for choice.
This wasn’t obligation. It was freedom.
And god, how she missed it.
“Now look who’s finally out of their room!” Shanks shouted, his voice booming with playful exaggeration as he strode across the deck. Without hesitation, he slung a heavy arm over her shoulders.
The gesture, so familiar yet distant, made her shoulders tense instinctively. Her balance wavered, just for a moment. She wasn’t as steady on her feet as she thought she’d be, her recovery is growing less and less each day.
“Shanks,” she murmured, her voice low but not cold. A soft smile ghosted across her lips before she could stop it, brief, fleeting, but real. The man beside her still carried the same spark in his eyes, the same lopsided grin that used to drive her mad.
“Oh~?” Shanks leaned closer, his red hair brushing her cheek as he tilted his head with mock disbelief. “Was that a smile I just saw? Are you actually happy to see me now? Miracles do happen.”
“Yeah, right,” she scoffed, rolling her eyes. “Don’t flatter yourself.”
He laughed, loud, unrestrained, like a certain captain they sailed under from back then, Shanks nudged her gently with his elbow. “You wound me. After everything I’ve done for you.”
“Your everything ain’t much if I’m being honest,” She jabbed at red-haired.
“Hey!”
Choruses of laughter from his crewmates erupted.
----
Roger’s execution wasn’t a celebration, no matter how the world painted it.
The crowds in Loguetown had gathered like it was a festival, eager to see the Pirate King die, their voices loud with awe and hunger for a new era. Some cheered. Some jeered. Some clung to hope for the treasures whispered in dying breaths. But for her, for them, it was mourning in the truest form.
Heavy rain fell like judgment. Cold, sharp, relentless.
She stood in the shadow of the gallows, soaked through, her coat clinging to her frame, fists clenched at her sides. Beside her, Shanks was silent, red hair plastered to his face, lips drawn tight. He had cried, she realized, but now that it was raining heavily, she couldn't quite decipher it as well.
Buggy had just run off, screaming something about Shanks being a fool, his figure vanishing into the storm.
“Buggy rejected you, huh?” she said at last, her voice just loud enough to be heard over the patter of rain. It wasn’t mockery, far from it. Her tone was flat, like she had already expected it.
A beat of silence passed between them, and then Shanks took a hesitant step closer.
“I was gonna wait to ask, but…” He extended his hand, trembling just barely. “The offer’s for you too. Come with me. Let’s be pirates together.”
She looked down at his hand. It was the same hand that had once pulled her up when she stumbled on the deck of the Oro Jackson. The same hand that offered her meat when she hadn’t eaten. The same hand she used to sneakily reach for during storms when she was scared.
Now it was shaking.
Her eyes flicked toward the empty scaffolding, the wooden beams stained with rain—and Roger’s blood.
“Shanks…” she whispered.
“Don’t say no,” he said quickly, almost desperately. “Not after everything.”
She exhaled, slow and shaky. “Sha–”
Shanks interrupted, not wanting her rejection and excuse to be verbalized, “You wanted to, you wan–”
“I’m going to be a Marine,” she cut in, her voice firm, though her lips quivered. “I’ve already decided.”
His hand faltered in the air.
It made sense to her. It was the rational thing to do.
She had just watched a man—no, the man who had changed her life—die at the hands of the system her family served. A system her father upheld. A system her brother once fought for.
A system she had no choice but to return to.
To her, becoming a Marine was the only way to keep what little stability she had left. Garp was a Marine. Dragon was a Marine. Her blood was steeped in justice, in duty, in structure. Her and the naive dream to be able to change it.
But for Shanks?
For Shanks, it was betrayal.
He had just witnessed the World Government and the Marines steal the life of the only man he ever called Captain. He had lost Buggy. He had lost Roger. And now, he was losing her too.
“Decide differently,” Shanks said, the words sharper than he meant them to be. His voice was tight, strained.
She blinked, surprised at the sudden shift in tone.
“You think this is easy for me?” she asked. Her voice wasn’t raised, but it was cold. Steady.
“You think it’s easier for me?” he shot back.
“I have ties in the Marines,” she said, stepping back as if putting physical distance might temper the fire in his chest. “I’m not meant for your kind of freedom, Shanks.”
