i dont know i just think if *i* was billy hargrove and my mother straight up abandoned me with our abuser and i was forced to bury all the soft parts of myself just to survive in my own house and had no adult looking out for my well being or show interest in me at all until i hit puberty and got objectively attractive and started receiving sexual attention from grown women and mothers who are supposed to be protectors and not child predators i too would go a little insane. maybe just a smidge.
i think having that message drilled into your head since you were what, 7 years old? 10 at the oldest? that no one is coming to save you and at a certain point you should stop expecting anything good to happen, is going to psychologically damage you.
i think realizing before you even hit high school that you are ultimately alone in this world and have that reinforced over and over again, will do some fucked up shit to the brain.
i think being taught that your only value to anyone is either a punching bag or an object of sexual desire, will make you an unbalanced person.
but thats just my unprofessional opinion idk idk
