#feelswagon

So.. I've put this off, but kept it weighing on my mind. I'm terrible at expressing mushy feelings for people but I am so grateful for those I've met that it's time I just do it. Here it goes.

I've played runescape for 8 years and I've met plenty of great people and learnt how to be patient.

So let's start from the very start. When I first joined Runescape I was a veteran from the Midwest – who serves as the novel's narrator – takes a job in New York as a bond salesman. He rents a small house on Long Island, in the (fictional) village of West Egg, next door to the lavish mansion of Jay Gatsby, a mysterious millionaire who holds extravagant parties but does not participate in them. Nick drives around the bay to East Egg for dinner at the home of his cousin, Daisy Fay Buchanan, and her husband, Tom, a college acquaintance of Nick's. They introduce Nick to Jordan Baker, an attractive, cynical young golfer with whom Nick begins a romantic relationship. She reveals to Nick that Tom has a mistress, Myrtle Wilson, who lives in the "valley of ashes": an industrial dumping ground between West Egg and New York City. Not long after this revelation, Nick travels to New York City with Tom and Myrtle to an apartment they keep for their affair. At the apartment, a vulgar and bizarre party takes place. It ends with Tom breaking Myrtle's nose after she annoys him by saying Daisy's name several times.

As the summer progresses, Nick eventually receives an invitation to one of Gatsby's parties. Nick encounters Jordan Baker at the party, and they meet Gatsby himself, an aloof and surprisingly young man who recognizes Nick from their same division in the war. Through Jordan, Nick later learns that Gatsby knew Daisy from a romantic encounter in 1917 and is deeply in love with her. He spends many nights staring at the green light at the end of her dock, across the bay from his mansion, hoping to one day rekindle their lost romance. Gatsby's extravagant lifestyle and wild parties are an attempt to impress Daisy in the hopes that she will one day appear again at Gatsby's doorstep. Gatsby now wants Nick to arrange a reunion between himself and Daisy. Nick invites Daisy to have tea at his house, without telling her that Gatsby will also be there. After an initially awkward reunion, Gatsby and Daisy reestablish their connection. They begin an affair and, after a short time, Tom grows increasingly suspicious of his wife's relationship with Gatsby. At a luncheon at the Buchanans' house, Daisy speaks to Gatsby with such undisguised intimacy that Tom realizes she is in love with Gatsby. Though Tom is himself involved in an extramarital affair, he is outraged by his wife's infidelity. He forces the group to drive into New York City and confronts Gatsby in a suite at the Plaza Hotel, asserting that he and Daisy have a history that Gatsby could never understand. In addition to that, he announces to his wife that Gatsby is a criminal whose fortune comes from bootlegging alcohol and other illegal activities. Daisy realizes that her allegiance is to Tom, and Tom contemptuously sends her back to East Egg with Gatsby, attempting to prove that Gatsby cannot hurt him.

Alright well even though I'm super late on this one and my joke feelswagon post led me to touching a vast amount of butts in-game, I decided to make a real feelswagon post.

I learned everything (from the good to the bad) about friendship through RuneScape when I was around the age of thirteen (I learned a lot about friendship when I was bullied and only had a few true friends as well). To trust someone and have them become a major part of your life (even to this day) and to trust someone and have them betray you. I've had friendships from RuneScape that have lasted 9 years and I've been scammed by a bunch of people who I thought were true friends. No matter what though, I've always been heavily involved with the RuneScape community. Whether it was making a lot of friends on my current home world at the time, making videos and talking with people in the comments, or even in today's world where I have 100 different social media outlets to talk to everyone within the community. It's always nice to chat with and make friends with the people that also play the game that you love and enjoy playing.

The people that are the closest to me on RuneScape are mainly the people that are in my clan BANGBANGSHOOTEMGANG (we're not a clan). It's just a bunch of my best friends, some from real life and some of my longest lasting RuneScape friends. We talk every day on Skype, we talk constantly in-game and we have all been a close-knit group of friends for a long, long time. These are the people that I trust the most and that I know would always have my back and be supportive of me no matter what I do. Special shout out to; Anthony, Taco, Taylor, David, Jordan, Zach, Brett, *sigh* Chase, James and Tom. Also shout out to Halie, Kamren and Mitchell, who are newer additions but are just as important to our group of friends.

Honestly, besides that group, I don't talk to many other people (besides the occasional PM conversation with someone). I have 256 people added on my friends list but the closest people in my life is the group of people that I listed. I consider everyone on RuneScape my friend (even people that I haven't met yet or that I don't know) but I rarely ever add someone new and try to begin a new long-lasting and trusting friendship with them like I use to. I've built up a small group of friends that I can trust and I've surrounded myself with good people. To them, I'm not "Regicidal" or "Mod Lee", I'm just Lee - a normal (well not normal, I'm actually a psycho) guy and that's what I think I appreciate the most. Don't get me wrong, I love the support that everyone gives me, I love that people can come up to me in-game completely fangirl-like and I can have a conversation with them, I love that people can get excited about my upcoming projects, I love interacting with people who are supporters of my work and what I do, I love chatting with anyone who says hi to me, but when it comes to close friends, I just want them to look past my name and what I do. My friends still support me and say things like "nice job with your recent song/video/etc." but they aren't interested in what I can do for them in-game, they're not interested in me changing their in-game name, and they're not interested in using anything that I say against me, they just want to be my friend.