His hands clenched at his sides. He didn’t know why it bothered him so much, why it felt like her words were slicing open old wounds he hadn’t known he still carried.
“You don’t know a thing,” he muttered.
She frowned. “I know enough.”
She didn’t. She didn’t know that Shanks came from a past as stained and fractured as her own. That he wasn’t born free. That Roger saved him from a fate darker than most could imagine. That one day he had to step inside the place of his lineage, as much as he hated it.
“You’re going to regret it,” Shanks said, not as a threat, not as spite. His voice was low, roughened by rain and grief. There was no smugness in his tone. He wasn’t warning her out of arrogance, he was mourning her before she even left.
She didn’t meet his eyes. If she did, she knew she’d shatter.
Shanks stepped forward, just once, but stopped himself from reaching out. They had touched so many times before, laughs shared under starlight, bruises exchanged during sparring, warmth passed during cold nights at sea.
But now?
Now his hands stayed at his sides. Anchored.
“I know you better than you think,” he murmured, eyes narrowing slightly, pained. “You’d hate yourself.”
She bit the inside of her cheek to keep it together. One second longer and she’d break.
“Goodbye, Shanks,” she said instead, turning and walking away from the comfort. “See you at sea.”
----
They met again for the first time in years.
----
The bitterness that had once wrapped around their hearts like iron had eroded, softened by time. With distance came clarity. With maturity came yearning, not the painful kind, but the quiet ache that settles in the chest when you realize the person you once pushed away is still part of your soul.
She hadn’t expected to hear her name that way, called out so openly, so joyfully. It echoed across the harbor, cutting through the noise of the port town.
And when she turned, blinking under the sun, there he was. A flash of crimson, a familiar grin, a mop of unmistakable red hair. Shanks.
“Shanks??” Her voice pitched up with disbelief and delight, her smile radiant, blooming like spring after a long winter.
Before she could say more, he was already there, arms around her, spinning her off the ground in a hug that pulled the breath out of her lungs and replaced it with laughter. She clung to him without hesitation, surprised by how natural it still felt.
“What are you doing here?” she asked breathlessly, once her feet found the earth again.
Shanks, still holding her elbows, looked at her with stars in his eyes—his grin boyish, just slightly crooked. “Docked here for some supplies,” he said, brushing a stray lock of her hair behind her ear, “but rumor had it there was a very charming and dangerously competent captain in the area.”
She snorted. “Who would that be?”
“I wonder who?” he said with a lopsided grin as they stood there for a moment longer than they should’ve, in the middle of a bustling dock, hearts caught somewhere between nostalgia and something dangerously close to hope.
“Huh,” Yassop muttered, eyes narrowing as he watched the woman who had been lingering near their captain ever since they docked. His arms crossed over his chest, an unreadable expression painted across his face. “You don’t look like the Captain’s type.”
She turned toward him, a brow arching. “Your captain has a type ?”
“N—” Limejuice tried to interject, perhaps to soften the blow, but Yassop barreled right over him.
“Petite,” Yassop began, counting on his fingers with theatrical flair. “Cute. Small. Maybe even a little helpless. You know, that damsel in distress effect.”
Each word stabbed just a bit sharper than the last.
She blinked. Her lips parted slightly, caught between a scoff and a laugh. “Oh…” she exhaled, her mouth agape just enough to hide how that landed, deep and uncomfortable. Convenient , she thought. That’s… everything she wasn’t.
Too tall. Too harsh. Too stubborn. Just gr—
“What are you guys talking about?” Shanks asked, flashing his usual boyish grin as he approached the small gathering.
“Nothing!” Yassop and Limejuice chimed in unison, a little too quickly. The woman beside them merely smiled with quiet amusement, clearly enjoying their flustered state. For all his carefree charm, it was easy to forget how much Shanks was respected by his crew, despite his young age. But now that they’d reunited, she could see how much he’d grown.
“Really?” Shanks tilted his head, raising a brow in suspicion.
Before the others could dig themselves into a deeper hole, she casually looped her arm around his and leaned into him with a playful bump of her shoulder. “Exactly that. Nothing.”
Shanks glanced down at her, teasing warmth in his voice. “You’re getting awfully chummy. How would the world react, seeing their beloved Marine Captain arm in arm with a pirate like me?”
