#fattube

I'm happy I'm chubby. No, no, I would prefer being THIN and having curves. Let's not get crazy. I *am* a girl afterall.

After growing up with a little extra fluff on me, it took years to get comfortable with the idea of having it. Was I fat? I wasn't thin. I didn't feel FAT. At least if I were fat, I would KNOW I was fat. This is one of many confusing aspects of being a chubby-chubkins.

It's not all confusing, though. It has many perks. Now to get to the superficial, ego-driven drivel.

Relationship-wise, here's what I think made me a happy chubberina (although not practiced by all other chubkins and is by no-means entirely specific to only chubby chicks - this is just my experience):

- No shocking reveals: You never had to worry that when you take your clothes off, there'd be extra fluff that someone wasn't expecting to find. It's a lot harder to disguise a little extra fluff when you're chubbery, because it's fairly apparent you're not a scrawn. Therefore, anyone going for you knows what they are getting into. If anything, others will expect you to be much bigger than you actually are. (Not to say that you're any less self-conscious disrobed than any girl of ANY size.)

- Boobs: Duh.

- Confidence: You know you're not fat. You know you're not thin. You accept your fate and don't even bother trying to compete with the other chicks. As a result of this lackadaisical approach to situations, you aren't coming off as trying too hard because you just simply aren't playing games. You get to just be you and if it works, it works. Confidence is sexy.

- Ignorance: You train yourself not to expect that chubbliness is anyone's cup'o'tea. So, when the chub-tree bears...well, chubs...you are pleasantly surprised.

- Entertainment: Since you can't play the game if you err on the side of caution and assume you're not in the game, you get the opportunity to observe those who are playing. AND LAUGH. A LOT. This also has the adverse effect of giving you all of the rules of the game - should you ever choose to partake in the game.

- Sensuality: Being soft and not tremendously jiggly (only in the right places, baby) means that you have the advantage on sensuality. You're not all bones when you rub against someone, so doing things slowly and sensually is something your body is just *made* to do.

Downsides to being a chubzilla:

- Descriptive terms in society: Being chubby means that when you're described to potential partners, they're not typically describing you as "Hot". This isn't because they don't think you're hot. It's because it's socially acceptable that the thin are the hotties. I can not even count how many women I know that are lacking mentally, have mediocre-at-best faces and are consistently being referred to as "super hot."

- Body shaper fat-tube: When you're fat, it's obvious you're fat. If you put your tubbiness into a shaper, it slims you. When you're chubby? It takes the little layers of fluff you're sporting and shoves it all into the wrong places. Those curves you enjoy having? Non-existant. Fat tube. That booty you think is fun? Gone. Fat tube. The thin spots that accentuate your hourglassy features? WHERE THE HELL DID THEY GO? FAT TUBE.

- Uncertainty: You never know if you're going to actually be able to cross the line into thin, or if you're a step away from morbid-obesity.

- Other people: Fat and thin people will tell you that you've got an amazing body and that you're being too hard on yourself. Both of these responses are simply in response to calling yourself "chubby." As though stating you're chubby is terrible. These overcompensative reactions make it suck to be chubby.

- Other people still: Lose a little weight? EVERYONE comments. Gain a little weight? Everyone comments about how great you look.