#fakhri

Fakhri: Habis tu takde orang nak report kat cikgu ke?

Ayam: Eh, kau gila nak jibam

Fakhri: Jibam ni mende pulak sial?

Ayam:

In this post, I’d like to share my thoughts on Naim and Fakhri’s dynamic.

I think one of the most overlooked parts of the story is Fakhri and Naim's emotional arc, like how deeply they missed and needed each other, yet that thread was left completely untouched by the narrative of the series.

Now, I haven't a clue if you guys are into Jungian Philosophy and Tarot card, but I'm here to bring up the cards that represents them both just to explain what I'm seeing better.

This is just the general term and I am not an expert at reading them, but I've had online friends that did this back then, and I've read the information on the Tarot back to back, here and there, bits and pieces, throughout boring years of my life owo, so that makes me a true scholarTM.

For fun, imma use some quotes from Persona 3 on the cards, because it's beautifully descriptive of the symbolism and random tarot card that I like the art with, yeeee.

The bliss makes him vulnerable to the illusions of The Moon. Fears arise, and he follows the dim path in his heart with trepidation...

A Long Shadow Cast

Naim represents The Moon : it's unconscious, full of symbols and hidden desires/truth, reflective, full of contradictions, duality, illusions and fear.

Only with strength can one endure suffering and torment.

Forgiveness Is Divine.

Fakhri Represents The Strength : inner strength, courage, compassion, emotional control and suppression, and the taming of a beast (his anger issues), BUT! - with a facet of the Moon residing within his soul.

They both share the same fear of being judged as weak, and a deep fear of being labeled as 'Pondan' though this is more central to Naim's arc, I’d argue Fakhri experiences it too, albeit more in relation to his father's reputation than his own.

Let's start with Fakhri first (cause he's the mc) :

When Fakhri decided to leave their new home at the age of nine, shards of the Moon were unintentionally left inside him, derelictally simmering. No matter where he turns, the Moon is still there. The constant fights at school, the resentment toward the parts of his father he saw as lembut or pondan, it all reflects back on what he couldn’t face: how much his father reminded him of Naim, and how abandoning Naim fractured something in both of them. Naim, too, is very much like their father - and that’s where their miscommunication begins.

Whether or not we admit it, I personally believe Fakhri harbors a hidden layer of homophobia, or at the very least a deep discomfort with queerness being associated with him. After all, in our society, being labeled that way isn’t exactly something easily accepted. And frankly, we can clearly see he resents that label. Remember what he said to Naim: “Kau nak apa sebenarnya, Kau nak buktikan apa kat semua orang? Yang Kau tu sebenarnya jantan? Diorang mungkin sebenarnya tak tahu Kau ni sebenarnya apa, tapi aku tahu. Kau jangan ingat aku lupa."

Ayam, in all his loud, loving and dramatic glory, is a friend, a brother, and sometimes even a mother to Fakhri, the kind who teaches him things with a side of sarcasm and heart. Speculatively, I see this somewhat as a reflection of the parts of Naim and his father that he remembers dearly.

Despite everything, with his sarcasm, the sharp tongue of wit, the air of the King of Swords, Ayam is where Fakhri finds emotional shelter. He meets the needs Fakhri won’t admit to having. Like a tide pulled by a distant moon, Ayam brings him back to a feeling he’s been aching for, safety, warmth, and something like home.

(Heavy on this moon theme shit people)

Fakhri presents a rather complex emotional contradictions, that is quite sad if you think about it, deep down inside, he craves for attention but not in an overt or performative way but yearning for an emotional presence that feels like home. He's manja at heart, yet he masks it with distance and pride. As the audience, we see this side of him surface only in his interactions with his mother, a figure who quite paradoxically, lacks the gentleness he associated with his father, and perhaps that's what he chases after even without a deeper consciousness of it all.

