when the snake found his heart , a drabble for @corxner
he still remembers that sting he felt after faust said goodbye . it confused him for days , not because he didn't understand why but because he was well aware he wasn't about to let go of him that easily . he already knows this and proof of it was how he went as far as buying a place close to faust's apartment - one that guaranteed a view to it through the window .
weeks had passed now . despite being blessed with the opportunity of a normal life , victor simply couldn't have that . that fully human body of his felt wrong , it felt incomplete . unnatural . keeping him awake at night ( along with many thoughts ) and deciding to welcome the nemesis parasite once more . the changes just about the same as before ; his body was familiar with it now that it had gone through those changes . adapting again was easy , bringing peace to his mind .
and yet , he still felt uneasy . something felt . . . wrong .
stupidly , he believes it could be something physical . an odd leftover after his body fully converted to that monstrous nemesis state - he studies his own body , checking what he could do on his own . not that it was difficult ; having been gifted with elpis and also the younger man's blood made it easy to be a bit more reckless on things .
nothing was coming off wrong in any test , any chart , any check up . what then ?
it's during a night that he happens to be observing faust from the window in the comfort of his secret apartment that he makes a painful realization . the younger man looked so peaceful . enjoying the night as he cooked dinner after work - victor had studied each and every detail of his routine , memorizing it with ease . sometimes faust looked far more at ease than he ever did when the doctor was around . even after they had been passionately intimate . . . it was almost like he was seeing a completely different man .
that ache twists in his chest again , making him breathe out in discomfort . it couldn't possibly be a real physical anomaly - he already made sure to check . a blink and a moment to dive deeply in thought . how stupid . . . of course he wasn't sick or dealing with an aftermath from the battle that should have killed him .
he had a broken heart .
so comes the realization that his obsession for the younger man was more than just that . more than fascination and perhaps morbid curiosity . it was something as ridiculous as love . almost offensive how faust had managed to have such a bold effect on victor - the convenient part of it though ? he now knew that faust was wrong when he said victor had never loved him .
it brings him hope . to win him back , to own him again .
now he had to figure out how to prove that .
