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it was a battle I was fighting within me. No one knew and I didn’t want to tell anyone. But the thought of you being away from me killed me. It made me want to just wipe out my existence from this world. I know that there were other relationships that valued me. I know that I was needed by other people, but for me only you existed.

Day in and day out. I couldn’t help myself from dialling his number, from calling him. I couldn’t stop myself even tho I knew the consequences. I know it will hurt me. I know it will make me crazy. I knew that it would ultimately result in something even worse whenever I called him. I kept on wishing for a different result each time I reached out I kept on wishing that he would be gentle patient. He would try to understand my circumstances. He would try to understand how I feel. I kept on wishing. It was brutal. What I was doing to myself, but like I said, I couldn’t stop. It was like I knew him only in this world and no one else it was like he was there with me no one else. It was like I couldn’t even go to someone else even if I wished. No matter what I wanted to do no matter what I thought. I still ended up calling him. I still ended up wanting him. I still ended up trying to reach him. Every day I had to remind myself on waking up do not do that. Do not contact him not today not today.  if he doesn’t want your presence , why would you need such a person?

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