“They’ll live,” she quipped, her tone light but steady. “Besides, it’s not like you’re pillaging this island, right? Normal people know you don’t do that. I think.”
Shanks let out a laugh, light and windblown, “You think, huh? You sure you’re not ruining that pristine Marine record of yours by hanging around me?”
“Oh come on, your being noisy," She rolled her eyes , "let’s go and eat something. There’s this nice place that sells lobster, you still like that, right?” she said casually, though her eyes flickered with something softer, nostalgic.
Shanks’s face lit up like the sun hitting open waters. “I could never reject a woman’s offer to eat lobster,” he grinned, already falling into step beside her.
The streets of the island were warm and busy, dotted with cheerful chatter and the occasional cry of seagulls. They didn’t talk much as they walked, comfortable silence now filled the space between them.
When they reached the restaurant, Shanks looked around in delight, already imagining a seat by the window, B ut she surprised him. “To-go, please,” she told the vendor instead, then turned to Shanks. “We’re having a picnic.”
“A picnic?” Shanks raised a brow but didn’t protest, already intrigued.
“There’s a spot nearby, by the cliffs. I sit there when I needed to clear my head.” Her voice lowered, just slightly.
He smiled, following without another word.
As they found the perfect place overlooking the ocean, she spread the food between them on the grass, the red of the lobster almost glowing under the sun.
“If this keeps going, my crew’s gonna start calling me a neglectful captain,” Shanks teased, taking a generous bite and groaning with exaggerated delight.
“It’s been years since we ate together like this,” she said, smiling as she picked at her lobster with delicate precision. “They’ll live.”
Shanks let out a hearty laugh, the same laugh she remembered from what felt like a lifetime ago. “You really look like a reliable captain now,” she teasingly said out of the blue, taking a big bite of his own.
"While you still eat like an animal,” He said back, watching her with a playful smirk.
For a moment, the world around them faded, no Yonko, no Marines, no war or duty or time. Just them, sitting cross-legged on a faded cloth under the shade of an old tree, salt on their lips and sea breeze in their hair.
They talked like no time had passed. Jokes about Buggy’s tantrums. Memories of Roger yelling at them to “hold on tighter” during storms. The nights spent huddled beneath the stars, whispering dreams and dumb ideas to each other.
Shanks was the same. Older, yes. Stronger, yes. But his spirit? Still that scrappy, sharp-eyed boy, S he caught herself watching him too long, too softly. The way the light hit his hair, the way his eyes crinkled when he smiled. The way he still made her laugh without trying.
And then she felt it, that tug in her chest, that familiar ache.
She had promised herself she wouldn’t do this. Not again. But sitting here, with him, the years peeled away like they never existed.
She can’t help but fall in love with him all over again.
----
That’s why, after a few weeks of The Red-Haired Pirates docking in this quaint island, she had decided to do something quite reckless.
She had kissed him, and he could only look at her with widened eyes. She was hoping for warmth, a laugh, a grin, maybe even the rare sight of the infamous Red-Haired Captain flustered.
But what she got was silence. His fingers rose, gently brushing against his lips, as if trying to hold onto something already fading.
“I can’t,” Shanks murmured, barely above the sound of the sea between them.
Her heart dropped.
Her love was answered with an I can’t . With rejection.
She bit the inside of her cheek, tasting salt that wasn’t from the ocean.
She thought of the nights wrapped in the same blanket, their knees touching beneath a shared silence. The soft laughter. The reckless teasing. The vulnerable conversations under the stars, whether it was yesterday or ten years ago, it all remained etched in her, stubborn and beautiful.
She had believed that maybe, maybe, some part of him held onto it too.
But now, with a kiss she never meant to be a goodbye, she knew, this moment would shift everything.
And that was the last moment they had with each other.
She knew then, as his laughter from his ship faded into the night and the scent of salt clung to his cloak, that she had never stood a chance. Not truly. Not against the pull of the horizon, not against the freedom in his veins.
He belonged to the sea.
And the sea never shared.
----
“Men!” Shanks called out, voice cracking ever so slightly as he raised a half-filled mug toward the sky. His usual grin was replaced by something softer.
“Let’s drink!”
