#fiddler's ferry

i really dk what to do with myself

do i stay in uk and do school here

do i go back to canada and do school there

do i do school at all

what kind of school do i do

i don't know anymore i really don't

im bored af in this shitty little town

there's nothing to do here. i miss canada. i miss my friends. i miss big sky. i don't miss the insecurity of living on a visa. i don't miss crap public transport. i don't miss the general backwards attitude.

but then yaknow. i don't understand how the school system works here. people seem to just expect me to get it, to know what a 2:1 means, to know what my canadian qualifications are worth over here (from what i can tell, it's fuck all). i don't get how to apply through ucas as a canadian when i'm a fucking brit; i don't need help getting a visa, i need help understanding how to apply

i just feel kinda. in the way, little bit unwanted i guess.

i don't know what to do with my life and everyone around me's telling me that what i'm doing right now isn't good enough, that i'm too smart to be "wasting [my] time"

i know it's not fucking good enough, mum.