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Still in shock...sadness, numb...I can't even shed tears because I still can't wrap my head around at what is happening...darkness

you not only gave us the world...but you gave us a galaxy. you gave me a galaxy when i only needed a star..thank you for the beautiful memories....i hope that you will find your happiness.

in light of what has been going on...i am still trying to accept it, or perhap process it. every morning i wake up, hoping and thinking that it was probably just a dream; only to face reality once again. i am of course affected by it, perhaps it hasn't really hit me yet because i refuse to accept this fact. i am in denial. i know that once it hits me....i will cry myself a river....an ocean. perhaps a galaxy.

in terms of the whole point of view thing. you can blame him all you want, but can also say that others are being unfair for stating what they felt... honestly, i can understand both sides because i know what it's like to lose someone you trusted, but i also understand why he did what he did. if it was indeed his health, isn't what is more important? did he not say that he is an introvert...at least from what i see. but to those who are not introverts will never understand us. we live in a world full of extroverts who view us differently...we stress easily and we need our own space, our alone time to recover. introverts who are always on the go, always around so many people without giving us our alone time....we will eventually crack and breakdown, so a point where we can no longer handle the situation. we are easily overwhelmed and need our alone time to recharge. so of course i see why he perhaps, couldn't handle it anymore. it's also not about know what he signed up for...but about human rights and being treated as humans and not some working robot. he his human, not a robot. no human being can go that long with little rest because eventually it catches up to them and their health will start to eventually decline, if not now than later down the road. i feel for him i really do. when i believe in something. i fight for it. i'll fight for him and anyone else. 

as much as it does break my heart to see the people i love making such a difficult choice to leave. i will have to respect and support his decision because their happiness and health means  so much more than having them around for my enjoyment and entertainment.

And to my sweet zitao, I totally see where he is coming from. can you imagine having the person you trusted, loved, cared for leave you and walk away without even a word of reason as to why...it feels like being abandoned by the person you cared so much about.

I know this feeling, the feeling be betrayed by the person you least expected...my fest friend..the one person who was always there for me, the person who i felt most myself with, only to suddenly disappear without a word. to walk out of your life without an explanation. then one day he comes back, you trust and believe that it wont happen again only to fall right back into betrayal. you start to go through phases. anger, sadness, acceptance, forgiveness and eventually you will start to miss them. 

so believe me when i say i understand him. what he supposedly "wrote" i understand that feeling all to well. i felt anger and betrayal when my best friend walked out of my life without any explanation...except the words "i got back with my ex.i think it's best we don't talk" (because he had to choose) i felt so angry at him and so hurt that all i could do was write hurtful things about him, it was the only way i knew how to express my anger and disappointment. after that, i felt sadness, depressed almost. i would sing my heart out, sit alone in the dark, always wanting to be alone to think.....i cried a lot yet because i was angry, and sad. but after accepting it, i realized that it was probably because he a reason to leave...and perhaps it was because he did what he thought, and felt was what he needed to do...it was then that i forgave him..i started to realize that in order for him to be happy, i had to accept that perhaps....a boy and girl best friend could never be friends without the third party in doubt...yes i miss him. i understand now.

so believe me when i say i understand both sides. it breaks my heart knowing that this is what is happening. i can't even begin to comprehend or imagine what both are going through because it is a little different than what i went through, but i can understand the feeling. to say one is selfish, and the other is unreasonable for not understanding.....put yourself in their shoes...unless you have walked a mile in their shoes...no one is right or wrong. picking sides isn't what we should all be doing...instead, give them support. no one is alone in this...let them know that. 

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