The Soulful Ache
A/N: a tale featuring the protags of my contemporary WIP! this is just protag no. 2 pining for the other, expect proses that features longing with a sprinkle of angst.^^
Word Count: 750
TW: romance, thatâs it
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In the haze of a secluded part of a park, the sky sparkles with stars. It falls on golden lights lined up on a canopy of trees. A gentle breeze sweeps through leaves, cascading on a clear lake.
When two of them reach to a garden, his eyes dart to flowers in bloom.
He needs a moment to recover because he's surrounded in enchantment of nature. With the arrival of spring, he's curious to what it'll bring for him.
"You didn't go to this spot before?" Cassie asks, dropping her pace.
Nodding, he twists with a thread of his sweater.
"I. . . I didn't see anything like this," he admits, glancing at a rosewood tree. "I didn't notice this specific spot."
"Well, I'm glad I brought you then," she replies, putting strands of her hair back. "This is a favorite place for me to visit. I'm sorry I waited too long for this."
She stands beneath the trees, skimming her fingers on a petal of lavender bellflowers.
It's a free night, where both of them don't have work to do. She suggested to go to a place she considers special. And she's right. The garden-like portion of the park's covered in bright intensity from lights and gifted with spring's gift. Maybe he just discovered this recently, however, he basks in it's pure tranquility.
Krispin fiddles with his fingers.
"Don't be. You're busy with ballet and fashion design, I can't expect you to find a right time."
"Thanks for understanding. Either way, I appreciate I get to find that."
She laughs, her voice filled with bliss. He chuckles when she regards him with interest. He remains in place, uncertainty clouding his thoughts.
Each time she looks at him like that, his mind reels from it. It's difficult to get rid of it. He gets caught up on a swirl of emotions of his feelings for her.
Cassie smiles, her crystal blue eyes twinkling in fairy lights. There isn't any paint that can truly resemble the exact shade. His breath hitches in his throat and his heart stutters in his chest. Like this, she belongs in a fairytale dream.
Krispin can't tear his gaze off her even if he's desperate to. Easily lost in what he finds in her beauty.
He might have grown out of being nervous around her. However, when she's surrounded by beauty. . . he can't help it. It affects him with emotions flooding through his soul. He's a dreamer, who holds onto a dream beyond his reach. Even with a small distance between them, he can't reach for her because he's resigned to a truth.
If anything's certain: he accepted that his feelings won't be reciprocated. No amount of his heartache can change it. It's not important, though. Their friendship and to protect her from sorrow is more important to him than anything else. He's learned it's gotten easier to accept it.
After drawing out a deep breath, he looks at where she is. She's skimming a finger on a tree's leaf.
He strides a little to her. "Are you doing okay there?"
"Yes, I'm feeling more than okay," she answers, resting her affectionate gaze on him. She steps towards him. "I didn't think I'd be spending time with you because of too much training or classes. I don't think I can find words to express. . . how I'm glad you're with me."
Even with bashfulness, he smiles at her before ducking his head. His face grows warm at blood rushing towards his cheeks. She's some inches far from him, close enough for their fingers to brush into proximity.
If he can, he'd ask her if he can hold her hand. To feel the soft warmth of her, entwining with his. If she'll let him. . . he can't do it if she won't accept. If it causes her to be fraught, he can't do that to her.
Like those colorful flowers in bloom, he appreciates any chance to be in her presence. To accept what he's given.
"Me too," he whispers.
When a silence surrounds them, they gaze at each other. He tears himself from it to not linger too much. Maybe if things are different. . . he'd get closer instead of keeping distance.
"Is it okay if we can go to other spots in the park, Krisi?" she asks with a soft smile.
"It's okay," he answers, his heartbeat steady. "If it's what you'd like, I'm interested too."
Glancing at the garden, he follows her. He sighs with his eyes falling close.
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