----
Years later, when they meet again, it will be beneath the sun that shines over hometown, and standing beside her will be a wide-eyed, grinning rascal, pestering Shanks with unrelenting energy, who will soon inherit the will that’s the Straw Hat.
----
“Shanks…” Hongo’s voice came out low, hesitant, as he stood just outside her door. He couldn’t meet his captain’s gaze—how could he, with the weight of the news sitting like lead on his tongue? “I’m sorry.”
Shanks turned to him, smiling out of habit, though something uneasy tugged at the edges of his chest. “What is it, Hongo?”
The ship doctor hesitated for just a moment longer before the words dropped, heavy and final.
“She only has a few months left to live.”
The smile on Shanks’ face faltered, no, shattered. One word slipped from his lips, barely audible over the crashing waves beyond the deck.
“…What?”
----
“You knew?” Shanks’ voice was low, but there was something sharp in it, something that cracked beneath the surface. His eyes, usually warm with mischief or mirth, had gone cold. Focused. Piercing.
She didn’t flinch.
“Yes, I knew.” Her voice cut back with equal weight, though not as steady. “And I knew the real reason you kept docking on islands with no real trade value.” Her hand dragged down her face, wearied more by the conversation than her illness. “You weren’t looking for food or supplies. You were looking for a cure.”
Shanks stared at her, the silence stretching between them like a taut rope. “Why didn’t you tell me?”
“Hongo’s your senior officer,” she replied flatly. “Wouldn’t it make more sense to hear it from him?”
“You don’t believe that,” Shanks said. “Do you?” Shanks would much rather listen in on the person with said illness, the same person he had cared for as well.
She didn’t respond, and in her silence, Shanks sighed, long and tired, the sound of a man who’s been fighting something he can’t punch away.
His voice dropped. “So… you knew from the beginning. That’s why you asked me, isn’t it?”
Her eyes flickered, the briefest trembling in her fingers before she folded them into her sleeves. “I said what I said and I’m not going to take it back,” she murmured, “because I trust you more than anyone in this world.”
She looked at him then, not fragile, not even afraid, but unguarded.
“I can’t rely on anyone else to do it right.”
“You’re a cruel lady,” Shanks said, and though his voice held a teasing lilt, it faltered at the edges. There was a bitter smile on his face, one that didn’t quite reach his eyes, because deep down, he knew: he couldn’t win with her. Not in this. Not ever.
She let out a lifeless chuckle, dry and hollow, despite wanting to ease the tension. “If only you knew what they call me in the Marines.”
“I don’t need to know,” he replied, softer now, searching her face for something, anything, beneath the cracks. “cause I know what you are.”
“Oh?” she raised a brow, dragging her gaze up to meet his. “And what am I, Red Hair?”
Shanks hesitated. The truth itched at the back of his throat.
“You’re someone who carries the world on her back, smiles like it’s light, and dares anyone to notice the weight.” He exhaled slowly, his words sincere. “A reckless woman indeed.”
She blinked, caught off guard by his honesty. But it passed quickly.
“That’s funny,” she murmured. “Because when I look at you, I see a man who sailed the seas to outrun the things he couldn’t fix. We’re not so different, you and I.”
Shanks looked away for a moment, jaw clenched, tongue caught behind words he wanted to say. That’s not true, if you knew what I’ve been doing these past few years…
“But you still asked me,” he said quietly, unsaid words remain unsaid.
She didn’t answer.
She didn’t have to.
“You know I love you, right?” Shanks whispered, as if the words themselves might crumble under their own weight. His voice was quiet, almost too quiet, like he was afraid of what the sentence might become once spoken.
She didn’t answer at first.
Brows furrowed, she blinked slowly, as if trying to decipher whether she had truly heard him right. She thought she had misheard the man she had known since childhood.
Then after a few pauses, she answers, her hands clenched onto the bedding, glaring at the man, not believing a word that had left his lips.
“No,” she said, curt and steady. “I don’t.”
Shanks blinked, surprised by the bluntness of it. He wasn’t expecting that type of answer.
“You don’t get to say that to me,” she continued, her voice cold under the silver gleam of moonlight. “Don’t you dare ever say you love me.”
Her words hit like a blade, it started blunt, yet it got sharper the more she says and she didn’t stop.
“Love is unconditional. Love is warm,” she said, jabbing a finger into her own chest. “You want to talk about love?”