As for Tumblr, everyone on Tumblr that I've met, spoken to, liked a post of, or came across their blog somehow - has been amazing. You're all so welcoming and it's such an amazing thing to see. It reminds me a lot of RuneScape in 2006-2007 (that's a compliment). This place has such a nice "home" feel to it. I'm always scrolling through the #runescape tag and through my feed to see what the people I follow posted, so even if I don't "like" your post, don't think I'm not seeing them! Some of the RuneScape snapshots, screenshots, artwork, information sharing and videos are simply amazing and they honestly blow me away. Keep up the great posts everyone (really, I mean that). To be honest, I'm not really friends with many people from the tag (although I consider everyone my friend, like I stated earlier), so if you'd like to be friends - just let me know and we can start talking more! I love posting on Tumblr (and all of my other social networking sites, just for reference) and being a part of this sub-community because blogging is a lot of fun, especially when it's about RuneScape. I commend all of you for putting up with my; long, never-ending text posts analyzing RuneScape content or updates (this post being a prime example), my odd sense of humor that most people don't understand, my random screenshots, my replies to messages that people send me and my occasional real life photo's. So thank you all for supporting me, enjoying what I post (hopefully, if not why would you be following me?) and just making the RuneScape community better in general.

What can I say~  I've seen many faces on #runescape and I've got to know a few, but others are still quite a mystery to me.  I really wish I'd have got to know more of you but maybe I still can have the opportunity to c:  

To the point~

Miley: Just amazing and fabulous \o/ Was my first ever best friend on rs that i got so close to and i can always trust her with anything which is a great feeling. :> She also has some of the sxiest outfits in rs \o/ Shes someonne i can pvm with and always talk to when im feeling sobby nd shes such a good friend if u take care of her and be nice to her shes the same back :}  I love ya Miley <3 

Hayley: Guuurl, ily! I love messing with you and can talk to you about anything :} Ur my Bestie for lyf same as Miley and im so happy for you with marty \o/ you got me into tumblr and im forever thankful bc lets be honest i was a huge fucking derp first day i met you, you thaught me alot and i wish you all the best <3 Lovee uu@

Steve: Man, i was on the verge of quitting rs for a while cus i lost my bank but im forever thankful that you lent me weapons and gear to get back to what i lost, ur really epic and u have the best selfie game@ ily Steve <3 bro

Penny: D'aw wht can i say about you, i know tht i adored u from the second i met you and we had lots of fun, ik ive been awful and we had our ups and downs but ur a great person tht i hope gets the best :] Much love <3

Lilly: Amg when u first got tumblr i was rly scared to talk to you but i did and you were really nice :> Ur really funny and u can make me smile alot by just being you, im always there for you and ur a gr8 gr8 person! I wish you all the best and whenever i see a sheep now i think of you lmao, ur great and dont ever let anyone tell u anything different because you deserve great things :} ily <3

April: Really funny and nice person that i have alot in common with and can always talk to, i love ur sense of humour cause its almost same as me :D Ur great and i never want to swap u out as a friend for anything in the world bc ur rly close to me and we talk everyday, i just wish u werent so far behind in timezones :< Much luv <3

Jess: Shes so funny and a really cool person that spreads alot of joy and happyness :> Also extremly good looking dayum (hit her up bois) I love talking to you and ur really easy to talk to and alike me in alot of ways :]

Kristianne: Ily <3 ur really nice to everyone, great at outfits, really funny and got some hella selfie game :> Ur a nooby god, but ur my god!@ I really want to get to know you even better and if u ever need me im always here for you :]

Neil: My rs idol lmao, ur really funny and a great guy :> I want ur trim comp :c But ur rly amazing and a fkn pro at Rs!@ I love you and i can always rant to you about something if im annoyed <3 love u bruh

Niv - This guy was like the first guy that actually started talking to me on the tag, he's been a great friend for the past year and almost half and I still love him for always being there for me, listening to me vent/rant and still talk to me even though I'm mean to him almost all the time. I really miss back when we were noobs and hung out a lot, but then again everyone has different views of how they play the game but there's one thing that won't change for me! My bestfriend & my friendship-love for NivNiv. 

Nick - We have this like love/hate relationship on display but for 90% of the time, I love him. He's like, idk. I feel like I can bitch to him about anyone and talk shit to him without being worried that he'd get hurt or something because, straya. 

Will - This guy, damn. He always help me out when I need a hand on tumblr or on RS. Can always rely on him when I need a buddy to xp waste or minigames with, he has all these kind of connections that makes my day better.

