her eyes open and close. after hours of playful attention the girl doesn’t get the guy. smoke fills collapsing lungs making them pulse. she leaps into childish hopes and see’s so much more than she’s willing to work for. exhaling separation, exasperation and yet still warmth for an emotion that’s pushing her luck. she’s known for giving too much so she tries to never give at all. the balance is sickening to her. thick head and heavy chest her mind wanders towards ideas of chasing something she wants. it’s so unappetizing to her now after shoving the idea away every time it charges like a ram at her sinking heart. her arms are tired and she is restless. she takes another hit and inhales her feelings. this time exhaling smoke and letting her mind rest. she see’s him and a quickly beating heart returns. she inhales several thoughts not including self control. she is swimming and the shark can smell her anxious thoughts and can see a narrow glimpse of darting eyes. it’s weary and so is she. /\/\
