#everythingididntsay

Saw @official_ellahenderson last night for the first time live and she was amazing I can’t wait to see her on tour in October 🎶🎤🎶 if ya haven’t heard the new album you seriously need to have listen to it, it’s a masterpiece #everythingididntsay #livemusic #pryzmkingston (at PRYZM Kingston) https://www.instagram.com/p/CbLhmYiLo3P/?utm_medium=tumblr

It was great to see @official_ellahenderson today at @hmvwestfieldlondon I can’t wait to hear the live set later tonight at @pryzmkingston such an amazing album #EverythingIDidntSay 🎶🎶 https://www.instagram.com/p/CbITbKLN-8r/?utm_medium=tumblr

#everythingididntsay

I can’t handle how you always play hot and cold games with me. One minute you talk to me like I’m the most interesting person on the planet then not even a second later I don’t even exist. I hate to say it but I love your attention and wish that it was mine keep. I wish that you could be mine and that I could call you when I’m feeling lonely or when I just want someone to cuddle with. All I want is you and I want you to see that.  Why can’t you see that??

I  never thought that I’d ever be writing about you at 12:22 am but here I am alone in my room with thoughts that only involve you. I want you to know all these feelings that I have for you as I hope you feel the same way but the both of us know that none of the feelings are returned. I’ve fallen in so deep that even just the smallest things remind me of you,The color green, mountains, a nice sunny day, the flowers in my moms garden, etc. I have so many things things I want to say to you and hopefully I will soon but for now I’ll pour my heart out here.

Here is everything I didn't say. Why does it hurt to love someone who can't even love you back because that person got someone to love on. Why does it hurt to let you feel happy for someone i know you doesn't deserve. All my life I've been giving things you both can do to make it longer but all my life I've been also searching for my self inside your heart. But like a forest i never seem to get any further seeing the same tree planted in your heart. Those trees pulling over your wholeness just for it to grow, i know you knew it yet you still got it all these times and you said it is fine as long as you're making it grow. When will you realize that I've been here all my life just for you. When will you realize that it is too much already for you. When will you realize you're hurting yourself over someone who doesn't deserve you. I am here. I am here loving you in everything you have. I am here loving you on everywhere you decide to go. I am here loving you in your most unlovable days. I am here loving you when everything's got worst between you and him. I am here loving the way it should be. I am here loving you, back in those days i am trying to ship you and him until now that you're clinging over a root of a tree over a cliff yet you still say it is a root that connects you and him but really it is a root killing you. I am here loving you even if it hurts. I am here loving you yet you still chose him.