Writing Woes
So I've been working on my FandomTr*mpsHate FTH piece for 4 months now and it's splintered more than once. I don't remember the last time I struggled this hard with creating content I was passionate about and I think the reason why is what I'm writing about just makes me so incredibly angry that I'm not processing the anger, I'm just existing in it.
I've always used this auction to write stories with a social justice bent to them, particularly ones tied to the horror that has come out of this man's election. First it was The Conflict of Identity and the travel ban, then it was the tragedy of women's rights and how that can devolve into something like the MMIW inquiry in Found.
Now I'm torn between two warring ideas that make me so desolate, so rage-filled and sharp, that I'm struggling to research them and get the stories just right. I can't read anything more about the border crossings, the children in concentration camps, about the way Canadians are unable to help all the while our polls are saying that some Canadians are cooling their willingness to accept migrants at a time when migration is at a historically high number. I don't want to explore the abortion bans, where women are already being charged for being victims, where our bodies are not our own.
I hate that I have to choose between these topics, that I can't change things to make them better apart from what I'm already doing. I don't want to sit idly by anymore while people are suffering from hate.
I'm tired of this timeline. I'm tired of being exhausted by misery.