Idah is also a rather complex character, we do see her being kind and gentle, it's not as if that is completely null to her. She reacts strongly, often disproportionately, to even minor disruptions, always overtaken by emotional outbursts. Even the final episode’s attempt to soften her feels rushed as if patching a broken mirror with tape.

How does one truly search for a place of comfort, when in the end, Fakhri leans toward the person who mirrors him the most, someone just as full of bottled up issues and explosions of anger? Ironically, while seeking familiarity he chooses what’s already fractured.

Fakhri in contrast, resists the kind of gentleness his father embodied. That gentleness, once a source of comfort, now carries a reminder of Naim, the one he left behind. As a result, Fakhri redirects his need for care toward those who align more closely with socially accepted norms of emotional expression, particularly those who fit traditional gender roles. It’s a defense mechanism, allowing him to access comfort without confronting his past. (However unpredictable it is)

In the short term, Fakhri projected his own insecurities about softness, self-identity, and self-hatred onto Naim, who represents the Moon. (Also some parts of Ayam, but you could argue its more or less because Ayam decides to be up on his face about him bullying Naim)

Now it's Naim turn :

The Moon in tarot reflects the desires and expectations of others, always chasing external approval, yet never quite receiving what it truly needs. It embodies a deeply feminine energy: misunderstood, elusive, yet essential to the process of individuation.

Naim desperately longs for love, a real, honest love - and he’s always the one who reaches out first. It’s him who still calls Fakhri Adik. It’s him who tries to play the big brother, gently nagging Fakhri to stay away from Kahar, obeying when told not to tell their mother of Fakhri's enrollment in Kudrat (until Amirr's decides on his thoughts).

He does everything he can to fulfill his role, still hoping it might one day earn him the one thing he's always been denied: the kind of acceptance that doesn’t ask him to seperate himself into pieces, or shifted just to be tolerated. He wants to be loved entirely, which is as he is, not just as how he’s useful to others.

We see what young Fakhri endured, we even catch fragments of his missing years, but Naim’s own childhood struggles remain in the shadows. His pain is subtle, lived out in silence and shaped by the indoctrinated need to please.

He chases love through whatever path he can, even bending himself into whatever shape might earn it, but in the end, he remains a mirror for others fears, disappointment, desires, judgments, and wounds, a patchwork of vessel for everyone else, and never fully his own.

Never an original, only a channel for others light.

This left him struggling with his sense of self. Once again, he finds himself in a paradox, haunted by the reflections of others that he mistaken for his own. He absorbs the experiences and emotions of those around him, constantly mirroring what others feel, yet losing touch with what belongs to him.

Yet beneath it all, he still craves a deeper truth, a structure that makes sense. That’s why he defied Kahar by burning the honey stocks. And that’s why by episode 9, the Moon within him shatters: he realises the beliefs he’s clung to were never truly his, and that he’s been betrayed by the very structure of society. In that moment of absolute rage, it’s not just rebellion he wants anymore, it’s annihilation, even death itself.

Ironically, even as Naim rages at Fakhri for stealing everything, ie the spotlight, the Kapla title, their mother’s love, their father’s attention, he never realises how deeply he exists within Fakhri. That same emotional confusion, that same sense of being lost and directionless, runs through them both.

With Mia, Naim doesn't just feel free, he experiences a different companionship, a rare kind of understanding that was born from a mere meeting behind the cafeteria. Mia immediately sees him for what he is : uncertain, tired and constant searching.

Mia herself isn't free from structure, but she had her own dream path carved into a direction that was hers alone, even if fears hold her back a bit. They are painfully similar to each other. She’s the eldest too, the one who was supposed to know better, carry more, complain less. The one left behind when attention shifted to the younger sibling.

Amirr is kind, warm even, but his gaze of Naim still holds a certain shape. He sees Naim as he wishes he could be : be stronger, be better, be good. Naim, the one whom had always bending to fit others, feels it. Even love can feel like pressure when it comes wrapped in unspoken ideals.

