#featheredgrace

There’s a quote I love (I had to look it up because I wanted to make sure I got the wording right and it’s attributed to Tolstoy): 

Just as one candle lights another and can light thousands of other candles, so one heart illuminates another heart and can illuminate thousands of other hearts.

I can’t remember when I first read it, it was probably at some point in high-school, but it stayed with me as such a beautiful idea, as something I hoped to consistently aspire towards, because I believe it to be true, that as one flame can carry over to another little flame and thus increase the sum total of light in the whole universe, so too can we affect one another’s hearts and souls. 

@featheredgrace I’ve been saving this since you sent it (partially because I wanted to cherish it for a while and was, as my Grandma Dell would have said, verklempt), and I wish I could explain more articulately what a healing message it was for me to read, maybe even especially in the wake of last year and standing with a mix of anxious thought and tenuous hope for the beginning of a new one. That hope only continues to exist, at least for me, because of words like this and people like you. We have to keep reminding one another of the things worth remembering and worth fighting for, of the things worth loving and living for, of the light we have the capacity to shine and give to others, no matter how small and flickering it may sometimes seem. That it glimmers through the darkness is enough.

i’m always doing the song thing! until the day i die / is no longer on tumblr, promise. 

I shuffled my playlist and I got this.

stop, you’re cold against the skin

i’ve never seen the northern lightsyou’re the only one i know

i’m a constant sinneri want you

songs used: (1) winter sound by of monsters and men, (2) where i live by woodkid, (3) sway by emily henry, (4) conscience killer by black rebel motorcycle club, and (5) oceans by seafret

Which, since I remixed the order, isn’t that bad in itself. But it’s still a bit messy, so for fun I also picked my own lines from the songs instead of relying on the first lyric.

and I run, I run, I run, awakening my heartunder the surface and try to pretendi never walked across the ice

there was no way around it

3: First book that had a major influence on you

Hmm, the first book I remember having a big influence on me was A Wrinkle In Time. It was the first book I found important enough to me to actually underline sections of it. I’ve read it probably somewhere close to 100 times.

4: Quick, you're in desperate need of a fake name. What character name do you think of first?

Wendy!

8: Why are you reading the book you're currently reading?

I am reading First Lord’s Fury because Aley is a JERK and lent me the first book in the Codex Alera series. Now I’m on the last one and it’s sTILL SO GOOD.

12: Tell one book story or memory (what you were wearing when you were reading something, someone saw you cry in public, you threw a book across the room and broke a window, etc.)

Well, I’ve never thrown a book across the room and broken a window. I do very vividly remember reading this book called Nightmare Academy by Frank Peretti, though. I was sitting in my living room in the la-z-boy chair and I was SO TENSE I was like, clutching the armrest, my eyes were wide because it scared me so much, but I couldn’t stop reading. I remember my mom stopping in her tracks and staring at my reactions, haha.

36: Unpopular opinions

congrats!

belovedhunter replied to your post:

Congrats!!! ^-^

featheredgrace replied to your post:

that's fantastic, well done!! :)

thewalking-destiel replied to your post:

So happy for you, sweetie!

((((hugs))))

<3

featheredgrace replied to your post “crying in the breakroom bathroom so cool hope it stops soon so I can...”

customers can be the absolute worst sometimes :( *hugs you*

i don’t understand though, i was having an okay shift, i didn’t have any problems with anybody, dealt with other rude customers just fine until her. i’ve been putting up with this stuff for eight years. my job IS dealing with pissed off/angry/full-of-shit customers. 

but i still just snapped.

why couldn’t i keep my mouth shut.

venusrobots replied to your post “crying in the breakroom bathroom so cool hope it stops soon so I can...”

/huuuuuuugs <333 I'm sorry babe FUCK THAT PERSON SERIOUSLY WHAT THE FUCK fuck

fuck me too though honestly

[goes on a two hour walk burrowing into the solitude of her headphones]

watch me get into serious trouble for this

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WHAT WAS YOUR

Last beverage: Water

Last phone call: Most likely to one of our suppliers at work...

