#evettposting

when things are bad and i feel really bad, i like to pretend he would like me and make me feel better. i know he probably wouldn’t want to. no one could ever want me as much as i want this. as much as i need this. it’s pathetic how lonely i am without a glorified imaginary friend. obviously i’m unstable and awful to be around, that’s what everyone else in my life thinks, but i like to pretend he’d feel differently. even though hes not mine so it’s not my place to pretend that. maybe i feel so weird and embarrassed about it because i know deep down he’d feel the same as everyone else and would want nothing to do with me. i’m so fucking selfish

so hard thinking about cutting myself and accidentally getting blood on my evett plush….. i’d have to use peroxide to clean him up…. this is horrible i’m so weird about him……

would you guys hate me if i posted more cringe ass self insert shit….. im thinking about him again

okay goodnight guys i’m gonna go sleep with my plush of him and either jerk off or cry (or both) see you guys in the morning

i would think about it (and jerk off about it) all the time if that could ever happen… been thinking about “this is what it would feel like” for weeks now…. you guys don’t have context but you don’t need it really

“fiction doesn’t affect reality until fiction isn’t enough” i just wanna smoke weed with my friend okay is that too much to ask :(

thinking about him <333