You will really come to a point that you don't want to have any responsibility. Time that you only make effort for yourself and not because someone needs you. Sounds very selfish but tell me that I am after you wear and walk with my shoes on.
I tried for three years to be strong and independent. To be responsible and understanding. But now three years has passed but no one in my family ask if I can still do it. If I need help or do you want to rest for awhile and I will take care of it.
They messed up my life after my mom's death and now I am continuously reviving myself from those hardships. When I am tired, I will suddenly snap and remember everything and cry again. I am thinking maybe my past is still dragging me. But no, it's them that draining me.
You will be remembered because they need you. And when they are happy and fine they will not even tilt a bit to say hi. I am happy cos somehow it's me they remember with those hard times and am still there family.
But since I do not have the luxury of them. I don't have anyone to turn fo when I do not have any. Aside from him. But him that I don't want to get bothered with my dramas cos I know he have his.
I want to go far. Far from people who drains every part of me. I don't want to be with them for now. I am super tired of them. Super.
