#feb08

On February, 8th of 2016 I was dumped. Now, this came a complete surprise to me as I thought the relationship was going very well. I had even thought about how this relationship could grow. I fully believed that with time this was the girl I could marry. The break up was rocky to say the least. My emotions ranged from devastated to anger. I seriously came to a really dark place. What could have I done better? Was there someone else? Did she ever love me? Was it all a lie? These are questions that vexed my very existence. One full week later many of these questions still haunt me. I try to be logical and say I do not want her back, but I do. Or so I think I do. It has occurred to me that in my  25 years of life....ten+ of them have been in a relationship. I have not went a year without one since I was 14. This brings me to this long post that I am sure you are already bored of. Do I miss her or being in a relationship? Do I love her or the idea of her. Am I just a lonely fuck that needs someone to validate my being? Unfortunately, time is the only one that can tell me these answers. So, have decided to catalog my struggle with being single for full year.

The rules: I can not enter into a romantic relationship... meaning NO GIRLFRIEND I may resume being a hopeless romantic hell bent on finding love on February 8th of 2017.  I will write entries cataloging my experience of the single life on my tumblr under the hashtag #yearsingle  if anyone want to follow along.