#explaining myself

I posted about hyper-empathy the other day and I got some comments regarding the post that sounded like they didn’t like it much because they have the opposite (low/no empathy).

I got some reblogs that sounded very negative and angry that I didn’t mention anything about low/no empathy.

I did not mean to offend anyone no has low/no empathy, I’m just a really empathetic person and I wanted to post it because I related to it.

I understand that people have low to no empathy, and I didn’t mean to disrespect, or made angry and upset.

Both apathetic and empathetic autistic people exist. And for those who have no to listen empathy towards others, you are not a bad person, you just have difficulty understanding feelings and sharing those feels with others.

I never meant to offend or hurt anyone’s feelings. I just wanted to share a post a related to. I deleted it, since some got upset and angry that I didn’t mention anything about having no empathy.

I said It was good... Because it's over.

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I have given up on the plot making actual sense ever and I knew the ending would be scuffed because the story was cut short. There was meant to be more to season 1 of Dreamsmp but because of stuff they had to end it early, which usually ends with a bad ending.

So I was just so happy they gave it an ending because I think they couldn't do anything else with the plot.

Will say, I wished they did something different with the story, especially with Dream and Punz. We knew them as the villians, and yet the "plot twist" was that they were okay??? That they wanted to be good?? So that makes it okay for them to kill people over and over??? That makes no sense to me. Anyways. I'm not here to tell them what they should of done better, I'm here to explain myself.

The ending could of had a better ending, but I think it's good because they found a way to make a clean slate so we can make a new story that's better put together maybe. Probably have a better ending then season one.

-_-_-

Will say though, favorite thing about this ending is with c!Jack. I think C!Jack became my second favorite Dreamsmp character because of this ending. He was in character til the end and he was the only one that actually grew.

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Hey guys, I know I haven't been around much and a lot of you probably hardly recognize me whenever my posts pop up on your dashes, but I kinda wanted to explain myself. This writeblr isn't abandoned, and at some point I'm going to be back, reblogging cool stuff from y'all and jotting down my own thoughts about writing and posting random things about whatever WIPs I'll be working on most actively at that point.

It's just that I'm going through a rough patch now in terms of mental health and I'm kinda... withdrawing from peopling? I'd show up and chat to someone when I feel stable-ish, and then I'd neglect showing up for days and weeks, and then I see I have some new message and I'm afraid to open it because doing so might lead to having to explain why I disappeared. Which is because I'm really depressed and really anxious all the time, and I constantly feel like a total waste of space without an ounce of energy for anything other than crying over how something terrible is surely about to happen.

So. Um. If I haven't answered a message from you or haven't reacted to you tagging me somewhere, see above. It's not you, it's me, and I'm really sorry. I don't mean to make you feel ignored or upset you, I'm just. Not really okay tbh.

I'm getting some medical help right now, and I'm hoping that the meds I've begun to take are going to help soon. I'll be back then to post randomly and catch up on all your awesome wips. Meanwhile, I'm an occasional silent lurker at most, but I do hope it's not for long.

Yesterday, I spent my time in the library with some friends. Each of them explained what they identified as. One demisexual and another, bi. Then, they turned to me and asked what I identify as. I told them what I always knew I was. "Straight. Just an ally."

Because I really don't feel any kind of attraction to fellow women and have only ever been attracted to men. I also stay true to my biological pronouns: She/Her. (Although my country doesn't really use pronouns with our native tongue.)

But then, they deadpanned, "Nobody's straight at 2k19." ..... Sooo I rethought about it... Earlier that same day, when I tried explaining myself to some classmates (since we're a very supportive Catholic private school anyway), one of them suggested that based on my description, maybe I'm an "androgynous." I didn't know what that was, but that's what I answered to my library friends and they understood immediately.

I only found out what androgynous means after researching and now, I'm here to confirm that: Yes. I am Androgynous. At least not completely 50/50 percent masculine or feminine. Though I'm still figuring myself out.

But I really DO like the idea of dressing up as both a girl and sometimes... a boy. Or either and neither! At some fancy occasions, I remember looking longingly at males and silently wishing to wear a tux myself without being discriminated for it and at some days, I feel wonderful wearing a frilly dress with satin ribbons and flower prints. Both make me feel happy and valid and... I like that.

I hope that clarifies Me and I hope I didn't offend anyone with this. I just wrote this so I could explain myself to some friends.

I don't know what to call this. Awakening? Out of the closet? Ehhh... It doesn't feel that grand, but at the same time, it feels like a weight is off my shoulders explaining this.

It may seem too fast to you guys, but not for me. I've been feeling this way for a very long time now and I've been troubled for so long. I only just found the name for it recently, but I have never resonated to anything more.

So, with love-of-every-flavor,

-Bubbly, ROLL OUT!

I just don't like the guy. Now I can admit that he can sing and has a good voice, but I just don't like him. This is why I'm conflicted about listening to his mini album. I've listened to it once when I was at work, because there was no new kpop songs to listen to and I liked it. I'm mad at myself for liking it, because I don't want to like it. Cause I don't like him.