#ethixal

(𝐹.𝒞.)

|||Send in a rumor and my muse will either confirm or deny it.|||

🍯 - The statement of which expected an answer, startled her. Nonetheless from the Commander himself. Her muscles tense ever so slightly, but she regards him sincerely. She wonders where he heard it, who he heard it from.

The memory is bittersweet, surrounded by familiar buildings, homes, people- children her own young age. Although, not all of those children were so nice; and it wasn’t uncommon to have bullies perpetually tormenting other kids. As cruel and revolting as it may have been. A boy she remembered, far bigger than her- though it wasn’t surprising, she had always been terribly small. He held a crude smirk, not the ones like Auruo’s, but full of genuine malice. And well, it was eat a raw onion or.. something she’d rather not think about.

There had been a crunch as she bit into it. He hadn’t bothered to wash it either, she’d noticed as tears prickled at her eyes. It burned down her throat, raw as it was. And she hated it, she hated it and the stupid look on the boy’s face as he laughed in hers. Auruo had been livid upon finding out, beyond livid. But he took to her first, not even caring about the lingering aroma of onion on her breath. She appreciated it, then and even now. Ridiculous maybe, but she’d always hated onions after the incident. And Auruo remembered, even after all these years.

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✿ - why did you choose to make your muse?

Oh geez, why didn’t I choose this little shit. Levi was, around the time I first chose to play him, an incredibly misplaced & overdrawn in the fandom’s perspective in regards to his little cleaning tendencies and such. I wanted to give him more than just the stigma surrounding him, that’s what first drew me to him. My sole goal was to create a character rather than this fanatic who “lol likes to beat on children.” (It still drives me in-fucking-sane that people still view him this way but I won’t get into that.) Then the more and more about his past that was exposed and the deeper I delved into him, I??? couldn’t part from falling in love with his development. Levi is incredibly near and dear to my heart and writing him... in a weird way, has helped me, personally, so much? I was going through some really tough shit and lmAOO THIS IS So dumb to admit but seeing him able to persevere & make it out of his own trauma has... not inspired me to do the same, but, given me hope that...??? Perhaps make the ability to get over things is more tangible than I believed. Ah--- it’s hard to explain but this little guy has helped me in a lot of ways and I just have so much love for him okie.

✘ - what portrayal are you really proud of? 

HHHHHHH. I HONESTLY?!?! Hate a lot of things I write!! I don’t think I ever give enough justice and js t hhh... I wanna say Levi but even then I’m hesitant because I’m not always incredibly confident w him. I jus t try my best okie.

❃ - what’s a really small way you’re similar to your muse?