#fading away

♡ Fading away

And well you might say

I'm losing focus

You never slammed a door No final words, no clean goodbye just a slow fading like a song losing signal in the middle of the chorus

At first, I didn't notice

You still said my name still sat beside me still breathed the same air but something in you had already packed its bags

Your laughter got quieter like it was happening in another room I wasn't allowed to enter

Your eyes they stopped landing on me They passed right through like I was already a memory you were trying not to remember

And I stayed

god, I stayed

Trying to hold conversations with someone who was learning how to vanish without moving an inch

You perfected it the art of disappearing while still taking up space

Still in my bed but miles away Still in my arms but never really held Still saying "I love you" like it was muscle memory not meaning

I think that's what hurt the most not losing you but watching you leave in slow motion while I was forced to pretend you hadn't gone yet

Now you're really gone and somehow it feels the same

Because the truth is I lost you long before you ever walked away