#exza rants

My family have been driving my misophonia crazy with the bass on the TV and tell me to just ignore it which is impossible.

Until I can afford the deposit on my own place I need a solution because I can't sleep more than just my insomnia and its having a Domino affect on everything else in my life.

- writing

- art

-house design

- youtube videos

- tattoo design

That frigging weird bear game app ad thing makes noise for a second when you scroll past, and I have my headphones turned up really loud and its like the dead of night here (2am)

I'm scrolling, and in the silence, for a second, I hear EUHUUEHUUUUUUH

Well, they warn you about the guys/girls being creeps, having to serve people who are very weird toward you.

They warn you about the hours and the travel especially in the evening/night shifts.

But they don't warn you about one of the worst parts of the job. Regulars dying.

These are people you'll see all the time, multiple days a week, you learn their orders, meet their families, sometimes their families are regulars.

So anyone who's just started at bar work, while I insist you don't let it put you off, heres a warning for one of the most heartbreaking parts of working behind a bar.

Its basically just things coming at me through a screen? I mean, coming at me in general yeah, and I have a fear of people looking at me or watching me thats linked to my anxiety, but I cannot find a name for this fear? I dont even know if its real?

It can be anything, just something making its way toward the viewer - typically looking at the camera - fast, slow, it doesnt matter, it just really unsettles me and makes me feel really scared?

I get peoples issues with the tags, but at the same time, some of us have fics with a LOT of angst and warnings. The tag system is in place for people to know if its a fic they want/can read. Adding a tag limit only ruins that.

Plus there's people that are complaining about people adding too many tags to amount hits... OK, well, so what? I mean 9/10 I wont click on a fic if it has the bare minimum tags because I simply don't know what the stories about. Also 9/10 people will only tag things that are actually in the story? If you don't like the big wall of tags then you don't exactly have to read the story, dont just then complain that that persons trying to gain more views.

As someone who tags whatever I think is needed to be tagged in the story - including what others have told me to tag - i know for a fact that I dont get any extra views, and sometimes less views than other stories that have like just the 2 main characters tagged and nothing else.

Tagging extra stuff doesn't get you more views.