#external reality

I have a client that I've read for a few years. Recently, they brought something to my attention that I find very interesting. They stated that the people who have come up in their reading were not something of this real world but more of their thoughts, hopes, and fears.

This is something that I've often wondered about when I got my first few readings. Can a reader pick up subconscious thoughts? Afer all our thoughts and words have power so if we believed in something so strongly could we not bring it to pass in a reading? After all, in a Celtic Cross, there is a position for hopes and fears.  When I do a reading I don't have this position in my spread. It is more about what the client needs to know. So this really doesn't give me the answer I'm seeking. 

However, if I look further at the fact that my client was seeking confirmation for the same questions over and over in their life, I'm am taken to something I was told early on. If you repeatedly ask the same question over and over the cards will then decided to play with you. They will tell you what you want to hear. That works if they were asking me a question, however, they weren't. 

If I step back further though and look at the client's situation and what the readings were saying, it shows that their internal reality was becoming their external reality on some level. Even though it wasn't physically present it had become a present idea in the mind. The reading was breaking down to internal versus external which is really an interesting concept. It just doesn't offer me the answer I'm seeking. 

Maybe the answer lies that when I sit down to do a reading even though I'm present there is part of me that has stepped into the other party's energy.  Being an empath and stepping into others energy can be an interesting trip at times and one that can be quite draining.

I know this for a fact, about six years ago now a client decided to have a house party and hired me to do readings fro her and her friends. It was a great night the readings were fun and everything went smoothly. The hostess decided she was going to be the last of the evening. She was an older lady and seemed to be in good health. It was ten when I started reading her that night. I was still full of energy when she first sat down but shortly became drained. As I read her cards she became upset because they were talking about her grown kids and not the new relationship in her life. She didn't care about her kids, she wanted to know about the guy. As I said in the prior paragraph the cards tell you what they think you need to know. I told her that maybe it was because it was late and I was tired so I offered to come back and do another for her. She was okay with that. I packed up my stuff and got in my car. As soon as I was in the car I was reenergized. I didn't think much of it.  A few months later I found out she came down with pneumonia a week later and was hospitalized and passed. When I found this out things clicked about the energy drain and the reason her kids came up. 

How Mind Perceive Reality?

You perceive the external and internal reality with the mind. The body and its senses are an instrument for the mind to experience life. The mind is separate from the brain, heart and body and that can be realized with the inward attention.

With the inward attention, you can move deeper into the space of the mind, whereby, you can realize the separation between the mind and the body. The…

"Seek and do not find." This is what A Course in Miracles describes as the ego's main edict. Let's explore this. 

The ego doesn’t want you to be happy. It literally lives and feeds off your fear and suffering. True, unalterable peace is an attribute of awakening from belief in the ego, which is exactly what the ego fights against with every weapon it can. The ego is so cunning, it actually disguises many things as loving choices or actions. It doesn't want you to catch on to what it's doing so it will create these grandiose dreams and ideas for you to realize. The problem with this is that these dream situations require a level of intense attachment and delusional perception. People become so obsessed with specific things unfolding that they completely lose sight of other areas in life. They model their whole moral philosophies around the attainment of said dream and justify wrong minded actions with these unbalanced philosophies. These dreams are so grandiose that most people live their whole lives trying to fulfill some insane ideology because of their extreme discontent with their inner world. The mind will create dream after dream, always wanting more in order to distract you from what you're missing out on from the internal experience. From the exterior perspective, many of these dreams will appear to be loving, such as having financial success, buying a house or even things like getting married and having children. I'm not saying there is anything inherently wrong with any of this, what I am getting it is that when these dreams are realized in order to fulfill some sort of void of happiness, joy or peace you feel within yourself, then there is an egoic sense of attachment based on mis-identification. Seeking outside yourself for any sort of soul gratification is a result of not remembering your Divine Identity, by not realizing the infinite well of Love that is always within you. Seeking outside yourself for fulfillment is perpetuating the belief in duality. When you make choices based on the concept of duality they all eventually lead to some kind of pain, guilt, or suffering. If you are not feeling joyous in every second, then it has something to do with the way you are perceiving the world and not the lack of any external circumstance.

The ego doesn’t want you to remember wholeness and be healed. So it sets up a multitude of traps and the more aware you become, the more subtle the traps become. So the ego plays this game where it tells you that you can be happy, fulfilled, complete, whatever, if *insert random external event* happens. Everything is always based on some sort of future happiness or love, as if those things weren’t available to us right now. We’re always looking for things out there there to happen. It sounds too cliche but happiness really is found on the inside. When you really know and experience that you are Divine, when you allow yourself to open up to that eternal love, joy blooms in you as the thousand petaled lotus. The scent of that blossom is accessible at all times. Yet we are brought up being brainwashed to go, go, go. Get, get, get. Seek, seek, seek. More, more, more. It never gets you anywhere. The only true fulfillment is realization of Holiness.

So stop thinking that this person, that job, that place, whatever it may be is going to fill the void that you perceive in life. We all feel lack at times. And it is only ever boiled down to a lack of love. But love, is here, now, always. Open your heart to it. It’s literally waiting for you to turn to it in any, every, moment. Feel the rush! You are not the ego haha and the only power it has is the power your belief in it gives it. Know that you are whole and loved in every moment, and the world will become a healing, happy place for you. Accept your Truth and all fear will be transformed to a bliss so sweet, you won't know whether to cry or laugh or dance. When you feel Unity, loneliness becomes laughable. When you feel God, love becomes your only reality. All else falls into place naturally from the surrender to this remembering. The need for control, planning, security, all this becomes meaningless when you realize that you are always being cared for by a power greater than our wildest imaginations. Allow your Self to feel alive in the love that's constantly extended from our Source.