But this is also where Naim is wrong about Amirr. Amirr does love him, fully, in silence, and without condition. The Temperance card, which represents Amirr, reveals this clearly: a symbol of balance, patience, and emotional harmony.

They both entered on each others lives without guidance and there was their bond struck. But in Naim's most depressed state, he lets his anger take over and turned it outward to Amirr even though anyone who crossed his path at that point would have received the brunt of his lashing words.

Amirr in the end, became the brother Naim truly needed, not the others who only burdened him. At least he came to that realization by the final episode. But when it comes to Fakhri and Naim, we're left to wonder what resolution, if any, they ever reached other than the immediate assumptions it was all good cause they nodded at each other 😂.

(My art on the symbolism of their dynamics, Naim doesn't look like Naim at all 😂😂😂🙏😢 super sorry)

It’s a paradox of push and pull between the Ismet Brothers, denial and desire, strength and vulnerability tangled together like moonlight and shadow.

Is this just another post for me to rant about how much they didn't explore the potential drama of Ismet Brothers other than Fakhri angry at Naim, and Naim is bitter at Fakhri and they somehow made it without any deep talking heart to heart scene?

Oh yeeaa

Hope you like my analysis

These two pics really suggest to me that there was originally meant to be a final scene where they have a heart to heart talk, but it was likely cut during the final editing process, which tbh is sad because that would have had a bigger impact than the rushed final episode (PHC deserves 2 or 3 more episodes after 10 honestly)

(This post seriously took me 2 weeks to think of, so sorry for the yapping)

Do the KUDRAT guys get jealous?

Warnings: None, SFW

A/N: did i promise a fic? Maaaybe but look over here, ANOTHER IMAGINE *runs away*

REZA 💙

- he doesnt really get jealous. Hes quite secure of his position in your life.

the way kahar kneeled down in defeat… stared at fakhri… fakhri staring down at kahar.. bro it looks like fakhri about shove his peanits down kahars throat and kahar was just about to accept it,,,

alamak... soalan azimat dah sampai. 😭 i'm just gonna mix all the characters into one post. i apologise if it didn't meet your expectations hahaha!

kahar/fakhri: used to be a bit skeptical about fakhri/kahar but now i've grown to like their dynamics... like please view this pairing with an open heart. so my hc for them is whatever kahar was doing to fakhri during his reign as kapla was all just a projection of whatever megat did to him masa dia form 4. since he probably has horrible coping mechanisms due to lack of sources in kudrat, thats one way to keep him sane la. (lagi insane dibuatnya adala!!) of course la there will be bodily explorations here and there cuz where else right they gain experience on that other than brawling and smoking and getting high altogether? but theres no romantic motives behind it since theres no room for that between those two. but they just get each other, faham tak? cuz both are helpless bongsus. the post-credit scene just solidifies this since they're all buddy buddy now. but that's just it. sometimes kahar would come to the ismets house to buka puasa together. and kahar became a regular there, thus becoming a family friend. like aku ada utk ko, ko ada utk aku typa beat. but time sekolah dulu they fuck like rabbits la ofc, trying this and that sampai hakeem pun cam "yela.... aku ni sape je kan kat ko...." *cue muka hakeem mintak penyepak* "ko kapel dgn aku tapi ko tak nak try kongkek aku pon?!" like sabar dow, keem. sifu tgh belajar dgn fakhri lu.

