#except complain

And now he’s got this crush on a woman from the last play he was in, and he knows that she likes someone else and she doesn’t like him, and also that he shouldn’t be liking anyone else because he has his girlfriend already. But he can’t help what he’s feeling though it’s my personal opinion that he shouldn’t be encouraging situations where those feelings can flourish. Except he’s coming to me to talk about it and sort of be a safe space where he can work through his feelings without feeling attacked or judged, so he’s not getting defensive or anything.

But now I just am in such a shitty position because I can’t help liking him, and every time he talks about this other girl it’s just like a punch to the gut. Partly because I feel like it was bad enough that he had his gf and was perfectly happy with her, but now he’s just proving that even if he did ever end up with me (haha fat chance) that I wouldn’t be able to trust him not to get tired of me and move on to someone else anyway. Which he already did two years ago. And partly...it feels like a second reminder that even when he can’t help being attracted to someone who’s not his gf...it’s still not me.