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Falling (Orig. Song: Harry Styles) by JK of BTS

I was a directioner before I became an ARMY. When Harry Styles released this song and I first heard it, I cried. I cry every time I hear this song. Everyone thinks he's talking about his break up from his previous lover. I'm not sure if Harry admitted it, but what he did admit in the Rolling Stones magazine is that he wrote this song naked. Like literally naked while he was writing the song with a piano and with a friend. You could say he was physically and emotionally vulnerable creating this song.

With Jungkook singing it, the song becomes a whole another meaning. In the PTD online concert, he (along with his members) confessed to us that he was losing the fire, the passion and motivation to keep on going, to create music, to performing. All of us Army can see it in their eyes.

Harry Styles said that this song is about loss, it's about falling into a dark place, and being at the lowest point in your life.

When this cover came out, I didn't think any of it. I just got excited to listen to it. After a few replays, it dawns on me that this is a heavy song. This was released on the anniversary of their last live concert they had together with an audience. I couldn't help but keep this at loop and cry every single time JK cries out the chorus

"What am I now? What am I now? What if I'm someone I don't want around I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling

What if I'm down? What if I'm out? What if I'm someone you won't talk about? I'm falling again, I'm falling again, I'm falling"

It aches my heart when he raises his voice to "And I get the feeling that you'll never need me again", and I want to reach out to him and the boys and hug them.

I wish to have the LA concert to come soon, and that they'll have many more performances with live audiences to come. I pray that everything will come back to normal.

I became an ARMY through BTS reactors in Youtube. But it felt weird to go and click on their videos reacting to this cover. It didn't feel right. JK has a reason in releasing this song. The thought that he sang this perhaps from a dark place. It hurts.