Birthday.
Today is the day that we fell out of the fucking sky 23 years ago and landed in Idaho, shortly after having been created in an ectobiology lab with our twin sister, Brae. This was of course before me and Rise were separate people.
Despite this, Rise has turned 25 years old today, on account of their use of time travel on occasion. Perhaps it is another day that lines up better for the exact elapsed time of a year that they have experienced, but that is far more difficult to plan for.
As for me? I am already dead, as an anime meathead once famously said. I feel no attachment to the progression of my own years in the land of the living.
Oddly enough however, the anniversary of mine and Raine's wedding (April 13th, 2007) is a more meaningful date to me, and that's not just because it falls on June Egbert's birthday.
That date marked the beginning of a new era for me. One where I would no longer have to be defined solely by my troubled past.
Perhaps my birthday has more baggage than previously thought. Then again, when was even the last time anyone ever even celebrated it when I was actually alive? When I turned 14, I was alone in the furthest ring on the beginning of my perilous journey. When I turned 15, that was when me and Rise met over the memo for the first time as separate instances. Searching ancient chat logs, I was very much cringe. They were likely also cringe. Such is the story of most teenagers, I suppose. That day nobody really did all that much for the occasion. When I turned 16, I was still lost in the darkness of the abyss. I can only assume that far more years occurred as my natural ability to distinguish time while in the furthest ring began to degrade. I think by the time I reached Session p, I was likely 18 years old, perhaps older. It was already winter by the time I arrived.
After that session, I was no longer alive, and counting my years become irrelevant in the face of eternity.
That being said, some of my close friends and family did suggest that I ought to at least acknowledge the date once a year.
I wish it was not so difficult for me to do that...
At least I did manage to build and furnish Shard's room today. Tonight they sleep in a bed all their own, and without nightmares.
If only my own restful sleep could be achieved so easily...
