#evansamoskin

cal,

i miss you more than words can express. this halloween, i find myself seeing it more as your birthday than as the current-life holiday. i hope you’re doing alright, wherever in this world you are.

though i only kinfirmed recently, every feeling this shift has given me has been very strong- and i’ve been sleeping pretty bad without you because of it. if you were here to hold me, i’m sure i’d be cured. your almost unnatural warmth was one of my favorite things about you, always-

but my actual favorite thing about you is that you’re you. to any cal, even if you’re not my cal, happy birthday. you deserve it.

- evan samos (red queen)

(also, for mpc- i am canon divergent by a decent amount, being a trans man back then- so if you wanted to tag aukin and/or use my in-source name [evangeline] you could, if only for clarification! thank you for running this blog and hosting all of the thoughts we kinfolk have, whether silly or serious. you are doing the gods’ work!)