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and luca's there! looking beautiful. mad as hell trying to get over his pissy wounded pride and various feelings of inadequacy. singing fucking. creep by radiohead apparently. those lyrics are crazy there is not a single good time to make eye contact in that song with a guy who you have made out with and maybe jerked off once or twice at various championship parties so even if its accidental pecco feels like he's touched a livewireee. anyway this does end with them getting far too close on the dance floor. you know when youre out with friends or coworkers and two of them just start dancing with each other a little too seriously and then you look a few seconds later and theyre randomly making out in the middle of the club and youre like wow about time. is that a universal experience. anyway it is the ducati/honda staff member experience in that karaoke bar. then theyre properly making out in a toilet cubicle or at least a more private corner and pecco is perhaps going a little TOO free. drunk and worked up and frankly high on winning enough to ask for anything and everything bc hell if he is letting himself just this once then why not make the most of it. and luca wants to sooo fucking bad.... sober enough to know far better than to be doing this at all but also sober enough to exert what feels like superhuman self control to do what he Thinks is making some sort of bargain that they can't do all that now but they'll have a week after mandalika to do whateverr pecco wants. pecco is desperately agreeing to literally anything he says lol then luca ig gets pecco off in a toilet cubicle unable not to give him at least that much

anyway..

the thing about pecco as a girl is that she would have all of his complexities and neuroses and ALSO a whole load of new ones! being the only girl at the academy (minus luca, who of course is there.... not entirely by merit. lol) and having come up through minimoto and everything as the only girl, having to be solidly better than all the boys just to be considered a contender, always feeling a little out of step with her peers in an even more pronounced way than irl pecco, moving to romagna at 16 (?) and being again surrounded by ("rough") boys and men that suburban from-a-good-family quiet introverted girly-in-the-wrong-ways pecco doesnt quitee get on well with immediately. or ever tbh. but she doesnt get on with the girls either! and also really doesnt want to only ever hang out with the girls and women that are around who are not racers bc then shes painting herself as less serious as a competitor. or whatever. am i projecting when i say that being a 16 year old girl was the worst thing in the world? maybe, but would pecco agree? yes absolutely. massive chip on her shoulder about EVERYTHING. just as (legally) aggressive as a rider if not MORE so. proud and self confident to the point of arrogance . but then theres that side to her that is anxious and self-deprecating and principled... desperate to have that respectful image - even more intense when she's one of the only women. possibly the first female champion? she is TOO aware of that burden on her shoulders. which tbh vale has had these long unhelpful talks with her about. so she cant be emotional or irrational or incompetent and being gay would just be. one more thing that would make everything worse. so she can't be gay. she's not. she has several honestly miserable relationships with guys whose mothers know her mother because thats what shes supposed to do. guys who objectively are fine and nice and she should just choose one to marry. and she doesn't NOT want to settle down but . she also wants to die when she thinks about it.

meanwhile lucaaa....god being valentino rossi's brother is bad enough imagine being valentino rossi's SISTER (tbh idk where i get this idea from but i feel like it would be slightly more stressed that she was his HALF sister. if she was a woman. yknow?). even more people calling her undeserving. drawing out the differences between them and luca's lack of vale's everything and ascribing that to her gender instead of the fact that they are like. different people. grew up tall in a way that was just constantly uncomfortable all through high school, and too skinny, and only comes into her looks as an adult so she has that kind of complex that experience gives you. but god everyone constantly commenting on her looks... umbrella girl jokes....... imo she dresses fairly androgynously. for comfort. etc. but she's conventionally femininely beautiful so it's like. hard to make it particularly masc. if you know what i mean. she's smart and technical and puts a lot of time into that and gets this bitter pleasure from always being smarter and knowing more than men expect her to. but thats a defence too, right. its finding a niche and a pigeonhole to put herself in before anyone else does. as vale's sister as the one who "could be a model" as one of the only women.... she's even MORE set on defining herself and taking that control. also tbh (sorry) the orthorexia... god. even worse. ALSO. that tendency to the domestic like that desire to settle down.. very much still feels that and very much cannot have it. cannot have a wife not when that could make or break her career which is already not as stable. god knows how honda would feel how it would be just one more strike against her being considered equitably for seats... etc etc. and shes angry about it. imo. angry about a lot of things and values her ability to keep a calm head despite all that above everything else.

2. dovquez with butch dovi which - actually i dont have like any kind of plot bc i just think of what some scholars on here have written (i think notably @/lastlatebraker and @/strawbunni-shortcake iirc) and rotate it all in my head before i fall asleep. again with marc who is like. not aware or not admitting that she's into women or at least into dovi. very into dovi. and even when she does admit THAT its like well thats fine its bc dovi's very masculine so its not AS gay (NOT my words this is the fucked up marc thought process ofc). i think its fun to splash some infidelity in there but also idk if dovi would actually be ok with that

3. peccoluca...... which is COMPLEX ok bc its already complex and then you make even one of them a woman and its crazy. so both of them being women and possibly the only women in the sport/certainly the academy. SO much to think about. tbh the option i was thinking about recently was pecco who like. goes through yknow. pick your poison of things pecco has gone through recently. and is like. fuck it im being brave im going to explore the gay urges that have been plaguing me for a decade hashtag gofree and its baddd like really Not Good for any number of reasons (SO many to choose from :( ) so she's like ok putting that back into the box and never looking at it again. and then luca finds out. somehow. etc