Her voice cracked, just slightly.
“I’m afraid to die, no because of the pain, or what hell or judgement I’d face, but because I want to see Luffy become Pirate King. I want to see Ace carve his name into the world leaving his own legacy. I want to see the day my brother and my father finally reunite.”
She got out of bed, stepping forward towards where Shanks is, and now her finger pressed hard into his chest.
“They left me. Over and over. And still, I wait. Like some loyal fucking dog.” She took a shaky breath. “That’s love.”
Her hand fell back to her side, clenched into a trembling fist.
“That’s fucking love, Red-Haired.”
Shanks stood there, silent. Taking it. Letting her speak, letting her bleed it out, because he knew he had no right to interrupt.
“And you?” she laughed bitterly. “You brought me nothing but confusion. Silence. Half-truths. Heartbreak.”
She shook her head slowly, her eyes wet but blazing.
“So don’t you dare tell me you love me now, when you couldn’t even give me the dignity of closure.”
She turned her back slightly, her voice growing smaller, but no less furious.
Shanks tried to reach for her arm, her name softly leaving his lips, but she continued.
“You’ve always loved the sea more than me. And that’s fine. I made peace with that a long time ago.” She laughed, 'cause what can she do? The man she had painfully pined over the years and in the end rejected her, says that he loves her, when she was running on limited time.
“What I can’t forgive,” A pause, “what I’ll never accept is you standing there with those sad fucking eyes, telling me you love me... like it makes things better between us.”
Shanks didn’t say anything for a long time.
The night wind moved around them through the open door. brushing past her like an apology, rustling the red hair that earned him his name, now shadowed by guilt.
He stepped forward once.
Then stopped.
His hands clenched at his sides, not out of anger, but restraint, because the part of him that wanted to reach out, to hold her, to pull her close and say I’m sorry , was still the same part that had left her all those years ago.
"I don’t expect you to forgive me," Shanks said at last, his voice low, honest in a way that felt almost cruel.
She didn’t turn to face him. Her shoulders remained rigid, like the tension alone was holding her together.
"And I won’t insult you by asking for it."
Silence. But her breathing wasn’t steady anymore.
“I meant what I said,” he continued, each word heavier than the last. “My love for you… it was consuming.”
She furrowed her brows, a bitter scoff caught in her throat. Another excuse. Another romanticized lie.
“What I wanted was to live a quiet pirate life, just the three of us,” Shanks started out, a smile etched on his face as he thought back the memories they had in the Oro Jackson, the happiest moments of his life.
“But then there were times I imagined something else. A quiet life. You and me. A farm, maybe. A family.” He shook his head, bitter at the dream. “And that's what terrified me.”
Her silence stung. So he kept going, the only way he knew how, forward, even if the ground was falling apart beneath him.
“I’m a pirate. The sea calls for me. But you—” Shanks looked at her, really looked at her— “You were like my anchor. You pulled me in, even when I didn’t want to be caught.”
She turned her head slowly, just enough to glance at him from the corner of her eye. “I was your anchor? So I was the weight? The thing that held you back from chasing your grand adventure?”
“You know that’s not what I meant.”
But she wasn’t convinced. Her fingers twitched at her sides, trembling from holding back too much for too long.
Shanks stepped forward, his voice quieter now. “You were my freedom too. I just didn’t realize it until it was too late.”
That’s when she turned fully. Her gaze met his, glassy but sharp.
“Do you think that makes it easier?” she asked, voice frayed at the edges. “Hearing that now?”
“No,” he whispered. “But you deserve the truth. Even if it’s a thousand years late.” Eyes yearning for a future they never get to live in.
The wind picked up slightly, pushing the salty air against her cheeks, but it did nothing to cool the fire inside her chest. She hadn’t meant to say any of it, not to Shanks, but the words came tumbling out before she could stop them. She didn’t want his pity, she never did, but it felt like the weight of everything was finally collapsing on her.
“I lived a life where everyone I love left me,” she began, her voice barely above a whisper, as if speaking the words made them more real.
“My mom, my dad,” She pressed her hands to her forehead, shielding her eyes from Shanks, the tears falling freely now, “My brother.”
Shanks didn’t move. He didn’t speak, but his eyes never left her, his presence quiet and steady.
