Fishing For Not Love; Chapter 1: Moving
I meant to post this yesterday but I got busy with the Hear Me Out and didn't have time
Generally since this fic is being posted on AO3 and tumblr it will get posted to tumblr about a day after it's posted on AO3
Word Count: 2,534
Trigger Warnings: Themes of Grief, panic attack, and mental illness
The moving truck rumbles over the gravel driveway.Β Spider barksΒ excitedlyΒ on the seat next toΒ him,Β maybe sheΒ remembersΒ this place.Β The old rustic cabin was a bit of a fixer upper.Β There were visible cobwebsΒ hanging fromΒ underΒ theΒ deck.Β The place wasΒ secluded,Β andΒ itβdΒ been a while since someone lived here.Β It would need some cleaning but from the outside there appeared to be no real damage to the house.Β The yard also needed to be mowedΒ a bit,Β at least some around theΒ house, so it was walkable. It was taller thanΒ Spider,Β andΒ he was sure the second he opened the door he would lose her in the undergrowth.Β Β
With aΒ sigh,Β he got out of theΒ truck, leaving the driver's side door open for Spider.Β She yips wagging her tail which makes her whole back shake. She does a little hop onto the centerΒ console,Β then another littleΒ hopΒ down onto theΒ driver'sΒ seat. The truckΒ was too high up for her to jump out by herself, so she stared at him yipping and wagging.Β He lets out a soft, breathless laugh at her adorable face.Β He lifts her little body upΒ until sheΒ is atΒ eye level with him.Β She stopsΒ yippingΒ but her tail keeps wagging. He brings her close andΒ nuzzlesΒ his face against hers. βI love youΒ my sillyΒ spihΒ der.βΒ He says in his pet voice.Β
He sets her down at his feet to let her run off and do her business. HeΒ wasnβtΒ too worried about her getting fleas or ticks in the tall grass.Β HeβdΒ gotten her a flea collarΒ knowingΒ sheβdΒ be more likely to get bugsΒ from their new proximity to the wilderness.Β It would need to be replaced in aΒ couple ofΒ months,Β and he would need to check later to make sure it wasΒ working,Β but heΒ wasnβtΒ worried.Β At least about the bugs.Β He was a bit worried thatΒ sheβdΒ run into a snakeΒ or bearΒ and get herself hurt. He assured himselfΒ heβdΒ hear a rattle or notice something as big as a bearΒ wanderingΒ by,Β but anxietyΒ doesnβtΒ tend to listen to reason.Β These thoughts bounced around his head as he walked around and opened the back of the truck.Β The door made a loud noise as it was pushed up.Β The sound madeΒ his shoulders and stomach flinch.Β It is just a door.Β There are only boxes inside.Β Despite that, a vivid image of someoneΒ emergingΒ from the back and lunging at him played inΒ the back ofΒ his headΒ as he grabbed the first box.Β Β
It took him a second toΒ muster the will power toΒ turn his back on the truck despite knowing it was just in his head.Β The box felt light as he carriedΒ it,Β but he was sweating a bit fromΒ anxiety.Β Approaching theΒ door,Β he grabbed the knob to ensure it was locked. To hisΒ relief,Β theΒ knob stopped him from turning it all the way.Β He braced the box between his bodyΒ and the doorΒ as he pulled the keys from his hoodie pocket.Β It made a quiet ear-piercing jingle that made him wince.Β It seemed like everything was too loud today.Β The door opened smoothlyΒ into the lightless house.Β It revealed a bland barren basement.Β The floor isΒ cold withΒ uncovered concrete. The walls were covered in shelves. Despite the basement being above ground, it wasΒ mainly meantΒ for storage.Β The stairs leading up to the main floor are straight ahead.Β He takes a deep breath to calm his racing heart.Β No one was in the house.Β He stood frozen staring at theΒ stairs,Β mustering the courage to go upstairs.Β Β
βFuck thisβ he saysΒ under his breath setting the box down on the cold floor.Β He went back to the car andΒ grabbedΒ hisΒ cane from where it was restingΒ against the passenger door.Β He catches it as it falls from the door opening.Β ItβsΒ metal and has more length than his pocketknife.Β He makes two clicks with his mouth and calls out βSpider!βΒ Β
She comes bounding out from the foliage jumping over patches that were difficult for her to walk through.Β SheΒ wasnβtΒ quite a guardΒ dog,Β butΒ maybe sheΒ wouldΒ alertΒ if someoneΒ wasΒ inside.Β He waits until she stopsΒ byΒ his sideΒ to walk towards theΒ house.Β SheΒ follows,Β seeming to understand her presence isΒ required.Β She trots into the house relaxed and unbothered.Β With Spider by hisΒ side,Β he was able to go up the stairs.Β Some of the steps creaked under his weight. Seeing him goΒ up,Β SpiderΒ followed after.Β She runs around the top floor excitedly. Her little paws patter on the floors as she lets out occasional yips of joy. He stays frozen at the top of the stairs for a few minutes listening.Β Β
