This is all about Jimin disassociating at the bathroom
There is a lot of theory about Jimin's song Like Crazy is about his gender journey and self acceptance, we already knew that. However there is one particular scene that reminded me Jhope EGO and it leads me to the bathroom, a very sensitive topic to the trans community.
Here Jhope looks himself at the mirror, turns his back, moves his closet way and behind it there is this very clear, broad, plain hallway. The mirror part represents the way he views himself and his gender identity while the corridor is acknowledgement of his shadow to access his self and ego (the final destination of Map of Soul).
Unlikely Jhope, Jimin's corridor is being filled with dirty, later is just narrow, another time there is people blocking his way to his self.
This is a very good visual representation on how hard it to queer and especially genderqueer people come in term with themselves because of internalized trans/homophobia (the dirty), or epistemic injustices, or/mainly because other people actions upon oneself or the community as a whole.
While Jhope's corridor had no other visible place to go, Jimin's corridor has a genderless bathroom sign and two doors (two bathrooms?), as a middle point in his own shadow. It might be implied that the bathroom represents his anima/animus, also his gender identity is emerged into his shadow, the part of himself his persona doesn't show.
The party and the alcohol are ways Jimin creates to numb his mind, his shadow. As the club is a public space, he is also using his own public persona as a way to scape from the deepest parts of his inner self. However it doesn't matter what he tries, he will end up finding her, his female part. When they start to look for each other, Jimin body is scanned - euphoria/dysphoria in art form - as they look at each other like a mirror.
The bathroom
Public bathrooms are designed to control people's bodies. Those places has a very efficient gender technology in their architecture that makes everyone revisit their own gender as binary all the time. So public bathrooms are latently violent to gender nonconforming people and all kinds of transgender people to stay in.
The bathroom still violent place to Jimin as well, as he left it implied when he sings that his reflection is letting he "endlessly crazy". To safely be in a public bathroom you must pass and it's fairly easy to notice by his works how Jimin once tried hard to conform.
No wonder is the public bathroom where he disassociates from his reality: this is where all the self and socially imposed pressure related to gender probably will culminate.
Dream
Usually dreams are used as a escapism metaphor and in this song might not be that different. However the fact of one of the lasts verses says "I need a way we can dream of" dreaming sifts its meaning to believing in some (extra) personal change. The dialogue in the music' begging is about dreaming of changing while negotiating with the fear. Like crazy was always a great bargain.
This change eventually happens in the mv, the bathroom reassembles as Jimin is not in there. This is part of his self acceptance, personal changing and growing process, but it doesn't go without consequences.
As he returns to that room (his ego?) the dirty is not all over the floor anymore, but in himself. "Alone again. What's the point?" This time Jimin is conscious of his gender identity but that one question remains. As I also see Face as the five stages of grief, the next stage is depression or "Alone".
























