#evak-malec

he just wanted to make sure aaron was ok and stop aaron from drowning in the little puddle and it was so gentle and he was so worried like he was so c l o s e to losing aaron oh ym god hello feeligns

BECAUSE AARON WILL ALWAYS BE ROBERT’S BEST WHAT IF.

and it’s like this. Robert moves to London, the cacophony of the city enough to keep his thoughts at bay because he does think about them. About the family, he could have had. The life he wanted so desperately, the life he clutched onto as hard as he could until he just had to stop.

The city helps, work helps. He meets people. Makes friends and he cares, cares about them. But they’ll always be that ‘what if’ at the back of his mind. He meets someone then, she’s amazing, his heart skips beat every time she walks into the room. She’s funny, sarcastic, different from Aaron, but yet he finds he loves her and his heart finally starts to heal. 

They do city things. They walk through Hyde Park, go ice skating, she laughs at him as he wipes out, face first into the ice. They go to trendy restaurants and take corny Instagram pictures that everyone in their circle would groan at.

He brings her home. She gets on with Vic. Diane loves her. She knows. Drunk and unable to stop himself it all tumbled out. It takes her a while to process it. But she holds him tight, “we have to live in the moment Rob because that’s all we have.” It’s Christmas, there’s snow everywhere, and Robert’s walking down the street, and he sees him. 

Aaron. His with his new boyfriend and he looks happy. Robert’s happy too. He clutches her hand, watches as Aaron laughs at something this new guy, only his not new, at least not to everyone else says.  And he smiles because Aaron will always be his greatest what if. It doesn’t make him sad anymore, he doesn’t want to sit on the couch and eat a tub of ice cream and listen to sad songs and wallow. Because he has her, and Aaron has him. 

Maybe Robert and her will get married, maybe they’ll have kids. Maybe they’ll be together till they’re old and grey and death takes them from each other (they do.) Robert’s learnt that the what if’s shouldn’t make him sad, they should make him happy. Because he had Aaron, even for just a moment. And that was special. That was important.

And now he can move on and be happy. Aaron can be happy. Even if his life turned out differently than he thought it would.

@evak-malec, have some love! <3

Awwww, Bec you are too kind! I just want everyone to feel what I am feeling, which is positivity! 

Today is the best day I’ve had in this fandom, not just because of the episode (although seeing the boys love each other so much again really didn’t hurt) but because the people: 

@evak-malec your robron blog love today made me cry with happiness, reading what that really made my whole month and whenever I feel bad I know that I’m going to come back to that and it’s going to make me feel better, so thank you that :) 

@howellobrien We only started to follow each other today, but you didn’t waste any time and just started talking to me and I love you for that :) Having discussions with people and talking about ideas and the things we love is why I’m here, so thank you for messaging me :) 

@nooneelsecomesclose17 I see you on my dash all the time, but we don’t really interact other than liking and reblogging and then for a reply to post to turn into a whole conversation was so much fun :) 

Anonymous asked:

Robert curling himself up in the chair beside Aaron's bed in the hospital, not wanting to leave him alone. Then the way he gently kissed Aaron while ruffling his fluffy hair. They kept staring at each other with the biggest heart eyes

he refused to even.... go home or change out of his DAMP LAKE WATER CLOTHES bc he just wanted to sit in his little chair by aaron’s bed 

he honest to god refused to leave aaron’s side

and aaron woke up and saw robert there, and called him over and rob immediately got up and gave him the most relived forehead kiss and they were talking in their soft voices and they’re just

in love