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Bucky has his private fantasies theories as to why—he could just be wired that way. Or, maybe it was because he was already rubbed raw with his body fragile, his skin thin, his nerves chronically pained, and so on, bone deep, all of him, yet he was always so unwilling to accept it, so instead, he started railing against it and absorbing all the too bright sensations; breathing them in, mixing them with the pleasure he discovered within himself and within Bucky, learning to like it, twisting it until he liked the pain that was his to choose. His control. His to control. Hell, it might have even been his to embrace because he was already an outsider—second-generation immigrant, chronically ill, upstanding, and limp-wristed—so he might as well go all the fucking way, right? Who gives a shit, throw fuel onto the already burning fire. Give 'em something to really feast their eyes on.

Whatever the reason, it doesn't actually make a difference. 'Cause after the serum, naturally, Steve still craves it despite being unable to get there so easily.

Pleasurable pain.

Agonizing bliss.

Yes, please.

So, accordingly, Bucky makes it a little treat—do well on a mission, don't let himself get torn into in any preventable ways, don't take any unnecessary risks, and don't be stupid (the real challenge for him)—and Bucky will make it hurt. He'll give him the real thing he craves.

Pain.

Perversity.

And, of all the techniques they've developed together, Bucky's favorite way to get him there is deceptively simple: furiously jerk him off until he's raw and whimpering to stop, pluh-please, please, hnnngohmygod, buck, buck! please, stop, ohplease, fuckk, fuck! that huuuurts! please! please!, it maybe hurts more than it feels good, he's swollen, red, chafed, and thrashing in their bed. By then, he's gripping nothing, his wrists are bruised in their vibranium cuffs spread to his full, muscles-strained-to-their-impossible-limits wingspan by a matching vibranium spreader bar attached to their (often replaced) headboard. Exposed and stripped back. Carved down to nothing but his bare, visceral desires.

Bucky can never control his hunger by that point, vicious as he licks his teeth, just moments from taking a bite from his lover's sweat-glazed, glimmering flesh—he's feverish, blushing a deep rose, and just so unbelievably tempting. Bucky would and has kill for this man.

Worn thin, begging to stop but decisively not using his safeword, Steve orgasms cataclysmically with a shriek trapped behind his gritted teeth. It looks too good to be true—he looks too good to be true.

And, always, every fucking time, immediately afterward, Steve gets this stupid, soft, loopy smile that Bucky would do anything for.

S!!!!!!!!!!! 🤗🤗🤗

s baby this is literally the most difficult question to answer in the world

30: A song that reminds you of yourself

because we have Sincerity is Scary by the 1975 for.... All Of The Lyrics... but then we have Tonight (I Wish I Was Your Boy) by the 1975 for... All Of The Lyrics and then we have wrong people by eli. and white lies by eli. and worthless by eli. and I Would Do Anything for You by Foster the People and I Will Be Back One Day by Lord Huron and The Man Who Lives Forever by Lord Huron and About You by the 1975 and Love It If We Made It by the 1975 and Somebody Else by the 1975

I was listening to a podcast today specific to artists and the discussion revolved around being a "workaholic" versus being passionate about your work and how, really, when you look at what being a workaholic is... it's an addiction.

You feel guilty when you're not working or you feel as if you have to be on all the time. And in the case of the professional artist you always have to be sketching, always answering clients emails, always bathing yourself in creativity, always coming up with new ideas, etc.

Personally, listening is opening a lot of new thoughts for me but also... it screams Steve Rogers to me. Both the artist in Steve and the natural hunger I think artists have. That passion that drives skill. But also the belief he surely morphed to always need to do good. He was made, through the serum, as a weapon to stop evil so I bet he always feels like he needs to be out there, doing good. Also, Sarah was an immigrant and nurse and I would bet so much money that she worked so hard- Steve probably picked some of his workaholic nature up from here. Additionally, I'm sure he (along with Bucky) has it stomped into him that he needs to work hard to make ends meet, otherwise he'll never have enough money to live. Also! Work is totally an escape for all the other emotions swirling in his head with all that fucking trauma he's gone through.

So, yeah... many thoughts about workaholic Steve Rogers chewing his fingernails down to the skin, until they're painful and bleeding a little, when he's on "vacation" from Avenger-ing because there's a huge knot of guilt and restlessness in his soul whenever he isn't working or he doesn't have a project going.

Never apologize for long thoughts! I love them!

Also this speaks to me. I've always thought of art as sort of an obsession for Steve. It's less something he does on the side, or a casual hobby, and more something he has to do in order to maintain some semblance of equilibrium in his life. And you describing it as an addiction has never rang more true.

I also think that Steve is always someone who throws himself into whatever he has to in order to escape the tendrils of his mind and anxieties that try to yank him around. Whether it's Avenging or art, he's a bit of a gogogo person. Relaxation is a fleeting thought to him, because the moment you slow down and stop moving, those poisonous thoughts in his head start to swirl again. But Avenging isn't a constant thing, so he busies himself with his art in the meantime. And with that comes these goals and expectations he sets for himself. Learning new techniques is like a rush of adrenaline, and completing works is a potent drug that he can't seem to stop coming back to, because if he doesn't finish, there's this awful, tight feeling in his chest, and he can't relax.

I think even if Steve managed to retire and slow down, Bucky would have a hard time coaxing him to come home, because he's still got that innate gogogo mentality. All the energy expended from work would go solely into his art, and that would become even more of an obsession because there's no other place for him to divert that energy to.

oooh fun! thanks for asking!

glass animals is my most listened to artist, and their songs are all vibes

yo-yo ma makes me cry

catherine russell is a jazz singer and i love most of her songs

earth, wind, & fire is a complicated one, because they have like 5 or 6 songs that are amazing but the rest are meh but i’m including them anyway

eminem is a musical genius i’m so sorry i know i know

Hi, and thank you for asking! 

So of course, I have absolutely no issues with blogs of any pairings reblogging my work. I always appreciate the support and especially so when someone from outside of my works’ pairing likes it regardless of the content. Normally, for most of my work, I would not mind other works in other pairings inspired by them.

However, the Tattoo AU is very special to me. I’ve been developing it for over a year, and all of the tattoos on Steve and Tony have specific stevetony meanings. It is not an AU or pool of work I’m willing to share outside of stony. So while I appreciate that you like my work enough to be inspired by it, I’m keeping my Tattoo AU in the stevetony family and request that you do not use my art for your writing.

Oh my goodness, I know you sent this a week or two ago and I was SO hyped to hear you writing Evanstan, and I finally just got around to checking it out. And imagine my giddiness to find you have completed all six parts! 

I am still in the middle of reading it and already this smut is sending me, I HAVE to recommend it!!!  I am ecstatic that you were inspired by those alpha/alpha posts because this omega/omega fic is a complete treasure.

Heating Up by fandomfluffandfuck

[Complete - 6/6]

Pairing: Chris Evans/Sebastian Stan (Evanstan - RPF)

Rating: Explicit

Tags: A/B/O, Omega Chris Evans, Omega Bucky Barnes, Mating Cycles/In Heat, see others on Ao3

Summary: 

Sebastian's heat comes early on the east coast portion of their American press tour for the new Marvel movie and it's probably one of the best things that's ever happened to him because means he gets to bring the huge meatball that is Chris Evans home with him... even if it isn't in the way he imagined it to be. Who knew such a big guy, whose able to both give orders and yield to them would be anything but a very kind and caring alpha?