#fictophobia

and even if i didn’t have an official diagnosis it doesn’t mean anything !

also the fear of backlash and no one believing me because half of our system is fictives and to some people that automatically means “fake”

- being told im rcta / transrace on the basis of my source as a fictive being a black man. (I am also accused of wanting to be said black man because of the fact he’s my oc…?)

- being told i have “tiktok osdd” because i suspect i have the disorder and just happen to have a lot of fictives

- experienced an incident where while another headmate of mine fronted the person who had been fakeclaiming me (same guy as all the previous things listed btw) harassed them into leaving front. When they stopped fronting due to said harassment this person saw it as “Joseph (me) stopped putting on the act of being a different alter”

It’s not our fault that we cope through media and fiction!

Them: When did then happen and, how exactly do you know?? Can I help you find a better was to diagnose. To which I said my therapist diagnosed me. I’m still very new and don’t know what about it

Me: Yesterday. We looked at the DSM 5 criteria and I fit it since uh… over the last few days I kinda started fronting or well, co-fronting

Them: And honestly I feel a little confused and caught of guard

I said: "I've had headmates since I was 6 due to trauma, so..." And then I said: "It's okay. I know there's like, an adjustment period lol." I also said they don't have to say or do anything differently when interacting with me.

They verbally claimed that people fake DID in the past, so when I opened up about exploring they just asked if I was roleplaying with myself, (cause all my headmates are fictives, so fictophobia maybe?) and then used that fakeclaiming as a reason to distrust pro-endogenic advocates on Tumblr, because people fake DID/OSDD all the time. They were coming into this conversation with a pre-loaded verdict: *Plurality is often fake, and therefore, I should not trust you.*

So to ease those fake claims, I said: “it's official. No self diagnosis here lol"

Then they used saneist language (I think in this context the word crazy is ableist/saneist?) and said “Hey that’s all I needed to here, but a making sure this isn’t a crazy bit. I’m glad you got the clarity you needed.” To which I said, uh, no, not a crazy bit? Lol. Like I said, I’ve had dissociative traits and symptoms since I was like, 6 due to extensive SA and childhood trauma… It’s just that heavy shit keeps coming up for us which has made a few headmates step in to help co-front so I don’t… well… off myself. And to reassure them, I said, “It’s fair that you doubt my diagnosis, but you don’t have to feel any way about it… it’s just how my brain works, and uh… there is nothing you or I can do to change that”

They just said…Understandable… that’s it. No apology for hurting me and my headmates, who are furious rn. Cause I trusted them, even when I shouldn’t have cause they’re most likely lying about being native since they’re Mexican and think they’re entitled to native cultures because of that… but I tried to believe them cause as a Mexican it’s rough out here and I wanted to think they had good intentions, and now I’m the one having a crazy bit? I… am I crazy? What if I really am faking when we front? Please, I… is this pluraphobia/saneism/fictophobia?

What the fuck? Sorry I'm LGBT, I guess???

-🌌👥 anon

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My stepbrother is plural, and one of his headmates is sourced from the song Front Street by Will Wood and the Tapeworms. If you don't know, the song is about sexual assault, though the headmate doesn't have anything to do with that aspect. I think the most he has to do with his source is that he likes drugs.

Anyway, we just caught wind that he was talking about his source and someone else told him that it was about SA, and when he said that he knows that, they replied that it's not "fun or silly or cool", when he never actually tried to say that it was. He was never attempting to glorify sexual assault, and it's not as if he chose his source (and to my knowledge he wasn't even talking about SA either, he literally had just mentioned that he was sourced from the song), but they were treating it like it's something he could control. They even apparently told him that he shouldn't even mention his source.

Why can't people just be normal about introjects existing?? That's literally all he was doing. Existing. And yet here people are source shaming him and acting like his very existence was a glorification of assault. I'm disgusted, I thought the plural community knew better than this.