i am remembering myself
and in the memory
i am learning myself for the first time
familiarizing myself with the way i really mean to make my choices
unearthing the why of it all
nails dirty from the digging
muscles tired from the labor
it is heavy work
brows so sweaty i shaved them off
didn’t stop the sweat from falling though
no, now the water runs to and from my eyes
it burns a bit
like salt to a wound
it burns but i am learning to work through the pain
like sitting for a tattoo
life carving needle to skin
immortalizing moment to this version of self
planting a flag
driving needle through earth
marking its place
oh the pain of pierced earth made new
soil turned over
primed for regeneration
my hands are dirty from the work
i am guided to the water
to cleanse myself of the toil for a while
i surrender to the water
and it carries me back to home
home i had forgotten
all streams guide me here
ocean
body
the expanse
the constant ebb and flow
washing me anew