“I gave up my freedom for Garp and Luffy,” she choked out, her breath hitching. “I stuck with Luffy because... because I grew up alone, and I didn’t want that for him. His dad... my brother left to do something greater, something important.” Her voice broke on the last word, but she couldn’t stop. She wouldn’t stop.
“I wanted to do the same,” she continued, her chest tightening, her grip on her hair becoming more desperate. “But I just can’t leave Luffy alone.” She shut her eyes, biting her lip so hard that it almost hurt, willing herself to stop the flood of emotions. She didn’t want him to see her this way. She didn’t want to break down in front of him.
But he wasn’t going anywhere.
“Then he found himself his own family,” she continued, her words bitter with the sting of truth. “And he’s leaving, too, to be a pirate. And in the end... I’m the idiot who’s left behind, waiting for everyone to come back. I’m the one who stays, Shanks. I’m the one who stays .”
Her breath was ragged now, tears still falling, though she no longer cared.
Shanks didn’t say anything. He didn’t need to. He simply moved closer, his large presence both grounding and comforting.
Finally, he spoke, his voice low and rough, his words quiet, but firm. “You’re not waiting. You’re living. You’ve been living, fighting for those you love, even if it doesn’t always feel like it.”
Her head snapped up, surprise flickering in her eyes, but Shanks didn’t meet her gaze.
“I never wanted to leave you behind,” he murmured, “I never wanted to make you feel like that. But the sea... the sea calls, and we have our paths. We all have our own journeys. But that doesn’t mean you’re not important. You’re more than just someone left waiting. You’ve taken a piece of my heart with you, whether you believe it or not.”
“I don’t,” she whispered softly, “I don’t believe it.”
For a moment, the two stood there, locked in the silence of everything they were and everything they could never be.
----
“Boss?” Lucky Roux called, stepping toward Shanks the moment the red-haired captain emerged from the room she’s staying in. The sea breeze tugged at his coat, but Shanks didn’t seem to feel it.
Shanks stood still for a beat, his eyes dark beneath the shadow of his hat. His jaw was clenched, his usual grin nowhere to be found.
“Find a remote island,” he said, voice low and cold— resigned. “We’re doing this.”
A beat of silence.
“Aye, aye, Captain,” his crew echoed, voices steady but weighed with unspoken understanding.
----
Her fingers trembled by her sides, but her eyes, her eyes were still. Steady. They gleamed under the soft light with a clarity Shanks hadn’t seen in her for a long time: resolve, and something heavier, something final. He hated that look. It meant her decision had already been made. She wasn’t waiting for him to change it, just to accept it. Still, Shanks looked at her as if the weight in his chest might lift if he could just say it, if he could finally admit what he’d never been brave enough to before.
“I love you,” he said, quieter this time. No grin, no teasing lilt, just the truth. Raw and bare, stripped of everything he usually used to protect himself. It was the only thing he had left to give her.
There was a pause. A silence so thin it could’ve split open if one of them so much as breathed wrong.
“Yeah,” she said, voice soft, a smile tugging at her lips like it had been stitched there with thread too weak to hold. “I love you, Shanks.”
But she didn’t say 'too.'
And that absence meant everything.
Not because the words weren’t true. They were more than anything else she’d ever said. But because acknowledging it, admitting it fully, would’ve broken her. Would’ve tied her down to something she could no longer afford to chase.
She believed he said it to make her feel better. Maybe he did. Maybe he didn’t. It didn’t matter.
Because in the end, this was it for her.
He felt it, every trembling breath she took, every flicker of pain she tried to bury beneath that ever-steady gaze. It took everything in her just to stand, to speak, to let him see her like this: fragile, fading, but still proud. She never begged. Never cowered. Even now, at the end of everything, she clung to the last remnants of who she was. That was her final act of defiance.
“I’m asking you to set me free,” she said, cutting through the silence, her voice steady, almost gentle. “Before it gets to me. Before I forget who I am.”
Shanks’s hand curled into a fist. His jaw tightened so hard it ached. “Change your mind,” he said, barely above a whisper. “Don’t ask me for this.”
But she only looked at him, unwavering. “I made up my mind, I trust you, Figarland Shanks.”
Tears shimmered in his eyes, refusing to fall, not yet. Not until she meets her peace.