~~#*#~~Β
ItΒ wasΒ dark outside now. He managed to get all the boxes inside after checking every room in the house.Β Β Spiders'Β stuff got set up first, and he was currently working on unpacking his bedroom things.Β He could hear her collarΒ clinkΒ against her metal bowl as she ate in the kitchen.Β The soundΒ echoed through the empty cabinΒ as he mindlessly unpacked the box in front of him.Β ItΒ containedΒ figurines and plushies of one of his favorite characters.Β He threw the plushies on the bed to be organized later.Β He took the figurinesΒ remainingΒ in the box over to his wardrobe.Β He configured them on top of his wardrobe until he was satisfied with their positioning.Β They only took up about half of the wardrobeβs surface.Β This place was starting to feel like his home...Β at least this bedroom was.Β He glances over at the clock on his nightstand. It read tenΒ forty-one.Β HeΒ wasnβtΒ feeling tired but decided to get ready for bed knowing he had to wake up early tomorrow to drive back and return the moving truck to avoid a late fee.Β Then he could visit the fishing shop when he got back to get whatΒ heβdΒ need to start his new job.Β Β
He was lying in bed. It was twelve fifty-three the last time he checked the clock.Β Spider was curled up on his right fast asleep.Β The house felt safe, butΒ heΒ stillΒ couldnβtΒ find sleep.Β HeβdΒ even taken some ediblesΒ in an attempt toΒ get a good amount of sleepΒ for tomorrow.Β DespiteΒ that,Β he was still unable to drift off.Β He glanced at Spider. She was laying on her back withΒ her paws reaching in the air. Her side was firmly pressed againstΒ him.Β With a sigh he rolls onto his stomach and looks out the window at the front of the bed.Β One of the most majestic sights meets him.Β Β
A beautiful white deer is eating grass in his backyard.Β Its white fur shines etherealΒ in the darkness.Β Standing at the top of theΒ slope,Β it lifts its head revealing aΒ marvelous set of antlers.Β A four pointer and more beautiful than anything he had in his collection.Β TheyΒ appearΒ rounded at the ends and look velvety soft. ThoughΒ itβsΒ standingΒ too far away for him toΒ seeΒ itsΒ eyes toΒ tell if the deer is albino or not.Β ItΒ didnβtΒ matter; it was so stunning. As if a star had graced Earth with a physical form.Β It was a sign and a mistake all in one.Β It was soΒ beautiful thatΒ he believed he could be better.Β Β
~~#*#~~Β
Getting his van back was egregious.Β ItΒ made living out in the middle of nowhere even more desirable.Β He knew he still needed to stop by the fishing store to get supplies, but he was relieved toΒ beΒ one step closer to collapsing intoΒ bed.Β Spider wasΒ already napping in the back of the van.Β Her little doggie bed wasΒ relatively secureΒ in theΒ back for long trips such as this one.Β Β
He pulls intoΒ a parking spotΒ in front of the shop.Β The sign readsΒ PriceβsΒ Bait βn Tackle.Β SpiderΒ immediatelyΒ rouses from herΒ nap. Her ears perk up in attentionΒ at the vehicleΒ stopping.Β She runsΒ upΒ between the front seats and nuzzlesΒ his elbow curiouslyΒ while he works up the confidence to go inside.Β His palmsΒ areΒ sweaty despite his iron gripΒ on the steering wheel.Β He stares aheadΒ atΒ the building.Β It appears to be made ofΒ oldΒ dark brownΒ woodΒ while the roof wasΒ made of some kind of metal.Β It definitely looked like one of the olderΒ and rundownΒ buildings in the community.Β His vision starts to get a little blurry and his breathing startsΒ gettingΒ heavier.Β Panic starts to set in at the prospect of going insideΒ until a small weight is lightly pressing against his chest.Β Spider isΒ standing on his lap with her back legs and bracing her front paws on his chest.Β He blinks and a few tears fall down his cheeks.Β SheΒ cautiouslyΒ sniffs atΒ his chinΒ and perks up when he pets her side.Β When he looks down at her, she takes it as a sign of her job done and falls back to all fours.Β He looks towards the glass doors. ThereΒ wasnβtΒ aΒ noΒ animals allowedΒ signΒ visible.Β Places up here did tend to be looser with their animal policies. He cups Spiders face in his hands. βOkay baby,Β are you ready to go inside?βΒ He asked gently, hisΒ voiceΒ only shaking a bit.Β Β
She stares adoringly at himΒ withΒ herΒ squishedΒ face. He wipes hisΒ faceΒ with his sleeve,Β getting rid of any evidence of his breakdown before opening theΒ vanΒ door.Β Spider hops downΒ confidently much more comfortable getting out of the van than she was getting out of theΒ moving truck.Β HeΒ followsΒ her,Β letting her sniff around outside a bit before calling her to his side to go in.Β She trotsΒ dutifully at his side.Β Β
