When people say you shouldnāt fear anything, especially something you cant control, that just makes me more anxious. That makes me more worried, because i am afraid that what i want isnāt what i have. Or maybe, what i have is exactly what i want, but its not meant to be. Im afraid life wont be as pleasant for me. Of course i will make it, but maybe it wont be anything like id ever want. What if it all just burns to the ground, and i have nothing to remind me how to be happy. No token of remembrance, or way to get out, back to that happiness. What if it all leaves me in a flash, and i am left with nothing; no motive, no love, no life to live. Will i be happy with my work, or will that be a disappointment as well?