Journal - Monday, February 19th, 2018
I need to get some condiments. Ketchup, mustard, mayo. Could I marry myself right now? Would I want to. I should. I mean, I feel like I already have. Or am I just trying to take better care of myself. Be Better. There’s always ways to improve. Like. Step one. Be honest with yourself. Why are you still spending so much money just to drink. I have to knock that off. I just have to say no. I feel like I have to just do it and accept but I don’t think I am ready to close that part of my life. I don’t know. I wish I could just stop having the urge to have it. but I’m really not making an effort. Weekend thing is working pretty well. Try to limit even more. $20 in cash and that's it. 4 bees. $5 tip and 5 gamble. ha like I’ll ever follow that. Well I guess I could just smoke more. I have to make a decision, to have alcohol in my life or to have a life?I need to really need to practice more guitar. Learn some new songs. I’m not going. I just wish I cared about it. I wish I cared about myself. That’s all that really need to happen. How do I do that. should I just leave/ do these people really care about me? Always making the wrong decisions. I should just do everything opposite of what I think. Nah. at this point I don’t care.
Pictures from this day