“Make it fast?” she asked, and this time her voice wavered.
“Of course,” he replied, his voice breaking around the edges, but still he meant it. With every aching bone in his body, he meant it.
She closed her eyes.
And then, with the quiet grace of a man who had carried the sea in his chest, Shanks drew his blade, not with anger, not with grief, but with reverence, as if he were not ending a life.
She waited for it, waited for the sharp, clean edge of mercy. But instead, he stepped forward. Gently, without a word, he pressed a kiss to her forehead.
It shattered her.
The intimacy, so simple, so tender, caught her off guard. Especially after everything that had passed between them in their last encounter: the distance, the denial, the years filled with unspoken longing. The affection she had buried deep in her ribs, pined for in silence, was suddenly returned. But at what cost?
“I’m sorry,” he whispered, his voice low, raw.
Her tears came in torrents, freely now, spilling down her cheeks as she managed a breathless, “I know.”
Then—
The blade slid through her heart like a whisper.
No sound. No resistance.
Only the wind remained.
And when it passed, she was gone.
Shanks stood there, unmoving, holding her close even as the warmth slipped from her limbs. For a long time, he said nothing. Did nothing. The sea was quiet, almost reverent, mourning with him in stillness.
And then, he wept.
Not loud. Not wild. Just a single tear, slipping down a face that had braved storms and gods.
Even the sea could not carry this loss.
----
“Men!” Shanks called out, his voice cracking ever so slightly as he raised a half-filled mug toward the sky. His usual grin, wide and reckless, was replaced by something more hollow,
He could not hide his sorrow, not tonight. Despite the cheery lilt in his tone, his cheeks were stained with tears, carved by grief like rivers over weathered stone.
“Let’s drink!” he declared, loud and bright, as if the sheer force of his voice could drown out the ache swelling in his chest.
“To her,” he said, quietly this time, to himself, voice nearly lost to the wind,
Finished How Dare You! Will try to smile because it happened not cry because it's over (I cried enough already while watching thank you very much)
I actually found myself strangely whelmed by the first few episodes. Then I realised it was because the trailers had set high expectations and the show had just...delivered! I didn't have to adjust to a different tone, put up with a dip in quality/change in pace after the first couple of eps etcetc. Once we started hitting parts I hadn't seen teased I was able to settle in and fully enjoy it.
That's partly what makes it a hard show to review - it was just very consistent all the way through. Makes it great to watch but much less to nitpick and dig into. Even the ending was satisfying so no need to spend my time mentally rewriting it.
In short: It was good, I enjoyed it!
Cheng Lei fully deserves all his flowers but I couldn't pick out a bad performance from the bunch. Some were aiming campier than others (which I enjoyed, no one went too far) but the whole cast meshed well together and I was delighted by them all.
A couple of early(ish) scenes really stick in my mind as a mark of the show's quality:
The scene of Prince Duan in the aftermath of the fire really might be one of the most menacing things I've seen in a while. I've definitely seen more obvious threats but I truly felt this one in my gut and up my spine. Credit to both actors for really selling the "Oh no, I'm more alone than I realised and this man might actually be dangerous" feeling.
A scene of our two leads settling down at night really captured the quiet intimacy of sharing a space to sleep. There was no music, just the sounds of breathing and rustling bedding. You can feel the tension of being aware of the other person and having to make a conscious decision to let your guard down and relax. Many scenes have been done like it, but this one felt so real and familiar.
It was actually the first cdrama I watched as it came out - I'm sure this has set my expectations at a reasonable level and I look forward to never being disappointed 😊
While I was on hiatus doing my personal stuff (that could not be shared here), I have also read books for a week (and some during) before I started those stuff. Now, time to yap about them.
(Disclaimer: I have no clue if there were issues/controversy about the books and/or authors. I just read whatever that I come across of. Honestly, I don't really wanna know too coz I just read and be horny.)
Kiss the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT, Age Gap)
I freaking love Gareth and his brat-iness. Like, GOSH, so bratty. I love how Kayden was able to tame him like putting him in his place. Brat and the Brat Tamer. I LOVE IT. I love how the Gareth was extremely possessive (they both are for each other) but something about his obsessive possession was tugging something inside me like he gets so consumed by it. I can't explain. I love Gareth so much (also Kayden but GARETH).
