#fandomconfessions

Just a little rant that I have to get out. Sometimes, I wish people really understood how much my art and fandoms mean to me. They are my escape, my passion, joy. 

I'm sure a lot of people here can relate to what I'm about to say next.

When someone tells you "Look....I know you love this, but could you please stop talking/doing it in front of me?" 

And it just, hurts. Kind of like a sharp pain, when you realize someone doesn't care about it as much as you do. When you realize not only have you annoyed them, but they just don't care anymore. It makes me want to cry, but doing the brave thing and just keeping it to yourself from then on is the right thing.

Forcing a smile, saying "I understand" and just soldiering on. 

It's hard, it's really hard, but I will try to keep to myself from now on. 

But I don't think these people realize just how much my art, and my fandoms mean to me. 

I love them, they have been there for me when I cry, when I'm sad, in a bad mood, or just lonely.