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Chihiro Sensei

I was doing fine from the start of diet (05.03.2018), started with 1000kcal for a month and now I’m increasing it 100kcal per week. But since I started increasing I started feeling more hungry than before. So I made one day fast. That day I was going back home and it wasn’t training day so it was fine. I was doing fine. I hoped that fast will help me with impulsive eating. But not for long :/

I’m a little disappointed. And I can;t get rid of food in my stomach for 3 days now...

Maybe it’s caused by stress...

My dog has had a hard time on Wednesday... It was a miracle that she didn’t passed out... Now she has to take madicine for liver and heart... well... she is 12yo now so it’s normal, she isn’t young puppy anymore but still... my mum is freaking out a bit and dad doesn’t help. He wanted to stop giving our dog medicine so she won’t be addicted to pills... He thinks he knows better than vet... But hopefully he and mum went to the vet today for a check up and he agreeded for medicine.

I don’t want to desperately make her life longer. I just want to take care of her as long as I can, withuot making her suffer.

So I don’t know if I’m eating too much bc of my stupid mindset and my body is strange and not working as it should to or it’s all caoused by stress...

We will see.

I’m going back to uni today and will be back home after 8 days so I hope my mum would take care of our dog and anything bad won’t happen when I’m not here...