Hunt the Villain by Rina Kent (Dark Romance, MM, SMUT)
It just keeps getting better and better, the MM romance of Rina Kent. I LOVE Vaughn and Yulian. The obsession. The possession. The insane and mind-bending love. Yulian loves Vaughn ever since and he gave everything. I'm so happy they got together at the end after that conflict. I'm so happy that...fuck...slight spoiler: Idk why but I actually crashed out when Vaughn was outed and talked with his parents. To be accepted like that...I want that.... ANYWAY, I LOVE THEM.
Quiet Obsession by IA Dice (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
I like it but GAWD the threesome scenes. I died. I fear it was so hot. The first scene was not for the main couple but I got so hot and bothered that I had to take a cold shower. I kinda forgot why Millie became selective mute (I also need to research on that) but yeah, it is so endearing that Creed was losing it coz she wasn't talking to him lmao.
I honestly don't remember besides the fact that Conner was such a MAN. I like it, I guess.
Highland Hideaway by Lily Gold (Romance, MFMM (No swords crossed), SMUT)
When I saw this, I jumped coz I am obsessed with Lily Gold's Why Choose/RH standalones. There is the golden retriever, the silent and grumpy acts of service man, and the apprehensive (idk the word) one. YET THEY LOVE HER. HEHE.
Karma by KA Knight (Dark Romance, MFMM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT)
I love a very strong FMC, Karma. Gosh, I want her actually. Like "Step aside, sai brothers. Give her to me." She is just so strong and she got that reputation. I like that she also some "weakness" about the main antagonist and gosh, she sorted it out yay. Anyway, I love her. Give her to me.
Delightful Sins by Lola King (Dark Romance, MFM (no swords crossed; brothers), SMUT
I guess I liked the spicy scenes, but I must say...I hate that people don't believe Jade. Everything just circled around that. I've read darker books than this but I kinda don't like it. I finished it though. There is a good ending, of course, it's just...idk.. too much but also not. Something is missing. I might not read the other books of this series.
Older by Jennifer Hartmann (Romance, MF, SMUT, Age Gap (kinda forbidden?))
This is a reread. I am freaking out. It was just different from my usual age gap romances (like mmc is just 21 or something then mmc is on 30-50 etc), coz this started with them meeting with Halley as a 17-year-old that pretended she is older but she immediately got discovered lol so nothing really happened then. Alarm bells, mayhaps, yet it didn't feel dirty or disgusting? It felt somehow real especially when Halley was getting trained (martial arts) by Reed. She is getting stronger. She came a long way from how "broken" she was from her abusive father. Idk, it really was such a read. I can't explain. Just happy they got together in every way they did.
Twisted Pawn by LJ Shen (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT)
All I remember was the time Achilles who tried too hard at the beginning like going to full degradation route coz he knew Tierney likes that with her previous partners but wrong move for him coz communication is the first thing about kinks. Poor man but also he deserve it. Anyway, good ending. I liked it ig.
Blood King by Natalie Kane (Dark Romance, MF, SMUT, Mafia, Age gap)
IN JULIAN, WE TRUST. I fear I need to read the other books for these series since this is technically book 2, but it is a standalone. He is just so protective and so strong. BUT I think he didn't grovel enough after the fuckass thing he did. It took him WEEKS to pull up the tapes?? Like man, are you insane? More grovel!!! LONGER GROVEL!!! Anyway, I even read the bonus chapter so I like it!
That's all I read before and during my personal stuff. I will yap about the books I read when everything is calming down on another post.
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Chapters: 3/3
Fandom: Peacemaker (TV 2022)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Adrian Chase/Emilia Harcourt
Characters: Adrian Chase, Emilia Harcourt
Additional Tags: Getting Together, Adrian's house, Sensory Sx, Childhood Trauma, situationship to relationship, rough and soft, Knifeplay, Dominance, Wall Sx, First Dates, Realization, Top Adrian Chase, Masochist emilia
Series: Part 2 of It Comes Down to This (Vigcourt)
Summary:
Even though she's not sure what they are- Emilia can't say no to another chance at having Adrian make her hurt so good. She'll find there's more than one kind of pain, and more than one kind of pleasure she deserves.