Last text message: “Just round the corner be there sec” from my brother

Last song you listened to: “Nothing Arrived” by Villagers (awesome, awesome band, saw them last Friday)

Last time you cried: Friday night, due to overtiredness, a whole bunch of things in my life going wrong, and missing my dad. Luckily I have an awesome boyfriend who took care of me. 

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: Nope

Been cheated on: Um. Not sure. One of my exes spent our last two weeks together avoiding me and spending his all his spare time with another girl. Not sure if they did anything physical, but I think it was only a matter of hours after we broke up before they officially got together. 

Kissed someone and regretted it: Kind of yeah.

Lost someone special: As in died? Yeah my Gran five years ago. My dad eight months ago. It sucks. 

Been depressed: Yes

Been drunk and threw up: Yes

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS:  Red, purple, and anything in between.

LAST YEAR (2014) HAVE YOU

Made a new friend:  Yes

Fallen out of love: Uh. Yeah kind of I guess. 

Laughed until you cried: Yes. Most often with sugarless5. Good times. 

Met someone who changed you: Yes

Found out who your true friends are:  Uh. Some of them yeah I suppose.

Found out someone was talking about you: Yes. But that’s just life. People talk. 

Kissed anyone on your FB friends list: yes

GENERAL

How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life: I’m pretty sure I’ve met all of them in real life at some point. But a fair amount would be people I haven’t seen in years/was never really ‘friends’ with. 

First best friend: My brother. In a lot of ways he still is. 

First sport you joined: I think tennis was the first and only.

First vacation: First I remember was going to the Ryan Hotel in Killarney when I was 4. First time abroad was to Carnac, France at 5. 

First pair of trainers: No idea.

RIGHT NOW

Eating: Had some toast a little bit ago.

Drinking: Water and instant coffee.

I’m about to: Maybe apply to jobs...most likely browse tumblr instead.

Listening to: Villagers.

Waiting for: Two letters to arrive that are way late and that I desperately need. 

YOUR FUTURE

Want kids: At some point in the distant future probably.

Get married: Yeah.

Career: Ugh. Ideally I wanna be a writer/academic. Right now anything that’s different to my current job at the Cheese Shop from Hell would be nice. 

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: Ooooh. Tough one. I think lips actually.

Hugs or kisses: Hugs. I’m a hugger.

Shorter or taller: Taller. I seem to have a bit of a thing for short guys but I’d still like them to have a few inches on me.

Older or younger: older

Romantic or spontaneous: Probably romantic. I’m not great at spontaneity. I need consistence and reliability and planning. 

Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms are always appreciated. 

Sensitive or loud: Going by my current fella, sensitive!

Hook-up or relationship: Relationship. I’m not built for the whole casual thing.

Trouble maker or hesitant: Eh, neither? Like I said, reliable.

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: yeah a few times

Drank hard liquor: again, a few times yeah...

Lost glasses/contacts: luckily don’t need either

Sex on first date: Uh, well most of my relationships tend to evolve so naturally and spontaneously that they don’t usually involve any specific ‘dates’. But yeah I usually have sex with them pretty early on. 

Broke someones heart: yes

Been arrested: Nope

Turned someone down: Yes.

Cried when someone died: Oh god yes. And still cry when I think of it really.

Fallen for a friend: Kind of in the process of it yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: Constantly aiming to yes. 

Miracles: I believe in big coincidences that often seem like miracles.

Love at first sight: Not as such no, but I do believe in (and have experienced) knowing almost immediately that you’re going to develop strong feelings for someone.

Heaven: I was brought up Catholic, and even though I now consider myself agnostic, there are certain aspects of Catholicism that I’m reluctant to give up, especially having lost a close family member last year. To be honest though, I’m not sure what scares me more; heaven being real and therefore eternal existence being a thing, or it not being real and death being the complete end.

Santa Claus: of course!

Kiss on the first date: If the date is going well and you’re both into it then yeah def!