#exploding and dying

you could argue he did this with etho in double life, but etho wasn’t loyal and wasn’t exactly enthused about being his soulmate, which understandably made their relationship a bit more rocky, at least at first. and then etho consistently went to go with bdubs for things, leaving joel alone. it’s not a value judgement on anyone, just an assessment of the situation.

with gem, he shared everything, he never questioned her loyalty, he never even considered betraying her trust. he put his effort into helping not himself as an individual but his team as a unit. it was never about joel it was about the family. he tells gem everything, is vulnerable with her in a way that lets them both rely on each other. the last session he comes up to her first thing and confesses how scared he is and gem sympathizes by expressing her own worries and then reassures him by saying it’s them against the world. she implicitly says she will always be beside him.

and gem’s role in joel’s win/arc cannot be overstated. she is the one that speaks joel’s tiny hope of winning into reality. he doesn’t bring it up until she says, enthusiastically, that he could win this. they make plans for if it comes down to them. they want it to be them. gem getting taken out by the vex was a variable they couldn’t have predicted (hence the name wild life), and though they had been able to avoid deaths from wild cards until now, it was only a matter of time, really it was just unfortunate. they both did amazingly well, and gem’s loss was clearly felt after. he technically had grian, but it was really just barely an alliance. gem was his ride or die, so when she died, he knew he had to win.

george matty shoe video <3

UT - Rus, Sans

UF - Edge, Red

US - Stretch, Blue

SFR - Pup, Cherry (<needs renamed)

SF Metal - Copper, Gold

FS Glass - Ghost, Haze

VF - Void, Perp

HT - Dove, Patch

HF - Dusk, Eclipse

HS - Rust, Coal

MT - Hawk, Sparrow (AR)

MF - Boss, Snare

MS - Luck, Cue

MSF - Lavender, (nickname tbd)

MLovefell - Rosewood, Hemlock

LF - Lace, Cire

LS - Honey, Cerulean

OT - Pictoris, Ara

OF - Antares, Boötes

OS - Aurigae, (nickname tbd)

Demonfell - Elester, Raviel

Demonfell Angels (tale bro variants)

Demonfell "mortals" (swap bro variants)

Demonfell Hunters (sf bro variants)

Glitchedswap - Uno, Sky

Glitchfell - Dos

Neonfell - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Neonswap - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Invertedfell - Ice, Pin

Invertedswap - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Sweetswap - Clover, Berry

Undersell - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Orangefell - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Fairytale - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Hallowtale - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Miserytale -(nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Miseryfell - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Textureverse - Tale Papyrus, Tale Sans, Fell Papyrus, Fell Sans, Swap Papyrus, Swap Sans (nicknames tbd)

Off brands - Calcine (Tale Papyrus), Castor (Fell Papyrus), Anthias (Swap Papyrus), nickname tbd (Swap Sans)

Teatale/fell/swap - Tale Papyrus, Tale Sans, Fell Papyrus, Fell Sans, Swap Papyrus, Swap Sans (nicknames tbd)

Mer aus - Tale Papyrus, Tale Sans, Fell Papyrus, Fell Sans, Swap Papyrus, Swap Sans, vesselfell Papyrus (nicknames tbd)

Fae/forest entities - Tale Papyrus, Tale Sans, Fell Papyrus, Fell Sans, Swap Papyrus, Swap Sans (nicknames tbd)

Blaster shifters - Tale Papyrus, Tale Sans, Fell Papyrus, Fell Sans, Swap Papyrus, Swap Sans (nicknames tbd)

Genretale - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Phantasmfell - (nickname tbd), (nickname tbd)

Disconnected from aus, or from fic ideas

Stargazer (ot sans variant)

Comic Papyri - Comet (UT), Star (US), Solar(UF), Nova (SF)

Ties that bind - UF variant Papyrus, Sans

Everything stays - UT variant Papyrus, Sans

Caretaker of the ruins - UT variant Papyrus

My Mother's Eyes - UF variant Papyrus

Assorted uf Papyri variants from random ideas - Spice (experiment au), Shade (different experiment au), nickname tbd (demon variant au), nickname tbd (failed surface au), Crimson (talefell), Albatross

Gasters - UT, UF, US, Wingdings (tale variant), nickname tbd (runaway fell variant)

CD - corrupted swap Papyrus

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