kahar/hakeem: making a leeway from the first hc, sebenarnya kahar takmau rosakkan hakeem in that way. cuz their love is so pure to kahar. dia nak approach that side dengan hakeem with utmost care. dia dah sakitkan hakeem before this and he wouldn't dare to do that to lil keem keem no more. kahar mcm nak "master" hal2 bawah selimut dulu baru dia ajar hakeem benda bukan2 yang kita dok baca selalu tu. AND!! they're private, but not a secret. dekat sini la is where he gets all sticky ooey gooey (thanks bungakekwa for ur service). hakeem la satu satunya tempat dia mengadu, tempat dia be so vulnerable, hakeem je tau everything about him inside and out. as you can see from the movies kan? his gaze would soften everytime hakeem comes to intervene. only soft touches and gazes. you can only see kahar's genuine smile whenever he's around hakeem. i meannnn who wouldn't fall for hakeem's million dollar smile? i have a soft spot dekat alang, i wanna yap more about him cuz hes just sofdhskdhsjsbs nothing can tear them apart. nada. hakeem je that could only see this side of kahar, the manja kahar. hakeem is the place where he gives and receives love. everyone around kahar would tell him otherwise about hakeem, yet ONLY hakeem je yang nak kahar grow into the best version of himself. grow Healthily ya. but of course no one sees that. siapa je nak fikir pasal kapla interim kita? only kahar and hakeem would know what lies in their heads and hearts. although we always see kahar and hakeem glued together 24/7, they're so so so private. all those promises they made during high school would still be pinned in their minds, because they're that inseparable. they're each other's beacons. sampai pernah berangan nak lari gi thailand sbb nak kawin la katenye. klate kan dekat dgn thailand. in my head, they still keep in contact with each other after they graduated high school. both would sacrifice money and time just to see each other every two months since time tu takde social media sangat. check in laaaa pe lagi en. hehe. bachok 8 jam lagi jauh tau dari nismilan! beja dgn abu yamin tau je depa ada udang disebalik mee, tu yang depa dua gigih nak tear them apart. sebab beja dah kena sepak dgn ayoh dulu sbb kantoi couple dgn megat. tu yang abu yamin selalu berbulu je dengan all anak2 abu yamin punya "best friend". makes you think, kan? macam abu yamin pun ada history yang sama pulak.... hehe kita tunggu movie kudrat '68 ye. but ahhhhh these two shaylas could give me diabetes just thinking about them!!! let me know if you wanna hear more about my thoughts on kahar/hakeem hehe

reza/megat: this one...... ohoho.... soooo many layers ye. this one i'm still collecting my thoughts on since it's quite a fresh pairing. tapi alaaa dia lebih kurang macam kahar/hakeem jugak masa sekolah, but if it was fucked up. no happy endings with these boys at all. megat walaupun he still sees beja after graduating as a friend, can lepak for a smoke and makan2 here and there, but he will never, i mean never, go back to his old ways with beja no more. of course the yearning and longing is still there between those two, since kahar keeps being the glue of the brotherly figures, but some things are not meant to be the same anymore. it's almost as if megat is scared that his lil tissue heart gets broken by beja again. kahar ada la kenen2kan both of them again, whenever beja and megat would meet mesti beja bawak kahar sekali "to keep himself grounded", but these stupid boys have soooo many unresolved tensions that needed to be forced out of them to keep their heads quiet whenever they meet eyes. PLEASE GO TO THERAPY, BOTH OF YOU!!!! beja sometimes would envy kahar's relationships with people around him, his brother's everlasting love with hakeem, his brotherhood he had with megat when they plotted beja's internal death and even his father wouldn't keep his mouth shut about little baby bechik, despite his horrible words he said about the runt of the litter katanya. how does kahar keep people so close to him despite his prominent weakness? haaaa. beja just couldn't keep people close in his life la since yang narcisstic tu dia! bukan megat, bukan kahar, bukan ayoh dia, but abdul reza! but i digress. everything in reza's life is a ticking timebomb, even himself, waiting for some type of destruction. the loss of his relationship with megat was one of his biggest destructions. speaking of beja and megat, sir razaisyam also had awesome headcanons during the alpha47 garage sale about these two that still keeps me up at night. like, why are you keeping the fact that megat lovessssssssssss reza deeply to yourself?! we need more exposure about these two!! tolongla.

Thanks for the rec :))