#fiery ginger

(Insert bit about my dad beating the shit out of me in my teens here.)

Now, I think I’m lucky and don’t really have a lot of deep set daddy issues, honestly. I don’t have a DD/lg kink, I don’t find a caretaker necessary. If anything, I’ve gone the other way and become hyper independent, though I don’t think that’s the case either when I hate going places alone 😂

Anyway, I’m getting off track here.

He’s 5 years younger than me, 5” taller, and a 5.5” cock, so that’s all fun. His hands are bigger too, and he can actually pick my fat ass up 😩

We’ve discussed it and I’m not ready for a relationship, especially with someone that brings out a very mild trauma response 😅 We both know this is going to probably end in flames, but you know what? I’m gonna do it anyway 😏

Slut for Sony (my long term ex) is done with me. Like, done-done. And I’m honestly really broken up about it and I don’t know why. Like yes, I was quite literally planning on spending my entire life with this guy but he really needed to grow up before that was going to happen. We broke up over 2 years ago though. Have I really been avoiding those emotions for this long?! I mean, I’m thinking about the guy almost every day. Then I have a good day and I don’t, or I convince myself I can’t stand him. Then I see a pic of him and I just… 😭

Fiery ginger and I are still together, but I don’t know for how long. He’s a great guy, and the sex is okay but… I’m just not in love with him. It’s been 6 months. If I was going to feel it I would have felt it by now. Part of me wants to keep him because I do enjoy being around him! But part of me thinks it would be kinder to end things and let him find the right person instead of wasting both our time. Also, our relationship is open, but the only person I’m not allowed to hook up with is, you guessed it, strawberry shortcake. So… that’s also annoying because part of me just wants to get that out of my system 🙃

Speaking of hookups, I also have an old crush that I met on tumblr that I might be seeing soon! His dick is, well…. Let’s just say that I’m a little frightened by it 😂 It’s so big!! But I’m gonna try it because why tf not at this point. Besides… I really enjoy his personality regardless. If we have a good time other than sex and I end up with a bruised cervix it will probably be worth it 😂 We’re gonna give him a tag and name it #smlx. If he’s comfortable with it, I might just tag his blog lol. (I know you’ll see this, so lmk 😘)

I also have another new tumblr crush, but we’ll see where that is in a month or so! No point designating another tag yet, especially with him being across the country 😂

Condoms required

No past lovers (I interpret this as romantic)

Me: don’t talk about it unless asked Him: tell the gf whenever it happens and with who

To be honest I think this is the best I could hope for. The way he expressed both his trepidation and willingness to try this with me because he wants me to be happy because he cares about me almost broke my fucking heart. After waiting for 3 years for someone else to even try it and always have an excuse or argument or ‘new rule’ that made it impossible… I never expected my new guy to be so open and willing after 3 months.

Anyway, just wanted to give a little update into my life with fiery ginger!

Good god we are so sexually compatible it’s not even funny. The only thing that could make it better is an extra inch on his cock so we could do more positions easier but he really doesn’t need it 🤤

This boy will choke me (the correct way), whisper my name, make eye contact, and honestly our bodies just fit together so well. He has a lot of stamina. He can actually keep up with me and that’s unheard of anymore.

We had sex seven times the first weekend he came over. The first time he never even pulled out… he just stayed hard 😭🤤 This weekend I was kind of sick, but he still wanted to come over. We still had sex like 4-5 times I don’t even know 😂😭

Not only the sex stuff, but I actually enjoy his presence?? Like, his humor is fucking stupid but it’s kind of cute to be honest 😂 And he’s witty in the same ways that I am. We have enough similar interests that the hobbies we don’t share don’t pose an issue. It’s really balanced.

Still, something in my intuition says this won’t last. I don’t know what it is, but the underlying feeling is there. It almost feels like I’m the surface we match up super well, but our underlying wants and needs vary drastically. That’s something that will take time to discover though, and honestly I think I’d rather be with him than alone at this point.

So where is this going?

Well, Valentine’s Day is this weekend, and if the snow isn’t too bad I’m going to meet his parents 🙃

Wish me luck 😂

Also as a side note, this is my first ginger and I think the farthest age gap where I’m older 😅 I’ve also learned that I love the look of red pubic hair lol…