Jay - You know when... you're feeling down over relationships and you just need someone to listen to you and maybe give you advices but always end up telling you how great you are as a person.. he's that guy. He almost always remind me of how much of a good person I am and things, he's just a positive guy it's so sweet. <3

Kevin - *~*~* hugs *~*~* the most cuddliest person on the virtual world I know. I remember when I first met him, I thought he was a scary, big-ego comp-caper but as I got to know him, he's the type of guy I enjoy being around. 

Tash/Erika - We kinda drifted apart as you guys stopped playing Runescape as much/left tumblr for awhile, but I want you to know that I always have you guys on my mind, and thank you for being supportive of me through my down times. 

Bella - Gurl. We have so much in common in a way that I cannot explain but the feeling is great because since day 1, you reached out to me and said if I have any problems or anything. I really appreciate this. <3

Max - You've always been a great and supportive friend to me. I remember when I first met you.. I was a complete noob and you were almost maxed, you still became friends with me till this day, I appreciate this, I love you Max. <3

Angus - My almost e-husband. (jokes) I hate you for stealing my bestfriend from me, but I love you because you gave me more space to allow me to do more shit. I'M JUST KIDDING NIVNIV, DON'T HATE.

Jeff - Shit kid. Nuff said. Jokes, I like how you come to me and talk to me about sometimes serious things and asks me for advice, see how I'm going and making sure I'm okay. Thanks for being my friend :) 

Brandon - Even though I've just met you this year, you's been a great bunch to talk to. Really easy going and happy 90% of your time. Thanks for welcoming me to the FC and accepting me easily :)

~*~* Appreciation to people without Tumblr & groupies *~*~

Jay/Joel/Angel - Even though things has happened between me and someone else in our group, you guys still decide to keep talking to me and cheer me up. I really love you guys, you's are the best. I'm glad we're still close after all these years.

Whatsapp crew/Skype crew (4Tumblr) - You guys are my family tbh, mainly the whatsapp group. Yous are the first people I think about when I want to share my happiness. Can always ask for help. 

Warbands crew - Even though I've only met you this year, but you all have been very welcoming and things. I really appreciate that you guys keep me posted about the game with 1K messages on the group every day when I log in.

Anna - The silly p-mod friend I have that is drunk 80% of her time. <3 <3 I love her so much. :D

John/Kay/Bubby - My KK friends !! You guys always invite me to KK and help me make bank - you guys helped me a lot with my road to pet. <3

For everyone else that I've spoken to and hung out with.. even though you don't have your own category on this feelswagon, you still have made me smile without trying.

Alrightttt bout to do this Feelswagon post. I believe it's gonna be a long one haha.

I was even lazy to do this maaan.

Soz so late.

oyhr: My boy Orion tho. I've know this dude since I've started my Rs blog 3 years ago. This dude is hella chill, we do some stupid shit together and with everyone else. This guy is 10/10 one of my closest/good friends. My nigga, my nigga.

ragingmoomoo: Yo. Jason deMooMoo tho. This guy is hella chill, hella sarcastic, but its so funny. Thanks for bein a lilsht. k bye

cwars: Alright so this chick right here. She means a lot to me. We had our ups and downs but at the end of the day, she will always be an amazing person to me. I can come to her about everything and I'll always be there for her. Thank you for accepting me. I'll work harder on being a better friend and I won't let you down ever again. Stay beautifuuuuul

bakit-why: This is my lil sistar Nadine. She's hella chill and hella troll. I can talk to her about my problems and all this shit and I can depend on her. But she still doesn't give me donuts...lilsht

jpop-rs: Cee is a really good friend of mine. We just started talking and we would always talk about KPop but it's always enjoyable.

badatrs: My boy Chris though. He's hella chill man and also gay. But 10/10. Sounds gay, I'm in.

danirulz: Me and this chick have a love/hate relationship. She's also afraid of me when it comes to league because she thinks I might rage. JUST SO YOU KNOW I'M GETTING BETTER AT IT OKAY... and it's nothing personal LOVEYOU. Have fun and be yourself.

erkuh: YO, me and Erika... we've known each other for awhile but just recently started talking more often. She's such an amazing friend and I can come to her about my problems.

tentscape: Di, Diana, she's one of my closest friends as well. I can talk to her about my problems and I'll be there for her.

cultofhugs: yoo this dude is hella chill too. I don't know much about him but this nigga tho and his popsicles.

delusionsrs: Amanda PLSSSS. I've known this chick for a long time and she's been nothing more than an amazing friend.

blur: This is my duuude right here. Hard worker in real life and in rs. Someone who I can depend on for information. And when we talk with our group of friends, it's always a fun time.

jdc-pls: My boyyy JDC. I recently just started talking to him and he's like a lil brobro to me. Don't forget to have fun and be yourself pls.

arcadesonas: YOOO da homegirl tashizzyyyyy. This girl is hella chill. Talks about league so much and supports me when I adc. She's improving as well. keep it up.

I probably forgot some people because there are several individuals that have been a big impact to my life.