He opens the door and a little bellΒ ringsΒ from above him.Β It causes him to flinch slightly; Spider pauses at his side.Β The man at the counter glances up when the pair walks in.Β HeβsΒ wearing a muted red button up under brown fishing overalls with black straps.Β The bucket hatΒ heβsΒ wearing casts a bit of a shadow over hisΒ eyes,Β making him look even more intimidating. HeΒ quickly darts into an isle to hide from his gaze. Spider follows him unbothered by theΒ man at the counter.Β Her paws make a little patter on the wooden floors.Β He makes his way around the store until he gets to the hooks and lures section. He looks throughΒ them,Β eventually deciding on aΒ two-dollarΒ bobberΒ asΒ a starter.Β It wasΒ very basicΒ with the top half being red and the bottom half being white, but it wouldΒ doΒ as a starter. He takes a deep breath before bringing theΒ bobber to the front counter to pay. The man behind the counter watches himΒ walk up with a stern glare.Β The bobber makes a plastic clacking sound asΒ itβsΒ placed on the counter. The man looks down at the bobber before looking up at his face with a raised brow.Β
βThat all todayΒ kiddo?β The man asks in a gruff voice. There was a bit of an accent to hisΒ words,Β but it was difficult to make outΒ with how low his voice was.Β The way he said it made it sound like he was disapproving of the purchase.Β He looks down nervously at the bait on the shelfΒ inΒ the counter facing him. He grabs a small container of bait and sets it next to the bobber.Β
βYessir.β He says, forcing his voice to be steady. The man looks at the prices and types them intoΒ a cream-colored older model of cash register. He looks anxiously around the wall behind the man asΒ heβsΒ ringing up his purchases.Β ThereβsΒ more fishing supplies hung up behind him on the wall.Β Above one of the areas with supplies hung upΒ on the rightΒ is a sign thatΒ readsΒ retired GONE FISHING.Β To the very left is a small shelf with a radio and small boxes of hooks.Β Under that is large fish mounted on a wooden plaque withΒ a golden name plate with something inscribed in it. Though it was too far backΒ and too small to read from where he was standing. Under the fish was an older sign with the store name on it. Under the sign wasΒ another shelf, but this one had books on it and a lidded box. HeΒ didnβtΒ recognize any of the titles on the shelf.Β Β
βThatβll beΒ five dollars kid.βΒ He looks up from the cash register trying to catch his eyes.Β InsteadΒ heΒ looks down and gives all his attention to pulling a five dollar bill out of his wallet.Β In his periphery he sees the man shift behind the counter. He lets out a huff before asking βis that supposed to be a dog?βΒ Β
βExcuse me?β He responds defensively and a little off guard. The man gestures and his gazeΒ followsΒ itΒ toΒ SpiderΒ who isΒ standing by his sideΒ with her whole butt wagging in excitement.Β
βIs er that little... critter following you there supposed to be a dog?β He huffsΒ in responseΒ pullingΒ out aΒ five-dollar bill.Β
βYes, she is a dog.βΒ He places the bill on the counter to avoid accidental contact.Β Β
βAinβtΒ a proper dogβ HeΒ mumbles,Β swipingΒ the bill from theΒ counter and entering it into the register.Β The total rings up asΒ zeroΒ and he puts the items into a plastic back.Β
βIΒ havenβtΒ seen you around here. You just passing by or are you the one that just moved in?βΒ He was hesitant to give anΒ answer,Β butΒ heβdΒ be seeing this guy aroundΒ anyways. He sighs breathlessly before answering.Β
βYeah. I just moved in yesterday. Had to take the truck back today.βΒ He mumbled out an answer.Β He reaches his hairy arm across the counter.Β
βNameβsΒ John Price. Nice to meet you, kid.β He hesitates before shaking Johnβs hand. It was a strong and firm handshakeΒ that he returned with equal firmness while giving his name. Johnβs hand recedes and grabs the bag with hisΒ purchases,Β placing it on the counter. βWell, IΒ guess Iβll be seeing you around then.βΒ
He timidly takes the bag. βYeah. See you around.β He says quietly before leaving. He opens the door and realizes Spider is still standing at the counter staring at John curiously. He makes a clicking sound to call her over. Her head whips around to the noise before looking back at John one last time and following.Β Β
He opens the door to let SpiderΒ hop inΒ first. It was better than having her jump on his lap. She scrambles into the back readyΒ to go back to the house as he sets the bag on the passenger seat.Β He buckles up before quickly leaning forward and gently hitting his head against the steering wheel. Even the littlest conversation was soΒ anxietyΒ inducing. He took a minute to calm down, taking deep breaths, before turning the car on and driving back to the cabin.Β
















