CONTINUED FROM HERE ; @fcnch
you’re trying your hardest to be civil, to keep things passive. you just don’t know if that’s possible when talking to nico. it’s almost like she wants you to be mad at her, like she’s pushing for you to tell her off. you usually aren’t the bigger person when it comes to things like this, you’re only doing this for the sake of your friends. it’s embarrassing to constantly have arguments with someone in your friend group, and you realize that. you can admit that sometimes you do provoke her, it’s fun. you enjoy the adrenaline of a heated argument, it makes you feel like you can do anything.
yet here you are, trying to mend things, because the tension between you and nico makes things uncomfortable. that’s what you were told through a text between one of your mutual friends, that’s the only reason why you’re trying to fix things.
“ you should care because i’m obviously trying my best right now. ”
you don’t want to be petty, you don’t want to start an argument (well, you kiinda do -- but), that’s not what you’re here for. however, you feel the need to push further. almost as if you have to start something.
“ whatever, nico. i’m not gonna sit here and amuse you, this is bullshit. ”
