#feb142015

That's my realization for today. I wasn't joining the bandwagon or what, but I was expecting that he might have something for me. Our plan was ruined because the spa that we went to were too occupied (holy shit!) and we were tired. We slept the whole day. He cooked lunch (ADOBO BABE!) and the end of the day became too dramatic. I felt crushed when he said "Ewan ko ba kung bakit big deal sakanila yang mga ganyan ganyan. Tsss". So nagtampo ako. Iba pa rin kasi yung may nabibigay na kahit maliit na bagay lang. I wasn't asking for too much and I understand him. I feel pained cause I can't fucking voice it out like a mothafuckin' coward. I am holding back my thoughts. Wala, iniiyak ko na lang. Until di ko na napigilan kasi parang nagaaway na kami. He hugged me right away and I cried. I told him how I felt and eventually, he said sorry. What else can I do? Andun na eh! Pero okay lang! Naiintindihan ko. Di naman ako ganun kademanding eh. Nothing changed. Love na love ko pa rin sya. Hehe. Tama nga sinabe nya, "Aanhin mo yung isang araw na celebration kung pwede namang gawing valentine's day araw araw diba?"  So nagbati kami and then, we watched THAT THING CALLED TADHANA sa Youtube. Nakakatuwa lang kasi parang story namen yung mga ganap sa movie. Just like how we started.  Yun nga lang strangers sila sa movie, kami naman hindi. But still, Nakakatawa lang and nakakakilig lalo na kasama ko sya habang pinapanood yun. 

Lalo López.