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·        A Great Deal of Stress

·        My body is Constantly Aching

·        The Pressure Within Me is Hurting More

·        Seeking Relief

·        Where am I going?

·        Endless Stress

·        Endless Confusion

·        Endless Aches

·        Endless Pressure

·        Am I causing myself these aches?

·        Is the pressure within me just me?

·        The pressure within me is probably just me.

·        Pressure

·        Stress

·        Relax

·        Dealing

·        Want it to go away

·        Constant Aches

·        Sore all the time.

·        Sick of this.

·        Close to giving up

·        Worried about myself

·        Should I worry about me?

·        I am the one who is causing these aches and pains.

·        Try to relax

·        I can’t relax.

·        Distress Entity

On my way to the beach in Findhorn I decided to make the final artwork a photography piece rather than video. It was going to be difficult to film knowing there were people about. Especially people with dogs, dogs off leashes. 

I’m glad I did photography instead of video as I believe the photos capture more of the mystery of the distress entity wondering the shore. 

We took so many photos! 600 photos!!

Was difficult to pick final ones from the lot. 

Possibly think of body paint?

Beginning to plan when to shoot videos. Have been keeping an eye on when the tides coming in and going back out at Cramond Beach as found some nice locations to shoot videos there. Portebello Beach is far too popular and has a lot of homes close to the shore. 

Unfortunately the weather has been terrible compared to the week I visited Cramond Beachto take photos. A lot of rain and strong winds. I wasn't expecting to have glorious sunshine in my videos but needed to be warmer and less wet in order to not get ill.

Playing about with materials.

Created this sculptural piece, and will make more to interact with in my films. 

My project has developed into the idea of filming myself at beaches and other sort of isolated and open endless spaces outdoors of me as this distress entity carrying out these awkward useless tasks. Expressing how I feel I am carrying out with my project work, losing my motivation due to stress and feel I’m not moving on. Making me believe I am useless or the task is useless and I should just give up.