#ettienne

Somehow I'm awake in this uncomfortable bed wishing you'd come lay with me and take me away from this terrible sadness I feel. Lost in a dream that will never come true. In a memory that's already passed. You're gone and somehow I still can't let you go. Still hearing your voice and smelling your scent I can't get you out of my head. Tangled in the veins of my heart. I can feel bits of my loss to your grasp tearing me apart between your fingertips. I watch you pull my heart out. Holding it in your hands like a trophy of sorts. Smiling at me with the innocence of a child. As I take my last breath I look you in the eyes falling to my knees as you kiss me goodbye with your lips of deceit.

I can’t understand how all we’ve been through you still wear it. Idk why you do. Because after all the shit there’s no way you loved me. I know you did once but now it’s just a reminder of how much I lost for your happiness. For your utter smirks of joy and compassion. I worshipped the ground you walked on. You threw me away like I was nothing but dust on your shelf. You don’t know what it’s like to see you and you don’t even look at me with the same glimmer you once did. You no longer get butterflies at the site of me. The love we once shared now blocked by the pain and regret I tasted on your tongue. I still get the same feeling I did when I first looked you in the eye. It’s crazy to know that it’s nothing now it’s just wasted energy. All the memories we shared and all the times I showed you my love. You can never say that I didn’t fucking love you. I tried even when I couldn’t anymore and you still treated me like dirt. No matter what I do I can’t stop thinking about you. I don’t wear my ring but I carry it everywhere I go so even if I go crazy. I’ll never stop being your superman.